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"Take off your shirt your shoes, Those skinny jeans I bought for you, It's happening, There's nothing left to lose..." ~ All Time Low!

I hate that half the time I'm online, I feel like updating here and I just don't. No idea why my mood switches so frequently but it happens. Sometimes I wish I was more focused :P

This past weekend has been up and down, front front back back side to side (get the reference, win a cookie!). Up: I've been talking to this AMAZING guy named Alex who is by far the closest male counterpart to myself that I've ever found. We think the same, seem quite similar in experiences, and he's just...super uber :) I can trust him with anything and everything, as he can do the same with me. And I don't know why, but I do enjoy calling him "Dollface"; which spawns me into singing "Yeah Boy and Dollface" by Pierce The Veil. No idea why but the opening verse of that song is amazing ("Were you honest when you said/I could never leave your bed?/Wake me up and let me know/You're alive..."). Again...I think I just like calling him that :P
Down? Casey begged to have me back last Thursday (alright, "begged" is an exaggeration but it did take convincing) and I said yes. Well, Friday he basically ignored me and I'm sorry, after everything he did to me I don't trust him at all. Saturday rolls in and still nothing so I called. Naturally he didn't answer (he hates the phone) but when he called me back, as soon as he heard my voice he hung up. I proceeded to get manic-y and called, texted, and bothered him until finally he texted me saying "it's done, I'm through". Whatever, I'm so done with that kid. He needs someone who's willing to let him ignore her and whatnot, and I'm sorry one thing I demand is at least a message or two during the day, stating whether or not we will be talking.

Chris is texting me at the moment, telling me he's wasted and still going to continue drinking :/ Honestly I can't stop him because I'm not there but if I was I'd be distracting him away from the bar :o He and I need to hang out again...probably not tomorrow since he'll be completely hungover but eventually. I don't think he's moving away anymore so this makes me smile a lot :) I think he and I are going to be really good friends, or at least I hope.

That boyyy and I haven't talked in over a week and this really hurts because I want to tell him about Alex and everything that happened with Casey and get his insight, but no he's gone :( Actually I don't think he's going to talk to me again, which hurts but you know what? It's his loss, I guess. Hope he's happy with the new girl :(

Well...I think that's that for now. I reallyyyy need a life :/
until next we meet...
♥*

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