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"And that's why Your eyes (I'm over it) Your smile (I'm over it) Realized (I'm over it, Over it, Over it)..." ~ Katharine McPhee!

Normally I wouldn't listen to or quote this kind of music, but for real it's so fitting for me right now.
Casey decided to come back into my life and say he still loves me and wants to give me another chance (big shocker there) so like a puppy I went back to him with the thought every girl has in this situation: "Maybe it'll be different and better this time". Different, yes; there seems to be another girl who gives him affections over Facebook, and in all honesty, I'm done. Seriously, I need someone who actually wants to be with me for good and isn't going to leave me every other week only to come back and do this whole thing all over again. It's ridiculous. And I'm sick of it. I do love him, don't get me wrong; he's one of the only guys I could really say "I love you" to and not regret it, but he doesn't seem to really love me. Like Dollface and I decided, maybe there's more than just me and the other girl he's "mackin'" on. For real, though, I need a decent guy. I'm done with these boys who only want one thing and/or who can't make up their minds.
This is why I'm in a relationship with myself on Facebook :) Only I can love me like I want to be loved, in every way, shape, and form. And that is that!

*sigh* So much angst and drama.

until next we meet...
♥*

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