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"...use me as you will pull my strings just for a thrill..." ~ The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus<33

So I might actually be completely unhinged in this entry because I'm really confused right now.
Jon and I are sorta together, but not officially. I just can't be in a relationship right now, since I still love Kyle...who's always working now, it seems. And when he's not, he's shopping and spending money only to come home and complain to me about it (hey, at least he's talking to me, right?).
Anyways, the more I talk to Jon, the more I fall for him, and it scares me to death. The only other guy I've loved like this is Kyle, and I'm still falling for him too. It's not fair to either of them to have to deal with this, I know, but it's what's going on in my heart.
Jon's the sweetest guy I've ever met. Kyle owns my heart and knows all my secrets.
Both have their reasons for liking me as they do, but only Jon says he loves me back; Kyle's still a little confused, I think.

I just don't know what to do here...somebody help me with this?
I'll listen to anyone!

Other than that, I finally met Amy today, and she's pretty cool =] I can't wait until we can actually hang out somewhere better than my house...errr, outside of it, at least =P

I miss everyone...
Cindy, Kyle, Anthony, Zach, Donny (yes, I'm serious), Jon, Rocky, Adam, and so many more people if I were to list them I'd still be crying...
I'm so lonely right now =[


Anyways, I'll leave you to read this now...

until next we meet...
♥*

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