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Am I ever on your mind? ~ Evans Blue

I FINALLY know exactly what I want in a guy...

Firstly, he should want to be with me
Be there to hold me through the nightmare and wipe away the tears that I shed from all the damage I've been put through
Someone who will sing me to sleep, either on the phone or in person
Someone who will push me around in the back of a shopping cart
Someone who fully accepts me; dreams, wishes, scars, everything
He can't walk away from me when I need him
Laugh at my humourous things (I can be funny)
Don't put me down, ever
Don't lie to me; it disappoints me more than knowing the cold truth
Spend hours on the phone with me, just because it helps him feel close to me, and I can hear his voice; maybe even fall asleep on the phone with me
Someone who will make me feel safe...even when I'm not in their arms
We should have things in common, but I'm very open-minded and willing to try new things
MUST be open-minded; if he's not, he won't be able to put up with me
His looks are secondary, be he should be attractive in my eyes
He should tell me I'm beautiful, because he truly thinks I am
Finally, I just want a guy who will simply stand still with me...as if we're the only two people left in existance...or so we should feel...

I've been thinking about this for a long time now, and no Donny isn't this guy. I haven't found this guy yet...thought I did at one point, but he ditched me. I still love him but I've given up hope. Then there have been others that have come close but none are perfect, which is what I want. A human guy, a guy who doesn't have a God Complex or a huge Ego and doesn't need me and I DO NOT want a guy who thinks he has to lie to me to keep me happy! That's the LAST thing I want.
But my list...*sigh* So much I put into it...

Will anyone fill this void in my life? =/

<3*

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