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"'Cause I'm lonely & I'm blue, I need you, & your love too..." ~ Fontella Bass!

Call me a weirdo but I love older music. For real, anything from the 1950s, later 1960s, scattered 1980s, 1990s, and early to mid 2000s (and the occasional new song/artist) make me a happy panda :D Working at Rite Aid I hear a bunch of songs I've come to fall in love with...like "Rescue Me".

Alright, here it goes. I'm sorry, readers; I've lied to you on several occasions. I said "Casey and I are done, I'm done, No going back" but he started texting me again, saying he loved me and that he's always loved me, he wants to marry me, blah blah blah, so what do I do? Granted, I know dang well he's a lost cause, I still take him back and wanted to help him. Today he stops talking to me, deleted me from Facebook, and refused to answer his phone. This time, I'm SERIOUS! I'm done. I can't take this anymore. He's got multiple personalities or Bi-polar or something seriously mentally wrong with him that I'm not able to help solve (yet; Psychology is what I'm going to college for).
All I'll say to you is you've lost all your chances. It's been a nice 7 months of being your on-again/off-again girlfriend when the Uggo doesn't want you or when you're aroused, but I cannot emotionally handle this anymore. My friends hate you. My family definitely doesn't approve of you. I need someone better, someone more mature, and someone who actually wants to be with me for the long haul. So goodbye, Casey William La Foe; it was fun while it lasted. Maybe, in time, our paths will cross again and we can at least be friends, but for now you're gone.

AND NOW FOR MY NEXT TRICK...
MVCC accepted me, which means I'll be moving out near Lvlien in September. This could be good or bad. Good, because we'll be getting to know each other more. Bad, because he called me "obsessive" and a "stalker" the other night :( Can't say that's the first time I've been called that but it hurts. I think he's over that though since he told me yesterday that he wants us to be friends right now, which I'm trying to be. It's hard when you live 2 hours apart *sigh*
Kinda like Dollface and I. I wish we could hang out more, but he's just over an hour away from me, doesn't have unlimited gas money, and I don't drive yet. Somehow, though, we make our friendship work :)

Speaking of Dollface, he was just in a Rubix competition yesterday and I believe he placed fourth :D Congratulations, I'm proud of you! ♥ Next he goes to Nationals!

OHOH! Last night, I hung out with Tawny, Anthony, my friend Josh from Georgia, and my ex Billy. Just hanging out with Anthony reminded me of old times...but not really :( I don't know, it just felt different to me, like he was distant. I guess that's what happens when you don't hang with someone for 3-5 months. We need to hang out one-on-one and rekindle the friendship, I think :3

Okay, now I'm going to lay down and maybe call Trevor or someone I haven't called in forever.
until next we meet...
♥*

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