w00tz! This is my hundredth post in here! XDXD Let's keep me blogging for many many more years to come, shall we? And no Elijah my blog does NOT suck! :P
So today was definitely an emotional rollercoaster for me. I attempted getting back together with James, and it failed; he doesn't want committment and I do. I then attempted getting him to make me hate him, and he got close; he basically told me that dealing with me is like "running in circles with a retard" so I cried, screamed "I HATE YOU" at him through the phone, and hung up. He and I just need time then we'll be friends.
Remember Kyle, everyone? If you don't or weren't around back then, refer to May 2007 - sometime in 2008 I think. Kyle was my "high school sweetheart" in a way; we dated on and off a few times and then lost contact until last week. Now he won't stop texting me :P He's attempting to get me to date him again, and I may but I'm skeptical. What if this doesn't work out again?! Really, our patterns don't show "success". But who knows, right?
That one friend contacted me tonight confirming that we are no longer friends. That's fine; guess we had a good run, eh? Really, I'm just upset with them for blatantly ignoring my birthday; sounds petty but we all had to make a big deal for their birthday, so why should mine be ignored?! Whatever though. Water under the bridge. If they want to be my friend again, they know how to get at me.
And now for Bo video #2! :D
Yes, he tries rapping about himself :P This is song #1 like this; the other is called "I'm Bo Yo". Gosh, I love him! <33333
Alright, back to Facebook and maybe that boyyy will IM me :)
until next we meet...
♥*
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
"When single frames from one magic night, Forever flicker in close up on the 3-D Imax of my mind..." RENT the musical
I took a better picture this morning so you all can either "AWWWW" or laugh at my hair:
And yes I AM 20! I know I look like I'm 12 here but bear with me.
I also FINALLY got around to uploading my Bo Burnham videos from his show but I don't think I'll post them all here at once; maybe one a day for five days :D
Day One :: My Whole Family...
Excuse the fact that I'm so far back; we had seats in the second to last row because I didn't know I was going until 2 days before and purchased our tickets that Friday at 5pm :P I'm cool, I know. Still amazing sound quality, eh?
Oh, I may come back later. I don't know yet.
until next we meet...
♥*
And yes I AM 20! I know I look like I'm 12 here but bear with me.
I also FINALLY got around to uploading my Bo Burnham videos from his show but I don't think I'll post them all here at once; maybe one a day for five days :D
Day One :: My Whole Family...
Excuse the fact that I'm so far back; we had seats in the second to last row because I didn't know I was going until 2 days before and purchased our tickets that Friday at 5pm :P I'm cool, I know. Still amazing sound quality, eh?
Oh, I may come back later. I don't know yet.
until next we meet...
♥*
Monday, September 28, 2009
Since we were all curious:
Color Oops is probably good for those of us who DO NOT BLEACH THEIR HAIR as much as I have. You see I went from having super dark hair to this:
Now I understand that I'm a natural blond but come on! Haha! On the bright side, James says I can now pull off being the slutty pumpkin for Halloween (it's a How I Met Your Mother thing; my favorite episode :]])
That's it for tonight, since I need to be up early to work for Vicki tomorrow morning. I'm going to rewatch The Guild and crash!
until next we meet...
♥*
Now I understand that I'm a natural blond but come on! Haha! On the bright side, James says I can now pull off being the slutty pumpkin for Halloween (it's a How I Met Your Mother thing; my favorite episode :]])
That's it for tonight, since I need to be up early to work for Vicki tomorrow morning. I'm going to rewatch The Guild and crash!
until next we meet...
♥*
Sunday, September 27, 2009
"It's a brand new day, And the sun is high, All the angels sing, Because you're gonna die!..." - Dr. Horrible's Sing Along Blog <3
After careful consideration and a lot of thought (which I'm thinking are almost the same thing), I've decided that I'm going to be different. In a good way. Like...a better person who loves life, herself, and her true friends :) I know I've been taking advantage of most of my friends, and I'm truly sorry about that; it just hit me :/ so from now on I'm going to be calmer, less clingy, and more fun! :D And don't just sit there, laughing, saying, "OMG Kristin?! More fun?! She could never be!". Think again, doubting Thomas! It's going to happen and it's going to be...LEGENDARY!
BUT ENOUGH OF THAT! :D
This past week has been pretty good, for the most part. That boyyy and I are still talking, and we're still friends :) James tried asking me back out, and I rejected him; I REALLY don't want him back, and I REALLY have moved on!
But I have to say the highlight of my ENTIRE week was the Bo Burnham show I went to with Adam last night at The Egg in Albany, NY. OMG SO MUCH FUN! And Bo is even funnier live than in his amazing videos. But not just the show was amazing; hanging out with Adam was super fun too! Getting lost in Albany trying to find a parking spot, blasting rap music through one ghetto section so maybe we'd "fit in", making fun of the "Bo Hos" who had just as bad of seats as we did (in our defense, I didn't buy the tickets until the night before), MEETING BO BURNHAM...and Adam giving Bo *his* autograph :P, and finally...trying to find the thru-way exit out of Albany and contemplating what we'd do if we got lost XD That night was definitely full of WIN! <3
And yes yes I did meet Bo Burnham, who is a GIANT with HUGE feet!
<3 le sigh...:-*
"My exgirlfriend has this fetish. She likes to dress up as herself and act like a F****** B****!" - his opening line of his show XD
Tonight I removed all the dark color from my hair and am officially a blond again :D That boyyy says it's much better this way. No I didn't just do this for him; I was sick of the darkness. I want to be happier...this could be the first step in! :)
AHHHHHH! I just realized Cora never called me T_T I wanted to tell her about Bo :P
until next we meet...
♥*
BUT ENOUGH OF THAT! :D
This past week has been pretty good, for the most part. That boyyy and I are still talking, and we're still friends :) James tried asking me back out, and I rejected him; I REALLY don't want him back, and I REALLY have moved on!
But I have to say the highlight of my ENTIRE week was the Bo Burnham show I went to with Adam last night at The Egg in Albany, NY. OMG SO MUCH FUN! And Bo is even funnier live than in his amazing videos. But not just the show was amazing; hanging out with Adam was super fun too! Getting lost in Albany trying to find a parking spot, blasting rap music through one ghetto section so maybe we'd "fit in", making fun of the "Bo Hos" who had just as bad of seats as we did (in our defense, I didn't buy the tickets until the night before), MEETING BO BURNHAM...and Adam giving Bo *his* autograph :P, and finally...trying to find the thru-way exit out of Albany and contemplating what we'd do if we got lost XD That night was definitely full of WIN! <3
And yes yes I did meet Bo Burnham, who is a GIANT with HUGE feet!
