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"...I don't want to be the one the battles always choose cuz inside I realize I'm the one confused..." ~ Linkin Park<333

I have to change my song. Right now, it's "Amazing" by Blue October, and I knew something was up when Kyle cried during it. It's messing with me.
Sometimes things do this to me and I don't know why. Like last night, I started dreaming about that Jon guy and it was odd. In it, he wanted to be with me, but in reality, I know in my heart I don't want to be with him, honestly. I'm happy with my friendship with Kyle and Anthony, and my new friendship with Josh online, and my reacquintainted friendship with Eyn. Another guy would just confuse me right now.

That's all I wanted to say. I just don't know what song I should put here. I'd put "Konstantine" by Something Corporate but I don't know; I don't think you'd all sit here and listen to it, ya know? It's 9:35 long.

*sigh* I'm lonely...I hate this...I miss Kyle. Plain and simple. And rightfully so, since we haven't seen each other in almost a month now. This week, he starts Driver's Ed again, so I can keep my fingers crossed and hope for the best. As he says, "there's always the telephone", but you can't see into the other side, can you?

I'll be alright in the end...
♥*

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