Diamond rope, silver chain, pretty noose is pretty pain, and I don't like what you've got me hanging from... ~ Soundgarden

Whoa! alot's gone on since last week! Sorry for the lack of updates; been reallyyyyy busy :P

The Pops Concert was awesome, especially our finale of High School Musical. I'm so happy I was in it! Although Syri and I thought we messed up our song ("Truly Madly Deeply" from Savage Garden), everyone told me we were great :) Cannot wait till next year's; SENIOR!!!! w00t!!!!
So after that I still have drama rehearsals, in which I'm now one of the main characters :D I'm so excited! I can't wait to officially start blocking my character and rehearsing as Thomas. Yes, I said Thomas as in I play a guy =x Rocky's my big brother, Erik, and my new friend Laura is my mom. Oh, and this little guy named Nate is my father. The sad thing is I play the youngest member of this family and I'm the oldest out of all the actors haha! But I'm excited like I said!

Then yesterday a had a bike . She fractured her nose, chipped her teeth, and had to get a buttload of stitches. Of course I'm the nice one who offers to run back up to the school to try and convince the nurse to come help us and she said no ("it's considered to be off of school property; I cannot leave the building; blah blah blah"...whatever), so from all the running (in circles, nonetheless) I was dizzy and couldn't stop coughing. I sat down on the hill by the school and as I was sitting there, Kyle came over and asked me if I was okay. I thought that that's all he wanted to say so I got up and started to leave, only to be told that I'm cute (his exact words: "You're cute. I can't believe I never noticed this before. No, you're not just cute; you're down-right attractive" XDDXDDXDD *much much happy!!!*). Of course, I can't leave after that, so we started talking and he apologized for pushing me away as much as he has and I don't know...I just hope something good comes out of this. You know, like maybe we'll start dating and we'll be happy :):):):):):):):)

But that's about all that's going on in my life for the moment...except I'm going to the Winter Ball tomorrow night with Rocky. This should be fun :) I'll get some pictures and post them here so we can all be happy and say I'm pretty (just kidding with that last one :P).



Well, I think I'll go for now...:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

until next we meet...
♥*

Am I ever on your mind? ~ Evans Blue

I FINALLY know exactly what I want in a guy...

Firstly, he should want to be with me
Be there to hold me through the nightmare and wipe away the tears that I shed from all the damage I've been put through
Someone who will sing me to sleep, either on the phone or in person
Someone who will push me around in the back of a shopping cart
Someone who fully accepts me; dreams, wishes, scars, everything
He can't walk away from me when I need him
Laugh at my humourous things (I can be funny)
Don't put me down, ever
Don't lie to me; it disappoints me more than knowing the cold truth
Spend hours on the phone with me, just because it helps him feel close to me, and I can hear his voice; maybe even fall asleep on the phone with me
Someone who will make me feel safe...even when I'm not in their arms
We should have things in common, but I'm very open-minded and willing to try new things
MUST be open-minded; if he's not, he won't be able to put up with me
His looks are secondary, be he should be attractive in my eyes
He should tell me I'm beautiful, because he truly thinks I am
Finally, I just want a guy who will simply stand still with me...as if we're the only two people left in existance...or so we should feel...

I've been thinking about this for a long time now, and no Donny isn't this guy. I haven't found this guy yet...thought I did at one point, but he ditched me. I still love him but I've given up hope. Then there have been others that have come close but none are perfect, which is what I want. A human guy, a guy who doesn't have a God Complex or a huge Ego and doesn't need me and I DO NOT want a guy who thinks he has to lie to me to keep me happy! That's the LAST thing I want.
But my list...*sigh* So much I put into it...

Will anyone fill this void in my life? =/

<3*

"My conscience calls too guilty to come home..." ~ Bullet For My Valentine

Hahaha, oh how I love my friends, especially Rocky!
messed up STAR k: right, it would be cute to push your gf around in a shopping cart at like wal-mart or price chopper?
CPrelientK77: um maybe
messed up STAR k: omgoshhhhh...do you think I'm insane too
messed up STAR k: ?
CPrelientK77: lol
CPrelientK77: nooo.... y wud i think that?
CPrelientK77: j/k lol
messed up STAR k: lol...*sigh* that's all I want...a guy to push me around in a shopping cart
messed up STAR k: the back of it, not the kiddie seat haha
CPrelientK77: that means that you're dangerously dependent on guys
CPrelientK77: no seriously I read that in a book
CPrelientK77: or not...;-)
messed up STAR k: whattttt???? I just thought it sounded cute
messed up STAR k: I'm not dependant on anyone, except Jesus
CPrelientK77: lol
CPrelientK77: i wuz j/k
CPrelientK77: wankin your chain lol
messed up STAR k: hahahaha surrrre

*sigh* All I want is a guy to push me around a store in a shopping cart. I think it would be adorable and I'd sooo take pictures hehe!

Also, everyone should listen to the song "Existentalism on Prom Night" by Straylight Run. It's amazing!

...Sing me something soft

Sad and delicate

Or loud and out of key

Sing me anything...

Seriously, go download it or something...NOW!! I would love to perform it for the Pops Concert next year as it is my Senior High School year =P But the teacher probably won't let me, because it's sung by a guy. Whatever though...it would be super uber...hehe!

the rest of the night is devoted to homework and rehearsal...grrrrr....

until next we meet...<3

This song helps me get through all the hard times I've been going through over the past couple weeks...

