& you're in my head...♥

Shut up, Camp Rock was your A-typical Disney Channel Original Movie but the songs were super catchy. Especially that one I quoted in my subject line; "I Gotta Find You" So just to clarify I gave it a lot of thought before I even thought of a relationship because, let's be honest, I've been hurt many many times. But everything is different with Andrew. Yes, I am officially in love with Andrew ^^ Le sigh... Other than that, my job has just owned my soul and will continue to until after Christmas :( ughhh! until next we meet... ♥*

Yes, I'm a closet Gaga fan. She's really very talented and her songs are quite catchy. I probably wouldn't pay big money to see her live, but if the opportunity arose I'd take it. Today was a strange day. Woke up to a text from Cora asking me what was wrong with Dave, who's Tweet read "Going to the ER". He's still living, so that's good, but his Bell's Palsy is acting up again, so that's bad :( James and I talked for a while today, where he tried to convince me to date his friend that I'm NOT ATTRACTED TO AT ALL! and then told me I'm going to be a crazy cat lady D: Oh, and the douche has midnight opening tickets to New Moon and ISN'T GOING! That, my friends, is a travesty! But ahh well! Seriously, people need to let me think for myself and let me fall down to pull myself back up! It's how I get stronger and learn from my mistakes. For example, I CAN FIND MY OWN GUYS! If they happen to be bad and dump me, oh well. I'll su...

*I feel obligated to let you guys into my mind a bit more. Music is my heart, so here are some of the songs I just can't stop listening to* - "The Way" by Fastball [Amazing song about people who decide to just ditch life and be free of everything] - "Paparazzi" by Lady Gaga [I think the title says it all, but she's trying to get a man to fall in love with her by stalking him] - "Skid Row" from Little Shop Of Horrors [I was in this play for about a week 2 years ago and fell in love with this song. It depicts my town almost to a T.] - "Love Is..." by Bo Burnham [As twisted as it gets, he does explain love quite nicely.] - "Breathe Into Me" by Red [It's a Christian hardrock song and it's one of those "I'm Headbanging And I'm LOVING IT!" songs :D] - "World Of Our Own" by Westlife [I had searched for this song for YEARS and FINALLY found it! It's an adorable love song about finding your pe...

Now that ^^ is an old song...at least to people my age haha! It was super popular in 2005, and then Hinder started to suck. I never gave it any thought until I heard it with Tawny today, and I was like "WHOA! This song actually makes sense to me now!" The chorus goes: Go home, get stoned We can end up making love instead of misery Go home, get stoned Because the sex is so much better when you're mad at me After dating (and having sex with) a stoner, I understand this now. Wow, am I enlightened! Hahaha! I hung out at FMCC today, mostly with Spencer as I said was going to happen :P Actually before that, I hung out with Cindy; I MISS HER LIKE CRAZY! Then I was with Spencer for almost 3 hours, until Aaron came and stole'd him away D: :P I went into the "Dungeon", found Lauren and Adam, FINALLY talked to Justin, and then saw Mike and his new girlfriend, which is a girl I've known for a couple years now named Alea. Then Tawny and I left campus, went to McDonal...

In a pretty good mood today. I made my mom practically die laughing over the idea or image of a fatman riding a bus :P (It's one of those you-had-to-be-there moments, I guess) I'll be up at FMCC tomorrow between 8:15 to 12:30, more than likely with Spencer, so if you want to see me you should find us. He's going to be attached to me (and I'll LOVE it! hahaha!) XD Alright, I promised Cora I was going to blog something about this next topic. I meant to last night but it just ran away SCREAMING so I'll do it now. All my life I've been on the search for my soul mate, that one person who would make me feel "complete" and I'd marry them and live happily ever after. More recently, however, I've come to realize something. Yes, I do want to find that ONE person. Yes, I do want to fall in love. No, I don't HAVE to right now. I'm content with life as is; I don't need a boyfriend or man in my life to make me feel anymore complete than I already...

Okay...NEED to FOCUS! DESPERATELY need to update you all on the happenings of the past month I think since I've updated. Spencer is like my twin brother/one of my best friends. I talk to him about everything (even if it's grotesque and he doesn't want to hear it :P) and he still willing listens to me :) I love him I had a boyfriend for maybe 3 days named Casey. He seemed nice...until he dumped me, saying he cheated on me. Whatever. I'm over it now. AND THE BIGGEST PART OF MY MONTH: Recently, I've been doing a lot of thinking about college and what I'd like to do. As I've stated, I don't have any measurable amount of talent for much of anything, and I seem to lose interest in things quickly, so what could I possibly do with my life? My friends, whom I love and adore, jumped at the opportunity to point out my annoying flaws in an attempt to either help me or make me see I'm a worthless cause. Instead Spencer said "Be a private investigator" ...

I eventually need to update on the past month almost. Someone remind me?