<3 le sigh...:-*
"My exgirlfriend has this fetish. She likes to dress up as herself and act like a F****** B****!" - his opening line of his show XD
Tonight I removed all the dark color from my hair and am officially a blond again :D That boyyy says it's much better this way. No I didn't just do this for him; I was sick of the darkness. I want to be happier...this could be the first step in! :)
AHHHHHH! I just realized Cora never called me T_T I wanted to tell her about Bo :P
until next we meet...
♥*
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Since I'm still listening to yesterday's song, here's a survey.
People say you learn something new everyday, what did you learn today?
Maybe there really isn't a perfect one out there for each of us.
Did you have a good day yesterday?
For the most part, until the night.
Have you done anything embarrassing lately?
I don't get embarrassed. Proven fact.
What is something you disliked about your day?
Coming to the realization that he doesn't want me.
How has the past week been for you?
My past week was epic win.
Does anyone disgust you?
A couple people.
Who was the first person you talked to today?
Kory.
Has anyone ever told you they're in love with you?
Not recently.
Have you ever taken someone back after they hurt you?
Several times. I never learn.
Do you have a lot on your mind at the moment?
Oh, wouldn't you like to know?
Do you think any of your exes will eventually want to be with you again?
That's a silly question considering that my most recent one does want me back.
Are you wearing any make up right now?
Eye liner.
Has anyone disappointed you recently?
Eh, sorta.
Do you have a reason to smile right now?
Meh.
Who was the last person that wasn't family to give you a ride somewhere?
Amy from Rite Aid gave me a ride home.
What was the last thing you drank?
Water.
Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
Nope.
If you could have something right now, what would it be?
Him, but that's not possible.
Could you go for the rest of your life without drinking alcohol?
I don't know.
Who's bed were you last on?
I sleep on the couch.
Does anyone have feelings for you?
Not that I know of, but if anyone does they should REALLY speak up now.
Are you happy with the choices you've made?
Yes/No
At this very moment, what exactly are you doing?
Filling out this survey.
Where's your ex at?
Working at the arcade.
Is there anyone you wouldn't mind punching right now? Who?
Yes. I'm not naming names.
Is there someone you wouldn't mind kissing right now?
Of course.
This time last year were you single?
Yes.
How are you feeling right now?
Blah.
Are you a big fan of thunderstorms?
Nope.
You're single, why?
He's taking his time before he decides he actually wants me then in the end will he still want me?
Do you eat ranch with your pizza?
Yes.
Last person to text you, what grade is he/she in?
Dave; Senior in College, I believe.
How did your day go yesterday?
Pretty good.
What should you be doing right now?
No clue. Give me something to do.
What color shirt were you wearing when you had your last kiss?
Blue.
What comes to mind when I say 69?
Haha.
Could you go a whole year without cursing?
Probably.
Who's your favorite redhead?
Don't have one.
Do you know what you want to be when you grow up?
Massage therapist.
When was the last time you felt like just disappearing?
Today.
What are you currently listening to?
My family talking around me.
Do you wish someone would turn up at your front door right now?
Yes but that's wishful thinking.
Who was the last person you had a face to face conversation with?
People at work.
What were you doing at 12 am last night?
Waiting for him to get online and he never did so I just went to bed.
Where did you sleep three nights ago?
The couch.
Does it bother you when someone lies to you?
Usually.
Do you think you and your best friends will still be friends in 10 years?
Hopefully.
Do you fall for people easily?
Sometimes.
How has this past week been for you?
Alright, I guess.
Have you had any beer this week?
Ew, nope.
What color are your eyes?
Green/Blue/Yellow/Gray.
Who was the last person in your bedroom?
I don't have a bedroom. I sleep in the living room.
Are you younger than 19?
No. I'm a year older.
Are you in a relationship at this point in time?
I wish I was.
Ever eaten soap?
Yes. Not that exciting.
Is there a place you would like to visit?
Yes.
When was the last time a member of the opposite sex hugged you?
I don't even remember.
What is on your wrists right now?
One wrist is naked and the other has two of those bandy-bracelets for cancer research support.
Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?
All the time.
Do you straighten your hair often?
I don't have to.
Do you get drunk every weekend?
No.
Are you a bad influence?
I've been told I can be.
Who was the last person you took a picture with?
Joanna, Melissa, and my sister.
Will this weekend be a good one?
One can hope.
Have you argued with anyone today?
I wouldn't call it an argument.
Are you jealous of anyone at the moment?
Not really.
Are you currently wanting any body piercings or tattoos?
No since I pretty much have all the ones I want.
Is tomorrow going to be a good day?
I sure hope so.
Does anyone completely understand you?
There's one person.
Do you honestly believe that good things come to those who wait?
For the most part.
Would you rather have a double or single date?
Single.
Ready for kids?
Eventually, maybe.
What if you had a baby with the last person you texted?
It would be an epic win baby, no doubt.
Who was the last person you talked on the phone with?
I talked to Kory's voicemail. Does that count?
Who was the last person to call you babe/baby?
No one recently :(
Are there any stressful situations in your life?
Only the ones I'm making stressful. I have to stop doing that.
Is there someone you don't ever want to be out of your life?
Of course! <3
Do you think relationships are hard?
Only if you make them harder than they are.
Are you trying to avoid somebody at the moment?
Not really.
Do you have nice eyes?
I've been told so.
How do you feel about girls who smoke?
Doesn't bother me.
Were you happy when you woke up?
Meh.
Maybe there really isn't a perfect one out there for each of us.
Did you have a good day yesterday?
For the most part, until the night.
Have you done anything embarrassing lately?
I don't get embarrassed. Proven fact.
What is something you disliked about your day?
Coming to the realization that he doesn't want me.
How has the past week been for you?
My past week was epic win.
Does anyone disgust you?
A couple people.
Who was the first person you talked to today?
Kory.
Has anyone ever told you they're in love with you?
Not recently.
Have you ever taken someone back after they hurt you?
Several times. I never learn.
Do you have a lot on your mind at the moment?
Oh, wouldn't you like to know?
Do you think any of your exes will eventually want to be with you again?
That's a silly question considering that my most recent one does want me back.
Are you wearing any make up right now?
Eye liner.
Has anyone disappointed you recently?
Eh, sorta.
Do you have a reason to smile right now?
Meh.
Who was the last person that wasn't family to give you a ride somewhere?
Amy from Rite Aid gave me a ride home.
What was the last thing you drank?
Water.
Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
Nope.
If you could have something right now, what would it be?
Him, but that's not possible.
Could you go for the rest of your life without drinking alcohol?
I don't know.
Who's bed were you last on?
I sleep on the couch.
Does anyone have feelings for you?
Not that I know of, but if anyone does they should REALLY speak up now.
Are you happy with the choices you've made?
Yes/No
At this very moment, what exactly are you doing?
Filling out this survey.
Where's your ex at?