Although this is going to sound cliche since I love music as much as I do, I have a song that has honestly helped me in alot of areas. May it be giving my life fully to The Lord Jesus Christ or just getting through a day at high school...and this band is AMAZING...
So without anymore introduction...

underØATH :: Some Will Seek Forgiveness, Others Escape

I heard a voice through the discord
A deluge of passersby
I saw one gaze frozen in time
Watching me passing by

And I swear I'll know your face in the crowd
And I'll hear your voice so loud
When you're whispering

Hey unfaithful
I will teach you
To be stronger, to be stronger
Hey ungraceful
I will teach you
To forgive one another.

Here's my kiss to betray (Kiss to betray)
Desperate to brush the lips of grace (Brush the lips of grace)
Do you feel hollow when you think of how I lied?

Oh sweet angel of mercy
With your grace like the morning
Wrap your loving arms around me
Oh sweet angel of mercy
With your grace like the morning
Wrap your loving arms around me

Hey unfaithful
I will teach you
To be stronger, to be stronger
Hey ungraceful I will teach you
To forgive one another

Hey unfaithful
I will teach you
To be stronger, to be stronger
Hey unloving
I will love you
I will love you
I will love you

And Jesus I'm ready to come home
Jesus, I'm ready to come home
(home) home (home)
I'm ready to come (home)

Hey Unfaithful
Hey Ungraceful
Hey Unloving
I will love you
Hey Unloving (Hey Unloving)
I will love you

And with that, I shall return to my discussion about religion with Clayton...
♥*

I'll be just fine pretending I'm not... ~ The Used

He lied to me. For over a week, Donny lied to me, saying he loved me and couldn't wait to be with me. I just couldn't believe it when he told me earlier. You better believe I cried my eyes out.
This just goes to show that I get my hopes up wayyyy too high too often and I need to stop doing that. I just can't believe that I let him let me fall like that for him again. I KNOW what he does; I've dated him twice before...but for some reason, this time felt different. Like, we both really wanted to be with each other...but no, he'd rather have his friend, Rayna, which if I ever meet her, I will tell her she's the luckiest girl alive because he's a great guy...at least when you're dating him. I wish I was her...I really do.
I'm never good enough for any of the guys I like...*sigh*

But whatever. You know, I'm not going to let this tear me down. I will stay strong.

Now all I need is to talk to Rocky...hehe!

Whispers, 'hello I miss you quite terribly'... ~ hellogoodbye

So now I'm home, which is better than Web Design, in my opinion.
And my loverrrr still isn't online...he was last night and I talked to him then, but I wanted to today because it's his birthday hehe. I'm such a good almost girlfriend. Once I get one, I'll have to post a picture of us together. I cannot WAIT to see him and be with again. I think he's amazing, and he thinks I'm amazingly beautiful =D
(so this is my loverrr, Donny...isn't he hott? ^_~)

But aside from that, I'm alright. Just overworking myself with all the stuff I'm in. All next week is filled with rehearsals and homework, so hopefully loverrrr will call me instead of IMing me...I do love his voice hehe It's hott =P

Here's how the next week is going to roll:

Monday - 6-7pm - Choirlaires Dress Rehearsal w/ Syri

Tuesday - 6-8pm - Choirlaires Dress Rehearsal w/ group

Wednesday - 6:30-8:30pm - Drama Rehearsal

Thursday - 6-8pm - Choirlaires Dress Rehearsal w/ group (final one before concert)

Friday - 6-10pm - Pops Concert (FINALLY, after all this rehearsing...*sigh*)

So hopefully after this next week, I'll be a bit more relaxed and back to normal. With the Pops Concert over, I'll get back to my normal routine of talking to Donny (my loverrrr) online and going to Drama rehearsals along with doing my homework. *sigh*

I don't like being a high school junior...=( Wayyyy too much stress hahaha!

Lastily, happy 19th birthday to my Donny; my one and only loverrrrr, the 1st half of the kinky couple hehe! I love you so much babe! *muah!*

They are timebombs and they are ticking... ~ Relient K*

Well, heyyyy~
I'm Kristin and I guess this will be my newest blogspot-thingie. I'm in my one class in High School at the moment, while waiting for my love to WRITE BACK TO ME on AIM. He's like this sometimes...and now he's gone...again...

Anyways, I'm not normally whiny. Most people call me an intellectual, because I'm definitely not intelligent. I love music, it's my life. I've been called the human I-Pod because I can rattle off band names, titles, composers, and pretty much everything else right off the top of my head. I'm a computer DORK, not geek; geeks are smart. I'm not smart.

So, speaking of music, this entire blog is named after a couple of my favorite songs. The title ("Though I'm weak inside, I'm Thriving Just The Same") is from a song by Something Corporate called "Wait" and the link (isawyougofaster) is from a Third Eye Blind song titled "Faster". I downloaded both of them on my Limewire at home :)


In any case, I might actually redo this thingie and use it...but I'm not sure. My HTML skills are rusty, to say the least. That's why I'm in WebPageDesign...where I'm supposed to be working on a website for my school *rolls eyes* I enjoy making them about myself from scratch, not using DreamWeaver. It's too confusing, in my opinion.
But I might as well get back to that work I need to do ;D

I shall talk to all of you again soon~!

<3,
Kristin