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"I want you leather dirty kiss in the scene, And I want your love..." ~ Lady Gaga <3

Yes, I'm a closet Gaga fan. She's really very talented and her songs are quite catchy. I probably wouldn't pay big money to see her live, but if the opportunity arose I'd take it.

Today was a strange day. Woke up to a text from Cora asking me what was wrong with Dave, who's Tweet read "Going to the ER". He's still living, so that's good, but his Bell's Palsy is acting up again, so that's bad :(
James and I talked for a while today, where he tried to convince me to date his friend that I'm NOT ATTRACTED TO AT ALL! and then told me I'm going to be a crazy cat lady D: Oh, and the douche has midnight opening tickets to New Moon and ISN'T GOING! That, my friends, is a travesty! But ahh well!

Seriously, people need to let me think for myself and let me fall down to pull myself back up! It's how I get stronger and learn from my mistakes. For example, I CAN FIND MY OWN GUYS! If they happen to be bad and dump me, oh well. I'll survive. Look how nicely I've progressed since James; I'm willing to find someone new but I don't NEED to. And everyone NEEDS to STOP MAKING FUN OF ME OVER EVERYTHING! If it's in the past, leave it there! I'm sick of having my stupid moments and douchey comments made at me over and over again. Seriously, you all need lives.

*sigh* I need to sleep now...above everything else.
until next we meet.
♥*

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Andrew Blakely said…
Jeez, sounds like people are riding on you for something you did in the past and can't really undo or make-up. It doesn't sound fair, espcially if it has something to do with regular life things. But I guess I'm just a spectator, since I have no idea what is going on lol... I really hardly know you.

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