Working at the arcade.
Is there anyone you wouldn't mind punching right now? Who?
Yes. I'm not naming names.
Is there someone you wouldn't mind kissing right now?
Of course.
This time last year were you single?
Yes.
How are you feeling right now?
Blah.
Are you a big fan of thunderstorms?
Nope.
You're single, why?
He's taking his time before he decides he actually wants me then in the end will he still want me?
Do you eat ranch with your pizza?
Yes.
Last person to text you, what grade is he/she in?
Dave; Senior in College, I believe.
How did your day go yesterday?
Pretty good.
What should you be doing right now?
No clue. Give me something to do.
What color shirt were you wearing when you had your last kiss?
Blue.
What comes to mind when I say 69?
Haha.
Could you go a whole year without cursing?
Probably.
Who's your favorite redhead?
Don't have one.
Do you know what you want to be when you grow up?
Massage therapist.
When was the last time you felt like just disappearing?
Today.
What are you currently listening to?
My family talking around me.
Do you wish someone would turn up at your front door right now?
Yes but that's wishful thinking.
Who was the last person you had a face to face conversation with?
People at work.
What were you doing at 12 am last night?
Waiting for him to get online and he never did so I just went to bed.
Where did you sleep three nights ago?
The couch.
Does it bother you when someone lies to you?
Usually.
Do you think you and your best friends will still be friends in 10 years?
Hopefully.
Do you fall for people easily?
Sometimes.
How has this past week been for you?
Alright, I guess.
Have you had any beer this week?
Ew, nope.
What color are your eyes?
Green/Blue/Yellow/Gray.
Who was the last person in your bedroom?
I don't have a bedroom. I sleep in the living room.
Are you younger than 19?
No. I'm a year older.
Are you in a relationship at this point in time?
I wish I was.
Ever eaten soap?
Yes. Not that exciting.
Is there a place you would like to visit?
Yes.
When was the last time a member of the opposite sex hugged you?
I don't even remember.
What is on your wrists right now?
One wrist is naked and the other has two of those bandy-bracelets for cancer research support.
Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?
All the time.
Do you straighten your hair often?
I don't have to.
Do you get drunk every weekend?
No.
Are you a bad influence?
I've been told I can be.
Who was the last person you took a picture with?
Joanna, Melissa, and my sister.
Will this weekend be a good one?
One can hope.
Have you argued with anyone today?
I wouldn't call it an argument.
Are you jealous of anyone at the moment?
Not really.
Are you currently wanting any body piercings or tattoos?
No since I pretty much have all the ones I want.
Is tomorrow going to be a good day?
I sure hope so.
Does anyone completely understand you?
There's one person.
Do you honestly believe that good things come to those who wait?
For the most part.
Would you rather have a double or single date?
Single.
Ready for kids?
Eventually, maybe.
What if you had a baby with the last person you texted?
It would be an epic win baby, no doubt.
Who was the last person you talked on the phone with?
I talked to Kory's voicemail. Does that count?
Who was the last person to call you babe/baby?
No one recently :(
Are there any stressful situations in your life?
Only the ones I'm making stressful. I have to stop doing that.
Is there someone you don't ever want to be out of your life?
Of course! <3
Do you think relationships are hard?
Only if you make them harder than they are.
Are you trying to avoid somebody at the moment?
Not really.
Do you have nice eyes?
I've been told so.
How do you feel about girls who smoke?
Doesn't bother me.
Were you happy when you woke up?
Meh.
Monday, September 21, 2009
"I'm just as nervous as you are, I'm just a piece of glass, I'm just a subtle memory, That hasn't fully passed..." :: Evans Blue <33
Ugh, I feel so blah tonight :( I don't even know why, to be honest; like, I have no reason to be. But part of me is screaming "WHAT ARE YOU DOING?! JUST STOP WHILE YOU'RE AHEAD!" and the other part is all "Everything will work out in the end; stay at it!" and then there's a teeny, tiny little voice saying "Don't listen to anyone". I hate this feeling. It makes me just want to give up and accept defeat.
If I went back to him, it would just end badly like it did the first time. If I keep waiting around for him to make up his mind, I could be waiting forever. See my paradox? Someone have any advice for me!
I leave you with my song of the night ["No One Looks As Good As You In That" - Evans Blue]
until next we meet...
♥*
If I went back to him, it would just end badly like it did the first time. If I keep waiting around for him to make up his mind, I could be waiting forever. See my paradox? Someone have any advice for me!
I leave you with my song of the night ["No One Looks As Good As You In That" - Evans Blue]
until next we meet...
♥*
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
A couple rules I choose to live by
* NEVER follow any code (ie - The Bro Code, The Girl Code, etc); always just do what makes you happy.
* When attempting to catch someone's attention, make sure they cannot read your blog :x Trust me, it's not all it's cracked up to be.
* Don't talk to a person about themselves.
Example - Kristin wouldn't talk to Kory about Kory; Kory wouldn't talk to Kristin about Kristin.
[these are just examples and since I'm talking to him at the moment, he's the first name that popped in my head, sorry]
* Nothing good happens after 2am; when 2am hits you just go to bed.
There you have it! :P
* When attempting to catch someone's attention, make sure they cannot read your blog :x Trust me, it's not all it's cracked up to be.
* Don't talk to a person about themselves.
Example - Kristin wouldn't talk to Kory about Kory; Kory wouldn't talk to Kristin about Kristin.
[these are just examples and since I'm talking to him at the moment, he's the first name that popped in my head, sorry]
* Nothing good happens after 2am; when 2am hits you just go to bed.
There you have it! :P
baby you'll be famous, chase you until you love me <3
In case you all missed it or didn't know to begin with, today is my 20th birthday! Wootz! I've been alive for two decades...and what an eventful two decades they have been :P
I don't know why, but I have an amazingly good feeling about this year. I mean, not much as changed dramatically since I was 19 (okay it's been a half-hour but still). Is it because I'm actually happier with my life? Could be. Is it because I'm getting closer and closer to Kory every time we talk? Could be. Whatever the case, I hope this lasts for me XD
On a slightly more random note, I've become slightly addicted to Lady Gaga's song "Paparazzi". It's so catchy and fun, and according to James it should be my theme song...?
Well, I'm going to go back to IMing Kory and whatnot before crashing <33
until next we meet...
♥
I don't know why, but I have an amazingly good feeling about this year. I mean, not much as changed dramatically since I was 19 (okay it's been a half-hour but still). Is it because I'm actually happier with my life? Could be. Is it because I'm getting closer and closer to Kory every time we talk? Could be. Whatever the case, I hope this lasts for me XD
On a slightly more random note, I've become slightly addicted to Lady Gaga's song "Paparazzi". It's so catchy and fun, and according to James it should be my theme song...?
