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"There is no joy in these kids; they feel invisible. That's why every one of them has a MySpace page" - GLEE♥

Okay...NEED to FOCUS! DESPERATELY need to update you all on the happenings of the past month I think since I've updated.

Spencer is like my twin brother/one of my best friends. I talk to him about everything (even if it's grotesque and he doesn't want to hear it :P) and he still willing listens to me :) I love him <3
I had a boyfriend for maybe 3 days named Casey. He seemed nice...until he dumped me, saying he cheated on me. Whatever. I'm over it now.

AND THE BIGGEST PART OF MY MONTH:
Recently, I've been doing a lot of thinking about college and what I'd like to do. As I've stated, I don't have any measurable amount of talent for much of anything, and I seem to lose interest in things quickly, so what could I possibly do with my life? My friends, whom I love and adore, jumped at the opportunity to point out my annoying flaws in an attempt to either help me or make me see I'm a worthless cause. Instead Spencer said "Be a private investigator" so THAT'S WHAT I SHALL BECOME :D
I'm going to apply to SUNY Cortland once I get the $40 application fee (yes, with a large application fee comes a good college, I guess) and I hope I get in! Cortland is out near Ithaca, which is where my Ith boys are...and I miss/love them dearly! <3 *keeps fingers crossed*
What do you guys think? Do I have a shot?

Also recently, I've become stronger and have had the power to say "No" to certain people, and in some cases I've been able to push them out of my life. I'm not trying to be heartless; I'm just trying to find friends and lovers who truly appreciate me. Like, okay, I'm not that hard to put up with! Certain "friends" would roll their eyes when my name is mentioned, or worse, act all nice-nice when I'm around and talk about how annoying I am after I'm gone. I hate that! I don't need that, and I'm happier than I've ever been nowadays.

Alright...I have a headache and am sleepy :/

until next we meet...
♥*

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Tricia said…
Plans are good! :) They give you something to look forward to.
November 16, 2009 at 5:45 AM
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