"..the heat of affection, a fragile mind, because of you..." ~ Unwritten Law<333

So I decided today that Jon and I shouldn't be together. Alot of it was because I'm not attracted to him at all, but most of it was because during church today I was praying about what I should do with this situation I'm in and God told me to get rid of Jon, that he was bringing me down and everything because he's not Christian. Yes, I am a Christian, and if you have a problem with it, I'm sorry but you shouldn't be reading my blog. I gave my life to the Lord when I was 8 years old and completely confirmed it in February when I went to a Youth Challenge at Pine Crest Bible Training Center. That was one of the greatest weekends of my entire life, and I cannot wait to hopefully go back next winter again =]

Anyways, I did it. Jon and I are over. He still loves me and cares about me...probably just a little too much, because what happened was Kyle♥ called me while I was talking to him and we made it like he was here with me, typing on my computer. Well, Jon told Kyle♥ he wants to marry me but would never tell me because he knows it would scare me (yeahh, just a little) and then went on to say that he hopes Kyle♥ can make me happy and Kyle♥ pointed out to him that I'm independent and that only I can control my happiness. Jon then had to go because he was on Donny's laptop but we got him in an off-line message and he read it with no reply. Then, he came back online and I attempted to talk to him, again with Kyle♥ on the phone with me, and Kyle♥ made me stop because he said that Jon was bringing me into depression, and he was right. At one point, I was blasting "Blurry" by Puddle of Mudd until Kyle♥ told me to shut it off and lay down in my bed. We finally came to a point of conclusion after about 45 minutes of me crying to him about how worried I was and how sorry I was that I was hurting Jon. I still care about the guy, I just don't love him. I don't think I can at this point; I love Kyle♥, and he's my best friend. Nothing's going to change that =]
And tonight was probably the last night he and I could talk as late as we did, because he starts college on Tuesday at 8am. I'm happy for him =] But I am going to miss our late-night talks about our naughty bits and such ;] Oh, how I love him! XDD

Anyways, that was my "excitement" for the day, although I did get down and out enough to make this to try and cheer myself up:

^-^ FoxtrotUniformCharlieKilo
[[I don't wanna beat around the bush]]♥

And with that, I think I'll go watch 18 Again! and dose off.

until next we meet...
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