Well, I'm going to go back to IMing Kory and whatnot before crashing <33
until next we meet...
♥
Monday, September 14, 2009
Sunday, September 13, 2009
"Nothing good happens after 2am; when 2am hits you just go to bed" :: Ted Moseby [How I Met Your Mother]
Have you ever set anything on fire?
A candle and a cigarette. Yes.
Has anyone ever called you heartless?
Oh, several times.
Who sent the last text that made you smile?
Probably Dave.
If you don't like someone, are you mean to them, or do you ignore them?
Ignore them.
Can you tell me a little secret you have?
I've liked the same guy since 8th grade and still haven't given up on him yet :P
Do you eat meat?
Yes sir.
Would you like to lose weight?
Yes sir.
Do you watch any tv shows with your mother?
TV on DVD and not too much.
Do you know when your parents' anniversary is?
June 28.
Who are you thinking about right now?
A couple people.
Which would be more meaningful to you: I love you a lot, I love you so much, or I love you more than anything?
I love you more than anything, which is a lie but it's a nice lie.
If I say "psycho", who is the first person that comes to your mind?
Ahahahaha...don't ask me that.
Does it piss you off that stupid sixth graders think they're in love?
YES! They don't know what love is until they've be shattered like I have.
Is there a specific moment you can replay in your mind perfectly?
Yes :/
Who was the last person to call you and why?
Anthony, to tell me he might stop in to my job and see me. He didn't :P
Do you plan on sleeping in tomorrow?
Yes sir.
If you were in the hospital on life support, who would come and visit you?
I know for a fact Kory, Cora, Tawny, and Anthony would :)
What was the first thing you thought of this morning?
Meh, I don't want to go to work D:
Are there some songs you can't listen to because they remind you of someone?
Ohhh I have many.
Does it matter to you if your boyfriend/girlfriend drinks?
Not really. As long as they're not drunks.
What is your favorite breed of dog?:
I don't know.
Do you know anyone who doesn’t eat meat?
I know several people.
What’s your most embarrassing moment recently?
Oh gosh, I don't even know.
Metaphorically speaking, what was the last thing to crush you?
Finding out the truth about something I had suspected from the beginning.
I hate you.
Do clingy people bother you?
Nope, because I'm one of them.
What's one unique thing about you?
Psh, me in general. I was voted Most Unique by my senior class.
Where or when do you feel the safest?
When I'm sleeping with my teddy bear. Yeah, sounds lame but it's true.
Do you think that mankind is essentially good or essentially bad?
In the middle.
When a lot of things go wrong at once, how do you react?
I blank and freeze up.
Name something that you treasure:
My teddy bear.
At what point were your parents most disappointed in you?
When I started failing school.
Night owl or early bird?
Night owl, definitely.
What would you do if a leprechaun jumped out of a bush and stole your wallet?
It honestly would take me a minute to realize my wallet was stolen and then I'd chase after the little jerk.
Do you ever wear mis-matched socks?
Always <3
How do you handle a break up?
Depends on how into the relationship I was.
What happened at 9 AM today?
No idea since I was still asleep.
What woke you up this morning?
Everyone else was awake.
Do you want your life to stay the way it is right now forever?
No way.
Are you nice to everyone?
Everyone that I trust, yes.
What is the last thing you did before bed last night?
Started watching The Invisible and IMed Kory.
What is the latest you've stayed up in the past week?
4am
Do you think your life story would make a great movie?
It might, actually.
Who are your last four texts from?
Facebook, Twitter, Facebook, Facebook.
Wow, I sound pathetic there.
Do you trust all your friends?
Absolutely not.
When will your next kiss be?
No clue.
Do you always get along with your friends?
Not always.
Would you rather your partner have gorgeous eyes or a gorgeous smile?
Smile. Teeth are a biiiig issue with me.
Something you're looking forward to in the next month?
Bo Burnham and possibly Ludo <3
Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 months from now?
I hope so, but probably not.
Day been rough?
Meh, on and off.
Do you know anyone who has messed up your life?
Oh yes.
Would you ever donate blood?
Sure.
Have you ever read Twilight?
Just the first book.
In the past week have you felt sad?
Not really, to be honest.
Did you wake up in the middle of the night last night?
No, because I was already awake.
Would you ever let a boyfriend/girlfriend put you through hell and back?
I have before.
Any plans for tomorrow?
Day off. I never plan.
Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile no matter what?
Oh yes :) For them I am eternally grateful.
Do you believe in perfect?
No.
What if you had a baby with the last person you texted?
Hmmm...a baby with Twitter? XD
What is something you disliked about today?
Screaming children in my store >:O
Can you walk into a room full of strangers and maintain your confidence?
Usually.
What made you happy today?
Very few things, actually.
Do you like meeting new people?
Of course!
Who was your last missed call?
Anthony.
Are you good at giving advice?
Depends on who I'm giving the advice to.
Can you handle the truth?
Oh, I prefer it.
What's your opinion on pot?
Meh. I won't do it.
Who was the last person you talked to last night before you went to bed?
Kory over IM.
Does it matter if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes or chews?
Not really. I've dated a smoker before.
If given the chance and you wouldn't get caught, would you try heroine?
No.
Who was the last person in your home besides family?
I don't know.
Was last night enjoyable for you?
Actually, yes it was :D Mayonaise ;]
Don't tell me lies, so is the last person you texted attractive?
Oh, yes. Twitter is a sexy beast.
You kissed someone last night, didn't you?
Oh, yes, you caught me. I kissed my teddy bear Dani.
Did you have a better day yesterday or today?
Yesterday.
Have you ever just felt like you could cry an ocean?
I have cried an ocean a couple times.
Warm, cold, or content?
Chilly.
Do you believe everything happens for a reason?
Yes sir.
What was your last thought before you went to bed last night?
"I want to watch this movie..."
Do you have a job? If so, where?:
Yes, Rite Aid.
When is the last time you stayed up all night?:
When I lived with Amy, and we had Anthony over and we all got wasted off of Tootsie Rolls XD
Where did you have your last birthday party?:
My house, I think.
Where do you order pizza from the most?:
Various places.
How many days is your record for time spent in a hospital?:
0
What’s the last movie you saw in a theater?:
The Final Destination. It sucked.
Do you believe in ghosts?
Sure.
What is your favorite ride at the fair?:
I've never been to a fair.
What is your favorite inside joke you have with a friend?:
I have many.
What color is your computer?:
grey & black & silver
Do you believe in God?:
Very much so.
Do you pray often?:
Yes sir.
Did someone knock out your teeth?:
Yes, the dentist.
Why are all the fun things illegal?:
That's not true! Not ALL fun things; just a majority of them ;]
What is your favorite day of the week?:
It used to be Thursday because my favorite shows were always on that night but now I don't have a favorite day.
