Blah. Meh. Ugh.
Those have been my emotions all day today and for good reason too.
It all started last night when OKCupid Taylor started obsessively IMing me over and over asking if I was there and finally saying "I love how I waited for 6 hours and you never came back :/". When I answered him, he told me I'm disrespectful and inconsiderate, and I'm sorry; when an 18-year-old boy is telling me I'm disrespectful and who knows nothing about me doesn't sit well with me. So I went to send Cora a text, basically saying Taylor could jump off a bridge for all I cared...only I accidentally sent it to Taylor instead of Cora :o Needless to say, he flipped out saying I don't know him and he's done with me, but I apologized and explained myself and we seem to be okay now. We've been talking most of today :)
Casey just told me that he and I wouldn't be a thing again, which reallyyyy crushed me because I like him a lot. Heck, I even got into YuGiOh so we'd have something to do together :( But it's all good; this is perfect example of how you cannot make someone like you anymore than they already do.
And, to just top everything off, Chris is more than likely moving to Florida by the end of the month :/ Now, I know he and I wouldn't work out romantically but he was turning into a super good friend of mine. Like, when that boyyy wasn't talking to me I'd be talking to Chris about everything and he'd actually listen. Sigh, everyone I get close to runs away. It's a proven fact.
[This would have to be my lowest point. I'm so ready for my high. Seriously, I need to live life and be happy again, and by God I will do just that!]
Happy note of this entry: I rekindled my love of Miley Cyrus when I heard her newest single "When I Look At You".
It's an extremely beautiful song and really touched my heart :* Check it out!
Okay, I'm going to see if Cora could call me and I can complain about these guys to her, haha!
until next we meet...
♥*
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Sunday, February 21, 2010
"Hell has to notice, your actions and motives..." ~ 10years!
Needless to say, the world's worst blogger is back :P Honestly I set out to update here and never do...like, I'll get sidetracked by a text message or Farmville and just...not.
Alright, my "romance" update (or lack thereof):
I hung out with Trevor and Cora up at Pratt University on Friday February 12 and had a blast; felt like I was back in high school again with all the Anime xD Next day I was super tired and emotional so I clung to Trevor like cling wrap via text message. Valentine's Day came around and...I rejected him. Now, I know that sounds harsh but I honestly don't like Trevor like that. My heart has chosen another (who I'll get to in a minute).
Chris and I sort of started dating for a day last week but soon realized that we both want different things. I want to fall in love and all that, and he just wants sex...or sex before discovering if he loves me or not. I just can't do that.
There's this kid from OKCupid named Taylor who seems to be head-over-heals for me, but again my heart has chosen another...
That "another" is none other than my exboyfriend Casey. Okay, so our break-up wasn't ideal but who's break-up is? And yeah we moved super fast in our relationship with the "I Love You"s and such, but I think we've both realized that we do like each other, have a lot in common, and can stand to talk to each other for longer than 10 minutes a day. As it says on my Facebook, "It's Complicated". He doesn't feel ready to be in a relationship right now and I'll respect that; I shall wait for him :) I haven't felt this way about a guy since high school and I'm loving it! He always knows exactly what to say at what time to make me smile :D AND he taught me how to play Yu-Gi-Oh, which I'll admit is super fun!
*sigh* And maybe I wouldn't be so confused if I had that boyyy to talk to but lately he and I haven't been speaking...the reason, I don't know :/ I miss him a lot, like we used to talk for hours each night; now, it's silence. And when we start talking again, he's getting a whole mess of stories xD Maybe I'll IM him now and wait for a response...hmmm...
AND SUCCESS! That boyyy responded! :D
And now, Yu-Gi-Oh. I know I'm not the nerdiest of nerds but I'm still a nerd. Casey had said I should get into this card game and offered to teach me so I accepted, not thinking I'd like it as much as I do. OMG It's so much fun! He and I duel over text message almost every night, haha, and I dueled Trevor when we were at Pratt that Friday (and that was the only match I ever won :o!).
^^ My favorite card right now :3 Magician's Valkyria, helped me win my first duel against Trevor. I can't wait to see Casey because he has more cards for my deck (Magicians & Spellcasters), two of which symbolize he and I :] *insert AWWWWW here*
Okie dokie, I think I'm done ranting here for tonight because it's now 12:21am and I'm trying to IM that boyyy but it seems like fail :[ Oh well!
until next we meet...
♥*
Alright, my "romance" update (or lack thereof):
I hung out with Trevor and Cora up at Pratt University on Friday February 12 and had a blast; felt like I was back in high school again with all the Anime xD Next day I was super tired and emotional so I clung to Trevor like cling wrap via text message. Valentine's Day came around and...I rejected him. Now, I know that sounds harsh but I honestly don't like Trevor like that. My heart has chosen another (who I'll get to in a minute).
Chris and I sort of started dating for a day last week but soon realized that we both want different things. I want to fall in love and all that, and he just wants sex...or sex before discovering if he loves me or not. I just can't do that.
There's this kid from OKCupid named Taylor who seems to be head-over-heals for me, but again my heart has chosen another...
That "another" is none other than my exboyfriend Casey. Okay, so our break-up wasn't ideal but who's break-up is? And yeah we moved super fast in our relationship with the "I Love You"s and such, but I think we've both realized that we do like each other, have a lot in common, and can stand to talk to each other for longer than 10 minutes a day. As it says on my Facebook, "It's Complicated". He doesn't feel ready to be in a relationship right now and I'll respect that; I shall wait for him :) I haven't felt this way about a guy since high school and I'm loving it! He always knows exactly what to say at what time to make me smile :D AND he taught me how to play Yu-Gi-Oh, which I'll admit is super fun!
