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"...in your eyes I lost my place..." ~ The Used <3333

For the record, I feel really insecure tonight, and I don't know why. It's bugging me a lot, because I honestly have nothing to be insecure about; I have a boyfriend who loves me with everything in him, friends that care a lot about me...no reason to feel this way, and yet I do. I hate it.

But whatever. This is an update, because for some reason, Richard♥ finds my life interesting. I hate to tell him but I only make it seem interesting in here; creative license, ya know how we do, foo' ;D I'm totally kidding...but I don't find my life that interesting. I mean, it has been since he came into my story, but yes. I just don't see what the intrigue is; then again, do any of us find our lives interesting. I mean, really, who sits there saying, "Wow, my life should be a television series, or a motion picture?". Maybe egotistical maniacs, but no one I know. Except maybe Adam, but that's just because I can so hear him saying that his life would make an amazing series on like ABC Family or something =P That's just my AB for ya =D

My past couple weeks have definitely been worthwhile, I guess. I've spend time with my Richard♥ and in that time, he entrusted me with his prized possession: his class ring. I'm wearing it right now.
^_^ Isn't it amazing?! I love it...it makes me feel like he's with me all time time. The only time I take it off is when I shower or wash dishes. Oh, and Gym class =P

So I was with Richard♥ Saturday night until about 10pm, and in this time, we watched about half of Sweet November. Now now, you pervs, calm down; it was only because my laptop died [we were in his car]. We then went to his house, and hung out in his room, being cute together as usual.
^_^ I licked him [I LOVE HIS FACE IN THIS PICTURE! It's so "you touch her, you die"], and then...
^_^ He licked me XD ♥
^_^ Amazing, because we are ♥
I love him so much, it's not even funny anymore =]

I also realized today that on Thursday, it'll be one month for us. I just can't believe that he stuck around for this long already; most guys would be sick of me within the first week or so. The last guy that was with me didn't even want to spend time with me. Granted, he's 21 and likes to drink with his friends, I think he should at least want to be around me a little bit. And if you're going to leave me, DO NOT do it through MySpace. At least call me or something, have some balls.
But I'm not afraid I'm going to lose Richard♥, because I'm 100% convinced that he honestly loves me. And if he doesn't then he's an excellent actor, but I don't think that he'd lie to me like this. I love him so much, right now it's killing me not to be with him. I'm seriously dying inside a little, each time I cannot be with him. Then we're together and I'm ecstatic. It's like we've been together for years, and I know in reality we will be. I love him. I love him. I love him.

I don't ever get tired of saying that I love him, either.

But that is all for tonight.

Oh and for everyone who reads this, PLEASE leave me a comment or something to let me know you've read it! I like knowing who knows what about my life and feedback is amazing, people! Thank you (^_^)

until next we meet...
♥*
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Now playing: The Used - I Caught Fire (In Your Eyes)
via FoxyTunes

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