Do you like rain?:
No, it makes me sleepy.
What is your favorite word?:
I have too many to list here.
Do you have any pennies sitting on your computer desk?:
Nope.
What is the most unique thing about your bedroom?
Ahahaha, don't ask about my "bedroom".
Do you have glow-in-the-dark stars?:
I used to.
Do you have anything that glows in the dark?:
A pair of gauges that are too small for my ears now.
What color is your pillow case?:
On the normal sized pillow, black & red. On my huge pillow, pink.
What are you thinking about right now?:
Am I just wasting my time or does he actually like me?
How many times have you had the chicken pox?:
Once. The normal amount of times someone has the chicken pox.
When was the last time you brushed your teeth?:
This morning.
What is your favorite emotion?:
Content.
What’s your favorite subject in school?
Chorus.
What’s your least favorite subject in school?:
Math.
What school do you go to?:
None at the moment.
What is the mascot at your school?
I don't go to a school, ergo there is no mascot.
What grade are you in?:
None.
What is your favorite flavor of skittles?:
Cherry.
If you knew the truth was gonna hurt you would you still wanna hear it?:
Of course.
Do long distance relationships work?:
Depends on the people, the circumstances, and the timing. If all of that is working together smoothly, then yes.
What’s your favorite scary movie?:
The Invisible is a thriller. Does that count?
Do you need to know everything about someone's past?
Nope.
Do you believe that dreams can be messages from a "higher level"?
Oh, of course!
Do you like kissing in public?
Watching other people do it? No. Myself, personally doing it? Oh yes!
Such a hypocrite, I know.
How well do you handle criticism?
I handle it.
Would you like to date someone a lot purer than you?
Normally, the super pure aren't attracted to me.
You've just met someone incredible while out with friends, and (s)he's been kind enough to cough up a phone number. How long do you wait to call?
Until I go home.
Would you have a 'Happy Button' installed on your body, connected to your brain, which would instantly make you very happy whenever you pressed it?
No.
Would you rather know everything about your mate, or be regularly surprised?
Know everything through regular surprises.
We are all human, do you judge someone for a past indiscretion?
Sometimes.
Would you rather have your dream job or your soul mate for the rest of your life?
Soulmate.
Do you think before you speak?
Not usually and it gets me in trouble.
Do you make the wrong choices often?
Yes.
Do you have a busy weekend coming up?
Well, I am having a birthday on Thursday...;)
Have you ever fallen for someone older than you?
All the time <3
How are you feeling lately?
Meh, could be better, could be worse.
Do you feel awkward when strangers say hi to you?
Nope. I just say Hi back.
Is anything upsetting you right now?
Not as much as they were at first.
Did you have a good birthday this year?
I'll tell you after Thursday.
Do you have a reason to smile right now?
Sure do :3
What did you last dream?
I honestly don't remember.
Are you currently frustrated with a girl/guy?
Not frustrated so much as confused and anxious.
Are you stubborn?
Very much so.
Have you told anybody you loved them today?
Not yet, but I will later.
Do you wish upon stars?
All the time*
Do you laugh enough?
Not even close.
A candle and a cigarette. Yes.
Has anyone ever called you heartless?
Oh, several times.
Who sent the last text that made you smile?
Probably Dave.
If you don't like someone, are you mean to them, or do you ignore them?
Ignore them.
Can you tell me a little secret you have?
I've liked the same guy since 8th grade and still haven't given up on him yet :P
Do you eat meat?
Yes sir.
Would you like to lose weight?
Yes sir.
Do you watch any tv shows with your mother?
TV on DVD and not too much.
Do you know when your parents' anniversary is?
June 28.
Who are you thinking about right now?
A couple people.
Which would be more meaningful to you: I love you a lot, I love you so much, or I love you more than anything?
I love you more than anything, which is a lie but it's a nice lie.
If I say "psycho", who is the first person that comes to your mind?
Ahahahaha...don't ask me that.
Does it piss you off that stupid sixth graders think they're in love?
YES! They don't know what love is until they've be shattered like I have.
Is there a specific moment you can replay in your mind perfectly?
Yes :/
Who was the last person to call you and why?
Anthony, to tell me he might stop in to my job and see me. He didn't :P
Do you plan on sleeping in tomorrow?
Yes sir.
If you were in the hospital on life support, who would come and visit you?
I know for a fact Kory, Cora, Tawny, and Anthony would :)
What was the first thing you thought of this morning?
Meh, I don't want to go to work D:
Are there some songs you can't listen to because they remind you of someone?
Ohhh I have many.
Does it matter to you if your boyfriend/girlfriend drinks?
Not really. As long as they're not drunks.
What is your favorite breed of dog?:
I don't know.
Do you know anyone who doesn’t eat meat?
I know several people.
What’s your most embarrassing moment recently?
Oh gosh, I don't even know.
Metaphorically speaking, what was the last thing to crush you?
Finding out the truth about something I had suspected from the beginning.
I hate you.
Do clingy people bother you?
Nope, because I'm one of them.
What's one unique thing about you?
Psh, me in general. I was voted Most Unique by my senior class.
Where or when do you feel the safest?
When I'm sleeping with my teddy bear. Yeah, sounds lame but it's true.
Do you think that mankind is essentially good or essentially bad?
In the middle.
When a lot of things go wrong at once, how do you react?
I blank and freeze up.
Name something that you treasure:
My teddy bear.
At what point were your parents most disappointed in you?
When I started failing school.
Night owl or early bird?
Night owl, definitely.
What would you do if a leprechaun jumped out of a bush and stole your wallet?
It honestly would take me a minute to realize my wallet was stolen and then I'd chase after the little jerk.
Do you ever wear mis-matched socks?
Always <3
How do you handle a break up?
Depends on how into the relationship I was.
What happened at 9 AM today?
No idea since I was still asleep.
What woke you up this morning?
Everyone else was awake.
Do you want your life to stay the way it is right now forever?
No way.
Are you nice to everyone?
Everyone that I trust, yes.
What is the last thing you did before bed last night?
Started watching The Invisible and IMed Kory.
What is the latest you've stayed up in the past week?
4am
Do you think your life story would make a great movie?
It might, actually.
Who are your last four texts from?
Facebook, Twitter, Facebook, Facebook.
Wow, I sound pathetic there.
Do you trust all your friends?
Absolutely not.
When will your next kiss be?
No clue.
Do you always get along with your friends?
Not always.
Would you rather your partner have gorgeous eyes or a gorgeous smile?
Smile. Teeth are a biiiig issue with me.
Something you're looking forward to in the next month?
Bo Burnham and possibly Ludo <3
Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 months from now?
I hope so, but probably not.
Day been rough?
Meh, on and off.
Do you know anyone who has messed up your life?
