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"...come break me down bury me bury me I am finished with you..." ~ 30 Seconds to Mars<333

I officially had the day from hell until about ten minutes ago when I talked with Josh and he made me feel better =] He's amazing, and I'm so glad I met him through Facebook and MySpace XDD

It all started at Dress Rehearsal for CATS when I sat on this fake rocking horse thing and it snapped. You better believe that everyone was on my case after that, so I was deemed the klutz for the day there. Then by the middle of rehearsal I realized I'm like the only one there who's single, but I do like someone in the cast. The problem is he's only 15; and no it's not Chris (over him!). I was about 4 feet away from this guy and I just couldn't do anything. I felt frozen. Then I get home and was completely stressed out and blew up at my little brother because he threw a ball at my butt. I don't know why, he just did. And finally, I called Kyle, who I decided that we need space from each other because we're just not talking like we used to and it depresses me. He'll openly admit that he likes video games more than talking to me, so I don't know. I miss him so much though it's not funny at all. But this'll be good for us, I hope. Maybe after a week he'll be less stressed out...I hope at least.

But I think I'm really starting to fall for Josh, even though we haven't met in person. He gave me his cell number and told me I could text him but I'm too nervous to...I know, me nervous? Never, except when it comes to relationships and such. Mainly because I've been so hurt in the past (by many a guy, including but not limited to: Donny, Dan, Kyle). But I might text him...*sigh*

That was my day today.
Tomorrow will be better =]

until next we meet...
♥*

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