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"& in the night we'll wish this never ends, we'll wish this never ends..." ~ blink182

Let's take it back a couple years to Summer 2007 when I had the greatest friends of all time :) For me it was always going to be Cindy, Anthony, and Kyle. Although normally Kyle and I just talked on the phone and Cindy, Anthony, and I hung out for a few hours each week that entire summer, I felt like life couldn't get any better. If you need reference, click here and you'll even see pictures :)
As I was walking home with my littlest brother today from an appointment he had with my mother, I started to smell that "Just-After-The-Rain" smell the world gets when Spring is about to arrive and it made me sad. Cindy and Anthony don't even talk anymore, which could partially be my fault (long story short, I introduced Anthony to a person Cindy could never get along with, ergo Cindy backed away :/). I miss them. I miss the crazy times in the park, the prank phone calls in his car at 11pm when I know I should be getting inside but don't want to leave yet because we're having too much fun just being together, and most of all I miss the crazy random pictures we'd take all while the Fort Plain police would scold us for being on steps we probably shouldn't be on :( Those were the best nights of my life and I'd give anything to be able to do that again. I know we've all grown up, have jobs, lives, school, romances, babysitting, and reasons as to why we don't get together anymore, but for one night I'd like to; we'd go to Gabriana's and eat pizza there for hours while joking around with the store owner about anything and everything, then we'd go up to the park in town and play Manhunt in the dark and have heart to heart conversations, all DRAMA FREE!
And then Kyle. Oh, Kyle. He and I still talk on occasion but it's not nearly as much or as close as we used to. I understand he's in college now and needs to concentrate so we can't have super long phone calls late at night, and also I don't have my attic bedroom anymore so super private heart-to-hearts are also out of the question.

*sigh* I know it probably sounds like I'm complaining about my life; I'm really not. I do have friends, really good ones at that. Heck, Cora and I feel incomplete if we don't talk at least once a day for an hour. Alex and I are constantly text and calling each other. And, although we really only see each other at work, I know Tawny loves me and would hate working if I wasn't there to spout out something random every so often at her just to make her laugh. I have a really nice life, don't get me wrong. I just miss certain people who seemed to have faded out, so to speak. Anthony is talking about moving to Canada in a year possibly. Cindy's in college and has a wonderful boyfriend who just might be proposing sometime within the next year! :D Kyle is just in college, working really hard and super busy; I let him have his downtime when he can.

I guess what I'm trying to say is...I miss my old life. I do. But I am happy with life as is :3 I may not be in college (or have finished high school :x), I don't have a significant other, and I'm definitely not moving to Canada (although a visit would be nice ;]), but I do have people I can trust with my life and heart, and that's all that matters, correct?
And to anyone mentioned in this entry, thank you for the memories and the good times :) Maybe sometime we can have a reunion and relive a few of them, eh? <3

until next we meet...
♥*

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