*sigh* And maybe I wouldn't be so confused if I had that boyyy to talk to but lately he and I haven't been speaking...the reason, I don't know :/ I miss him a lot, like we used to talk for hours each night; now, it's silence. And when we start talking again, he's getting a whole mess of stories xD Maybe I'll IM him now and wait for a response...hmmm...
AND SUCCESS! That boyyy responded! :D
And now, Yu-Gi-Oh. I know I'm not the nerdiest of nerds but I'm still a nerd. Casey had said I should get into this card game and offered to teach me so I accepted, not thinking I'd like it as much as I do. OMG It's so much fun! He and I duel over text message almost every night, haha, and I dueled Trevor when we were at Pratt that Friday (and that was the only match I ever won :o!).
^^ My favorite card right now :3 Magician's Valkyria, helped me win my first duel against Trevor. I can't wait to see Casey because he has more cards for my deck (Magicians & Spellcasters), two of which symbolize he and I :] *insert AWWWWW here*
Okie dokie, I think I'm done ranting here for tonight because it's now 12:21am and I'm trying to IM that boyyy but it seems like fail :[ Oh well!
until next we meet...
♥*
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Follow Up From Last Night:
Simply about Facebook applications. I know, I'm lame. Remember I had said I love my Cafe on Cafe World? Well I took a screenshot of it today after some modifications and it is GORGEOUS! :D
If you have one of these you should add me as your neighbor and we can visit each others' Cafes :) Same goes for Farmville Farms too!
And with that I depart for now :3
until next we meet...
♥*
If you have one of these you should add me as your neighbor and we can visit each others' Cafes :) Same goes for Farmville Farms too!
And with that I depart for now :3
until next we meet...
♥*
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
"I ain't got the time and Daddy says I'm fine..." ~ The GLEE Cast :D
It's been a week or so since my last update, I know, and I'm now updated to keep myself awake so I can harvest my cranberries on Farmville and serve my StarDust Soup on Cafe World. Yep, I'm addicted to Facebook applications and I'm not ashamed to admit it! And my farm is so pretty. I just fixed it up yesterday and straightened the crop-spots and everything :3
Alright, we last left me saying "I give up on that boyyy once and for all!", correct? Well I mean...if that's not what you thought that IS what I meant to convey. Well, I'm sorry, readers; I lied. I could never fully give up on him. He will always be my "What If...?" Guy. You know...that guy I always wish I could and wonder what it would be like to be with him but never actually date him? Yep. But more than that, he is one of the closest most trusted friends I'll ever have. We've discovered this on numerous occasions and it was shown again this past Sunday when we had both experienced heartache the night before and ran to each other for comfort, even if it was just over AIM. Without him, I don't think I could say too many people understand me :) And after watching My Best Friend's Wedding over again I've realized that that is how he and I are going to be whenever one or the other gets engaged/married :P Or at least I'll be the Julia Roberts character and attempt to confess my love to him on his wedding day only to end up happily giving him away to his bride.
And somehow over this past week I've become an object of a couple guys' desires. One guy is mine, Tawny, and Cora's friend Trevor, who I know pretty well and trust. The other is Chris, one of my many customers from Rite Aid who I have flirted with while cashing out but never really could because he had a girlfriend at those points and now he's single and wants me. My question is...why?! Guys, guys, guys...I'm nothing special. I mean, sure, I can make you laugh and smile and okay maybe I'm attractive but why me? This is just my low self esteem making me into a girl but anyways. Right now, I'm just finding myself and enjoying the attention but not in that bad "Oooooh they're giving me attention" kinda way; I just have to be single for a little while longer. In all seriousness it's been over a year if not longer since I was honest to God not attached to a man so a dating sabbatical wouldn't hurt me :D And for once I'm happy with life!
If I don't update until after, I'm going to a party with Trevor on Friday and I'm super excited! :D Just wanted to throw that in there...
until next we meet...
♥*
Alright, we last left me saying "I give up on that boyyy once and for all!", correct? Well I mean...if that's not what you thought that IS what I meant to convey. Well, I'm sorry, readers; I lied. I could never fully give up on him. He will always be my "What If...?" Guy. You know...that guy I always wish I could and wonder what it would be like to be with him but never actually date him? Yep. But more than that, he is one of the closest most trusted friends I'll ever have. We've discovered this on numerous occasions and it was shown again this past Sunday when we had both experienced heartache the night before and ran to each other for comfort, even if it was just over AIM. Without him, I don't think I could say too many people understand me :) And after watching My Best Friend's Wedding over again I've realized that that is how he and I are going to be whenever one or the other gets engaged/married :P Or at least I'll be the Julia Roberts character and attempt to confess my love to him on his wedding day only to end up happily giving him away to his bride.
And somehow over this past week I've become an object of a couple guys' desires. One guy is mine, Tawny, and Cora's friend Trevor, who I know pretty well and trust. The other is Chris, one of my many customers from Rite Aid who I have flirted with while cashing out but never really could because he had a girlfriend at those points and now he's single and wants me. My question is...why?! Guys, guys, guys...I'm nothing special. I mean, sure, I can make you laugh and smile and okay maybe I'm attractive but why me? This is just my low self esteem making me into a girl but anyways. Right now, I'm just finding myself and enjoying the attention but not in that bad "Oooooh they're giving me attention" kinda way; I just have to be single for a little while longer. In all seriousness it's been over a year if not longer since I was honest to God not attached to a man so a dating sabbatical wouldn't hurt me :D And for once I'm happy with life!
If I don't update until after, I'm going to a party with Trevor on Friday and I'm super excited! :D Just wanted to throw that in there...
until next we meet...
♥*
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