Oh yes.
Would you ever donate blood?
Sure.
Have you ever read Twilight?
Just the first book.
In the past week have you felt sad?
Not really, to be honest.
Did you wake up in the middle of the night last night?
No, because I was already awake.
Would you ever let a boyfriend/girlfriend put you through hell and back?
I have before.
Any plans for tomorrow?
Day off. I never plan.
Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile no matter what?
Oh yes :) For them I am eternally grateful.
Do you believe in perfect?
No.
What if you had a baby with the last person you texted?
Hmmm...a baby with Twitter? XD
What is something you disliked about today?
Screaming children in my store >:O
Can you walk into a room full of strangers and maintain your confidence?
Usually.
What made you happy today?
Very few things, actually.
Do you like meeting new people?
Of course!
Who was your last missed call?
Anthony.
Are you good at giving advice?
Depends on who I'm giving the advice to.
Can you handle the truth?
Oh, I prefer it.
What's your opinion on pot?
Meh. I won't do it.
Who was the last person you talked to last night before you went to bed?
Kory over IM.
Does it matter if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes or chews?
Not really. I've dated a smoker before.
If given the chance and you wouldn't get caught, would you try heroine?
No.
Who was the last person in your home besides family?
I don't know.
Was last night enjoyable for you?
Actually, yes it was :D Mayonaise ;]
Don't tell me lies, so is the last person you texted attractive?
Oh, yes. Twitter is a sexy beast.
You kissed someone last night, didn't you?
Oh, yes, you caught me. I kissed my teddy bear Dani.
Did you have a better day yesterday or today?
Yesterday.
Have you ever just felt like you could cry an ocean?
I have cried an ocean a couple times.
Warm, cold, or content?
Chilly.
Do you believe everything happens for a reason?
Yes sir.
What was your last thought before you went to bed last night?
"I want to watch this movie..."
Do you have a job? If so, where?:
Yes, Rite Aid.
When is the last time you stayed up all night?:
When I lived with Amy, and we had Anthony over and we all got wasted off of Tootsie Rolls XD
Where did you have your last birthday party?:
My house, I think.
Where do you order pizza from the most?:
Various places.
How many days is your record for time spent in a hospital?:
0
What’s the last movie you saw in a theater?:
The Final Destination. It sucked.
Do you believe in ghosts?
Sure.
What is your favorite ride at the fair?:
I've never been to a fair.
What is your favorite inside joke you have with a friend?:
I have many.
What color is your computer?:
grey & black & silver
Do you believe in God?:
Very much so.
Do you pray often?:
Yes sir.
Did someone knock out your teeth?:
Yes, the dentist.
Why are all the fun things illegal?:
That's not true! Not ALL fun things; just a majority of them ;]
What is your favorite day of the week?:
It used to be Thursday because my favorite shows were always on that night but now I don't have a favorite day.
Do you like rain?:
No, it makes me sleepy.
What is your favorite word?:
I have too many to list here.
Do you have any pennies sitting on your computer desk?:
Nope.
What is the most unique thing about your bedroom?
Ahahaha, don't ask about my "bedroom".
Do you have glow-in-the-dark stars?:
I used to.
Do you have anything that glows in the dark?:
A pair of gauges that are too small for my ears now.
What color is your pillow case?:
On the normal sized pillow, black & red. On my huge pillow, pink.
What are you thinking about right now?:
Am I just wasting my time or does he actually like me?
How many times have you had the chicken pox?:
Once. The normal amount of times someone has the chicken pox.
When was the last time you brushed your teeth?:
This morning.
What is your favorite emotion?:
Content.
What’s your favorite subject in school?
Chorus.
What’s your least favorite subject in school?:
Math.
What school do you go to?:
None at the moment.
What is the mascot at your school?
I don't go to a school, ergo there is no mascot.
What grade are you in?:
None.
What is your favorite flavor of skittles?:
Cherry.
If you knew the truth was gonna hurt you would you still wanna hear it?:
Of course.
Do long distance relationships work?:
Depends on the people, the circumstances, and the timing. If all of that is working together smoothly, then yes.
What’s your favorite scary movie?:
The Invisible is a thriller. Does that count?
Do you need to know everything about someone's past?
Nope.
Do you believe that dreams can be messages from a "higher level"?
Oh, of course!
Do you like kissing in public?
Watching other people do it? No. Myself, personally doing it? Oh yes!
Such a hypocrite, I know.
How well do you handle criticism?
I handle it.
Would you like to date someone a lot purer than you?
Normally, the super pure aren't attracted to me.
You've just met someone incredible while out with friends, and (s)he's been kind enough to cough up a phone number. How long do you wait to call?
Until I go home.
Would you have a 'Happy Button' installed on your body, connected to your brain, which would instantly make you very happy whenever you pressed it?
No.
Would you rather know everything about your mate, or be regularly surprised?
Know everything through regular surprises.
We are all human, do you judge someone for a past indiscretion?
Sometimes.
Would you rather have your dream job or your soul mate for the rest of your life?
Soulmate.
Do you think before you speak?
Not usually and it gets me in trouble.
Do you make the wrong choices often?
Yes.
Do you have a busy weekend coming up?
Well, I am having a birthday on Thursday...;)
Have you ever fallen for someone older than you?
All the time <3
How are you feeling lately?
Meh, could be better, could be worse.
Do you feel awkward when strangers say hi to you?
Nope. I just say Hi back.
Is anything upsetting you right now?
Not as much as they were at first.
Did you have a good birthday this year?
I'll tell you after Thursday.
Do you have a reason to smile right now?
Sure do :3
What did you last dream?
I honestly don't remember.
Are you currently frustrated with a girl/guy?
Not frustrated so much as confused and anxious.
Are you stubborn?
Very much so.
Have you told anybody you loved them today?
Not yet, but I will later.
Do you wish upon stars?
All the time*
Do you laugh enough?
Not even close.
Saturday, September 12, 2009
I really don't feel like writing an actual entry so here's my current song:
And now the old flames will pass away
I saw your light once, did you see mine?
But not all things will pass away
You turned your light off, so I turned mine
Away from your sadness
Away from the nothing that you feel for me
Is this how you wanna go down right before my eyes?
You are the saddest sight I know
You're so quiet and you never make a sound
But here inside my mind you are the loudest one I know
And you were right, right from the start
It took everything you had but you finally broke my
Quote hey, listen 'cause I'll only say this once
I finally found the words that mean enough to me
Goodbye my soul, unquote
I saw your light once, did you see mine?
But not all things will pass away
You turned your light off, so I turned mine
Away from your sadness
Away from the nothing that you feel for me
Is this how you wanna go down right before my eyes?
