& you're in my head...♥

Meh, I don't feel like posting tonight. But I will say that the whole thing with Spencer and I was a big misunderstanding and I think we're still friends now :] Here's a musical survey for all you music buffs like me: PUT YOUR iPOD ON SHUFFLE AND PRESS FW FOR EACH QUESTION. USE THE SONG NAME TO ANSWER THE QUESTION.... How am I feeling today? You Told Me You Loved Me - Cinematic Sunrise Will I get far in life? Everywhere I Go - Hollywood Undead How do my friends see me? This Is My Ringtone - Parry Gripp (yeah, this is a safe bet :P) Where will I get Married? As You Sleep - Something Corporate What is my best friend's theme song? Los Angeles - Sugarcult What is the story of my life? I Think I'm Turning Japanese - The Vapors What is/was highschool like? Kiss With A Fist - Florence & The Machine How can I get ahead in life? Japan It! - Ludo What is the best thing about me? Go-Getter Greg - Ludo How is today going to be? Pretty Girl (The Way) - Sugarcult What is in s

And so goes another one out of my life most likely. Yep, I lost another friend in the last 48 hours; Spencer. All I can say is I'm sorry, but Cora was just telling you what I was thinking but not telling you; I wasn't going to go over to Bob's, get wasted, and potentially sleep with you. No. That's NOT how I work, and you of all people should know this by now. But whatever. Like my IM said to him earlier, he knows how to get at me. *sigh* So about how that even came about... My family went away to The Great Escape Lodge this weekend, leaving me back here in East Bumblebuttons because I had to work :/ It's all good; I had my own fun. I worked, hung out at the Bowley's house with Joanna and Melissa, hung out with Cora at Rite Aid, then even hung with Amy for a little while and talked about old times :) It definitely was super fun for me. Now how does Spencer work into this? Well, he had told me earlier in the week that he was going to go help Zach housesit for Bob

Everyone at my house is getting excited to go on a weekend trip to The Great Escape & Great Escape Lodge. Well, everyone but me since I have to stay home and work (like, my job-work, not housework). I do hope they have a good time and that the weather is nice for them :) Today I went up to FMCC with Tawny, and hung out with Spencer until 11am when he had to go to class. It's like...I think we just got everything out too quickly because we even had about a half hour where we didn't know what to talk about :P Then he left, I talked with Cindy, went back to Tawny's house, and came home around 4:30pm. Cora came over to Tawny's too, and we talked for a few. We REALLY need a name for this plan or situation or whatnot because if I write about it here, I could screw it all up :x Also, I did a lot of self-realizing today and came to the conclusion that although we are most excellent friends Spencer and I could never be a couple again. We just aren't compatible enough,

This post is long overdue, as are most of my posts. What happens is I'll start typing something out, get all into it, then say "Ah, forget it" and leave the page. Worst. Blogger. Ever. Last Thursday was fun for me! I saw Spencer, and it was as if we had never parted ways. I gave him the key to my necklace, which looks like this: I hardly ever take off the heart so it's like he's always with me now <3 After he went to class, I headed off to the Dungeon where I found Adam playing Magic the Gathering. After a few minutes, that boyyy's cousin joined us and we got to talking. She seems really really nice! :) Shortly after, Tawny and I left campus, went to Subway where EVERYONE WAS WEARING A SWEATER VEST!, checked Peebles for a woman's sweater vest and couldn't find one, then headed to her house where we grabbed jugs and filled them at the spring nearby ("I'm not a manly-man! I'm not built for this!!" :P) and then I went to work. At

That quote up there (^^); that came from ME! :D Seriously, I was bored at home and was air-guitaring like nobody's business and was like "Voila!" The past few days have been a roller coaster for me. That friend and I talked through texting and they seem to be happier without me around, so I'll let them be. I also found out they lied about something else so I don't think I'll be super duper close to them. The person that told me they lied and I have been talking more recently; they seem super nice, but honestly I only really trust a select few people, and Spencer has the most trust from me. Really, Spencer and I have been talking A LOT since I left my friend's house and really he's my best and closest friend right now. I'm not saying Cora isn't or Tawny isn't, but I talk to Spencer almost every night before I crash (which I'm sorry I just crash and don't say goodnight). He knows almost everything about me, and I help him when he nee

Oh how I need to update the blog...someone remind me please? :)

[I'm starting to get a cold so I'm really not in the mood to blog. Here's a survey for you all though :)] Okay, newest of the newest questions, ya ready? Sure, I don't care. Would you date an 18 year old at the age you are now? If he's mature enough, I'll give him a try. When's the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time? Tuesday, at James :P ARGH! Would you ever smile at a stranger? It's in my job description. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today? Every time my phone goes off. What exactly are you wearing now? My t-shirt from when I did the play "Oliver!" and sweatpants. How often do you listen to music? Once or twice a day, for numerous hours. Where is your cell phone? Sheldon is sitting next to me. Do you wear jeans or sweats more? Jeans. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2010? Probably not "drastically" but they will change. Things change everyday. Are you a social or antis

So as usual my intentions were good but everything got lost in translation. FML.

(Will this work for the blog? :))Alright. Update from the cell. I just feel really lonely & have no one to cuddle with/talk to :( Keep the comments coming!! <3

Ahhh, Ludo! They just did a release of their first 2 albums that if you're a good little fan like me you've had since last year XD But seriously, go check out Broken Bride and Ludo at a record/entertainment store near you :) Anyways, my harmless plug for my favorite band is over now XD I hung out with Tawny, in which we ran into another woman we work with named Jenny, and we all checked out the Food Co-Op. They have my favorite tea in already for Christmas; Celestial Seasonings Nutcracker Suite <3 We also discussed work and the like but for my company's privacy I won't post our discussion in here (although I'd like to). Then came home, ate dinner, and talked to the infamous exboyfriend who just HAD to lawyer me (as usual). Lawyering is where he puts me in my place with evidence to back it up; like, he's not just doing it to be a douchetool. But whatever: someday I WILL get him...and it will feel ahhh-mazing! XD *evil giggle* I do miss him and his friend

You know that feeling where you want to hate someone, you really do, but something always happens to where either you can't or you just don't? That's how my ex, James, and I are. We'd probably love to hate each other; I know I've said I've hated him before, but something always happens where we end up all good again in the end and we remain friends. THAT'S real right there; we just...click, ya know? It's awkward and all, but I love it! :D Anyways, not too much has happened in my life recently, except that boyyy and I are talking again. He was just busy with work and such the past week. I really need to calm down, eh? Haha! Now I'm off with Tawnyyyy! Oh the adventures to be had :P until next we meet... ♥*

If you think about it, being in love is simply settling for someone you really get along with who has similar interests that you can't describe why you feel the way you do for them but you do and it's an amazing feeling. I've always wanted to believe that love and all things related was like this biiiiig beautiful rainbow of stuff that happened and we'd all live happily ever after. WRONG! Love is exactly what my quote above says; settling for that one person who makes you happy and you get along with. Now, I've had my share of bad relationships, let's not kid ourselves, but honestly I take each one and use it towards discovering what I really want out of a longer lasting one. For instance, in my last relationship the guy I was with would walk around his town with me and show me everywhere he used to work or hang out at; I felt like I was getting a deeper understanding of him. I liked that. Unfortunately, he's addicted to pot; that I didn't like. The