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"...for the first time now I came alive somehow..." ~ Skillet<333

It's Day one of three without Richard♥. He's on a band trip thing in Rochester, NY, until Sunday night, when I will hopefully get to Amsterdam to see him =D I miss him like crazy and I'm pretty sure he misses me just as much. It was cute, he texted me when he got there and maybe about 10 minutes before I was saying, "Oh, I hope he got there alright". It's telepathy, I'm positive =]

Other than missing my love, I've just been getting angry a lot over little things, really. It annoys me that I'm so short-fused at times, but it's just me. I don't mean to act out on it; I just hate hearing people yelling, but c'est la vie. I'm used to the screaming, yelling, and such...fun stuff, right?

Anyways, I had a conference with the one guidance counselor and my mother today, because apparently I'm failing and I'm ranked 76 out of 80. Ugh, whatever. I still have a semester left of school, so I can pull off Graduation if I get my butt in gear, in which I plan on it. The counselor and I are going to fill out college applications tomorrow during my study halls; he has one in mind that's in Vermont [not cool; that's where Kyle's from].
Then during Gym, a girl who I will just "affectionately" call Princess B!tch told me I couldn't play volleyball on her team, which was the only team with an open spot on it, so I ended up sitting out of Gym. That's not a good thing, seeing as how here at wonderful FPHS Gym is mandatory, so if I fail that, I can't Graduate. Ugh, whatever, again.

Other than all that fun stuff, Cindy's probably coming over on Saturday and she's going to finish watching Elfen Lied. Then, on Sunday, my heart will be all happy and melted again when I see my Richard♥ hopefully. I hope it doesn't snowstorm so that my father goes to work and I can ride out with him...*prays really hard*

And with that...I shall leave you...

Richard♥, you're the only one that manages to get me to smile. I hope--No, I know you'll never leave me, and I'll never leave you. Face it, you're stuck with me, honey ;D I love you with every fiber of my being, and so much more.

[he's been running through my dreams
& it's driving me crazy it seems
I'm gonna ask him to marry me]

until next we meet...
♥*
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Now playing: Skillet - Rebirthing
via FoxyTunes

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