You are the saddest sight I know
You're so quiet and you never make a sound
But here inside my mind you are the loudest one I know
And you were right, right from the start
It took everything you had but you finally broke my
Quote hey, listen 'cause I'll only say this once
I finally found the words that mean enough to me
Goodbye my soul, unquote
[Evans Blue :: Quote]
Okay, so it's not the happiest song or the whole song but it's what sticks out to me the most tonight. I hung out with my friends earlier; they're dating and watching them cuddle and everything killed me. I miss it...a lot. Can't sugar-coat it.
But whatever, maybe I'm just not the girl for anyone right now. Yes, I do like Kory an awful lot, but does he even like me like that?! I mean, he says we would cuddle and whatnot if we were in the same room but is he trying to just be my cuddly friend?! Ugh...
until next we meet...
♥*
Friday, September 11, 2009
Random Info Much?
So it's almost midnight here in rainy Fort Plain, NY, and I should be going to sleep since I have to get up at 7am to be at work for 7:45 but I have everything and nothing going through my head all at once.
Firstly, I mentioned in an earlier entry that I go by the name KristaVolpe a lot of the time now. There is a reason for that and you may think it's a stupid one, but whatever. When I quit high school, I lost all my friends. Even when I went to SCCC to get my GED did I not have too many people I could talk to; my only real friends were online. One day, I'm sitting in the common area of SCCC chatting with my friend Lauren on AIM and she tells me to go to her MySpace and see what she's done with it. Turns out she found a new band and stole their layout :x But that's not all--she made her song into this infectously catch rock song called "Love Me Dead". Now at first I was like "'Love Me Dead'? That sounds horrible! Who would write such a thing?!" but then I clicked "Play"...it was AMAZING! When I returned home, I looked up more music from this band called Ludo (yes, they're named after the character from the 80's movie The Labrynth). Lo and behold, they had more super catchy songs. Within the next month, I became a little obsessed; bought their CDs, downloaded their nonreleased tracks, fell in love with the lead singer Andrew Volpe. On October 17 2008, my friend Krystina and I went to one of their shows at Northern Lights in Clifton Park, NY. Most amazing, high energy shows I've ever been to! After the show, I met Andrew who is one of the nicest guy ever. Since then I've been using his last name as my cover name. Ludo isn't just one of my favorite bands; they're one of my best friends. When I'm upset, they make me smile like no one else can.
Secondly, Kory and I have been talking for almost 3 days straight now and things are still progressing nicely I'd say. No, we're not dating or in a relationship or anything, but I did tell him I loved him and we seem to talk about almost anything that comes to mind. This is just dificult for me because I'm used to moving fast and being in a relationship by now, haha. Maybe all my persistance and waiting will pay off in the end, eh? Only time will tell...<3
Thirdly, yes I was once a ballerina. Took ballet and tap lessons for almost 6 years...now I can't dance at all :P It's funny because I'll put my headphones on and just go at it, moving to the beat, and my sister will tell me I'm "too white" to do that, haha. Do I miss the dancing? You bet! They were some fun times :) Would I be able to get back into it again? Mmm, probably not. I no longer have the desire to or the body for it (ballerinas are typically small and dainty; I am not).
So there you have it; a more in-depth look into the life of a one Kristin E. Staples.
until next we meet...
♥*
Firstly, I mentioned in an earlier entry that I go by the name KristaVolpe a lot of the time now. There is a reason for that and you may think it's a stupid one, but whatever. When I quit high school, I lost all my friends. Even when I went to SCCC to get my GED did I not have too many people I could talk to; my only real friends were online. One day, I'm sitting in the common area of SCCC chatting with my friend Lauren on AIM and she tells me to go to her MySpace and see what she's done with it. Turns out she found a new band and stole their layout :x But that's not all--she made her song into this infectously catch rock song called "Love Me Dead". Now at first I was like "'Love Me Dead'? That sounds horrible! Who would write such a thing?!" but then I clicked "Play"...it was AMAZING! When I returned home, I looked up more music from this band called Ludo (yes, they're named after the character from the 80's movie The Labrynth). Lo and behold, they had more super catchy songs. Within the next month, I became a little obsessed; bought their CDs, downloaded their nonreleased tracks, fell in love with the lead singer Andrew Volpe. On October 17 2008, my friend Krystina and I went to one of their shows at Northern Lights in Clifton Park, NY. Most amazing, high energy shows I've ever been to! After the show, I met Andrew who is one of the nicest guy ever. Since then I've been using his last name as my cover name. Ludo isn't just one of my favorite bands; they're one of my best friends. When I'm upset, they make me smile like no one else can.
Secondly, Kory and I have been talking for almost 3 days straight now and things are still progressing nicely I'd say. No, we're not dating or in a relationship or anything, but I did tell him I loved him and we seem to talk about almost anything that comes to mind. This is just dificult for me because I'm used to moving fast and being in a relationship by now, haha. Maybe all my persistance and waiting will pay off in the end, eh? Only time will tell...<3
Thirdly, yes I was once a ballerina. Took ballet and tap lessons for almost 6 years...now I can't dance at all :P It's funny because I'll put my headphones on and just go at it, moving to the beat, and my sister will tell me I'm "too white" to do that, haha. Do I miss the dancing? You bet! They were some fun times :) Would I be able to get back into it again? Mmm, probably not. I no longer have the desire to or the body for it (ballerinas are typically small and dainty; I am not).
So there you have it; a more in-depth look into the life of a one Kristin E. Staples.
until next we meet...
♥*
Thursday, September 10, 2009
Soapbox :: BE WARNED!
As I looked through some of my Facebook friends' photos, I realized something that I should've picked up on years and years ago: I've never really fit in. Okay, sure, I have Anthony, Cora, Tawny, and many other friends, but they didn't come into my life until after I met the ones from elementary school. Those ones were the first friends you were supposed to have in life, and apparently I just wasn't up to their standards. I did have one friend from Kindergarten; she and I were inseparable...until I moved away for a few months, she got into sports, and when I returned she ignored me like I never existed. Now she's happily married in another state; how did I find that out? Facebook and MySpace. I just think it's sad that I find out most of my information about people from the internet when others are getting a first-hand account.
The one friend that got me thinking about this was a guy I've also known since Kindergarten. He and I were never close, close friends but we've talked on several occasions. I recently ran into him at his place of employment, where he told me he was going away to college in 2 weeks. Once I left, I searched him on Facebook; lo and behold, he had one, with several hundred friends. He added me, and I just finally sat down and checked out his pictures tonight. This guy somehow managed to maintain friendship with a lot of the old friends, and seeing these pictures made me feel a little left out to be honest. I always wanted people to remember me...
But now I'm fine. Done some thinking, and I know that the ones who stick around through the battles are the ones I want by my side forever <3 Without you guys, I'd be super lost.
And that's my rant for the night.
