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Soapbox :: BE WARNED!

As I looked through some of my Facebook friends' photos, I realized something that I should've picked up on years and years ago: I've never really fit in. Okay, sure, I have Anthony, Cora, Tawny, and many other friends, but they didn't come into my life until after I met the ones from elementary school. Those ones were the first friends you were supposed to have in life, and apparently I just wasn't up to their standards. I did have one friend from Kindergarten; she and I were inseparable...until I moved away for a few months, she got into sports, and when I returned she ignored me like I never existed. Now she's happily married in another state; how did I find that out? Facebook and MySpace. I just think it's sad that I find out most of my information about people from the internet when others are getting a first-hand account.
The one friend that got me thinking about this was a guy I've also known since Kindergarten. He and I were never close, close friends but we've talked on several occasions. I recently ran into him at his place of employment, where he told me he was going away to college in 2 weeks. Once I left, I searched him on Facebook; lo and behold, he had one, with several hundred friends. He added me, and I just finally sat down and checked out his pictures tonight. This guy somehow managed to maintain friendship with a lot of the old friends, and seeing these pictures made me feel a little left out to be honest. I always wanted people to remember me...
But now I'm fine. Done some thinking, and I know that the ones who stick around through the battles are the ones I want by my side forever <3 Without you guys, I'd be super lost.

And that's my rant for the night.

On a happier note, I've been talking to Kory all day and almost all night, and things seem to be progressing nicely =) If he and I do end up becoming a couple, a lotttt of people will either be surprised or happy for us; after all, I have been in like with him since 8th grade :P Only time will tell here <33

until next we meet...
♥*

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