On a happier note, I've been talking to Kory all day and almost all night, and things seem to be progressing nicely =) If he and I do end up becoming a couple, a lotttt of people will either be surprised or happy for us; after all, I have been in like with him since 8th grade :P Only time will tell here <33
until next we meet...
♥*
The one friend that got me thinking about this was a guy I've also known since Kindergarten. He and I were never close, close friends but we've talked on several occasions. I recently ran into him at his place of employment, where he told me he was going away to college in 2 weeks. Once I left, I searched him on Facebook; lo and behold, he had one, with several hundred friends. He added me, and I just finally sat down and checked out his pictures tonight. This guy somehow managed to maintain friendship with a lot of the old friends, and seeing these pictures made me feel a little left out to be honest. I always wanted people to remember me...
But now I'm fine. Done some thinking, and I know that the ones who stick around through the battles are the ones I want by my side forever <3 Without you guys, I'd be super lost.
And that's my rant for the night.
On a happier note, I've been talking to Kory all day and almost all night, and things seem to be progressing nicely =) If he and I do end up becoming a couple, a lotttt of people will either be surprised or happy for us; after all, I have been in like with him since 8th grade :P Only time will tell here <33
until next we meet...
♥*
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
XD XD XD XD
Ahh, to be happy! You know, I used to think happiness was overrated and only for set people, but really anyone can be happy, even me the emo kid XD Honestly, it just took a few bad events and turns in my life to make me realize this.
One friend that was mad at me is no longer mad at me; they're talking to me and everything again. The other, however, says they will remain upset with me, but in time I know I'll be forgiven...at least a little. Nothing will ever be as it was though, this I know for a fact. But maybe this is a good thing. Everything happens for a reason, eh? Then the other other friend is the most confusing person I've ever met but in time we will speak again.
Work is good, keeps my mind occupied and all.
Ohhh, boys! There are two I'm in between at the moment; and by in between I mean I like them both. One is named Dave; he's James' best friend and he's adorable, funny, charming, sweet, and did I mention adorable?! He plays video games, is smart, and all that good stuff...but isn't interested in me. And if he is, James would NEVER let him have me :/ The other is Kory. Kory, I've liked since 8th grade when he rejected me over and over again. Right now, he and I are catching up over AIM and it seems to be going smoothly :D Keep your fingers crossed for me!
Wow, I just babbled for four paragraphs there haha!
until next we meet...
♥*
One friend that was mad at me is no longer mad at me; they're talking to me and everything again. The other, however, says they will remain upset with me, but in time I know I'll be forgiven...at least a little. Nothing will ever be as it was though, this I know for a fact. But maybe this is a good thing. Everything happens for a reason, eh? Then the other other friend is the most confusing person I've ever met but in time we will speak again.
Work is good, keeps my mind occupied and all.
Ohhh, boys! There are two I'm in between at the moment; and by in between I mean I like them both. One is named Dave; he's James' best friend and he's adorable, funny, charming, sweet, and did I mention adorable?! He plays video games, is smart, and all that good stuff...but isn't interested in me. And if he is, James would NEVER let him have me :/ The other is Kory. Kory, I've liked since 8th grade when he rejected me over and over again. Right now, he and I are catching up over AIM and it seems to be going smoothly :D Keep your fingers crossed for me!
Wow, I just babbled for four paragraphs there haha!
until next we meet...
♥*
Monday, September 7, 2009
"Lose one friend, Lose all friends, Lose yourself" ~ Shaun Hunter :: Boy Meets World
My subject sort of fits what my entry will be about. It's a little about friendships, a little about myself, and a little about love/caring/honesty.
Sunday September 6, 2009, was the epitome of bad day for me (next to getting dumped then having to drop out of high school, I mean; nothing could top that). I lost two friends who I thought would always be there for me in less than 10 minutes it seems, then I lost another later that day. Details are sketchy (as always) but this just made me realize something that I have always been too blind to see my whole life: I SHOULD NOT BE AS TRUSTING AS I AM. The two friends I lost together were the closest to me, the ones I went to when something bad would happen and they'd try to cheer me up or the ones who would wreak havoc late at night with me when we were all bored and didn't want to sleep yet. The other one might come back to me later in life, and I hope they do because I truly do think they're an amazing person. They get me better than almost anyone else I've known; no one else except Kyle and this person have seen the real me under the facade I put on to upkeep my other "friends".
But then...something clicked with me. Just as I'm about to say "I just lost all my friends", it hit me: I have many more friends than I've realized and a family who cares about me more than anyone else ever will :) That one realization kept me from becoming manic depressive and doing something stupid.
So this is the new me, saying goodbye to the people who have used me and the people who have hurt me and saying hello to the ones who never would...at least intentionally.
I'm back living with my family, and I actually could not be happier. I never thought I'd ever miss them as much as I did but I'm glad they've accepted me back even though there really isn't any room for me :X They love me, and I love them. Things are going to be better for me now, I just know it.
To the ones I now know truly care and want me around: Thank you so very much! Without you guys, I'd be nothing XD We have many, many more fun times ahead of us, trust me!
Oh...and 10 days until I'm 20! I'm excited even though 20 isn't all that important of a birthday :P
until next we meet...
♥*
Sunday September 6, 2009, was the epitome of bad day for me (next to getting dumped then having to drop out of high school, I mean; nothing could top that). I lost two friends who I thought would always be there for me in less than 10 minutes it seems, then I lost another later that day. Details are sketchy (as always) but this just made me realize something that I have always been too blind to see my whole life: I SHOULD NOT BE AS TRUSTING AS I AM. The two friends I lost together were the closest to me, the ones I went to when something bad would happen and they'd try to cheer me up or the ones who would wreak havoc late at night with me when we were all bored and didn't want to sleep yet. The other one might come back to me later in life, and I hope they do because I truly do think they're an amazing person. They get me better than almost anyone else I've known; no one else except Kyle and this person have seen the real me under the facade I put on to upkeep my other "friends".
But then...something clicked with me. Just as I'm about to say "I just lost all my friends", it hit me: I have many more friends than I've realized and a family who cares about me more than anyone else ever will :) That one realization kept me from becoming manic depressive and doing something stupid.
So this is the new me, saying goodbye to the people who have used me and the people who have hurt me and saying hello to the ones who never would...at least intentionally.
I'm back living with my family, and I actually could not be happier. I never thought I'd ever miss them as much as I did but I'm glad they've accepted me back even though there really isn't any room for me :X They love me, and I love them. Things are going to be better for me now, I just know it.
To the ones I now know truly care and want me around: Thank you so very much! Without you guys, I'd be nothing XD We have many, many more fun times ahead of us, trust me!
Oh...and 10 days until I'm 20! I'm excited even though 20 isn't all that important of a birthday :P
until next we meet...
♥*
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