In this post I may go into a pity party, but just bear with me, okay? Seriously, I've had more heartache in the past month than I think I've ever endured before, which is saying a lot if you haven't read the Kyle saga of 2007 in my Blog Archive.
Right now, I'm torn between two guys; one I've dated before and one who I've always wanted to date but for some reason we never did. Guy #1 is one of my closest friends, we know practically everything about each other, we have fun together, and I know there are feelings there, but we have dated before so this makes things complicated. Guy #2 is always the one to pick me up when I fall, to be there understanding my side of the breakup stories after my breakups, and who can always get me to talk about any situation. I think Guy #2's issue is he's not completely over his exgirlfriend, which is a big one but I'd still like a shot. Both guys are attractive and talented in their own ways, and I love them both. I have friends who would both support and kill me if I went back out with Guy #1 but my heart likes him a lot. Everyone and their grandmothers know I've always loved Guy #2; at one point, people labeled it "obsession". It's not like he's married or anything, and he does find me attractive, fun to talk to, and virtually amazing.
Unless there's something horribly wrong with me that utterly repulses men from me. I don't know. I know I'm not perfect; let's face it, I've got a ton of flaws. But I can't be that bad...can I? :( Seriously, this is giving me a complex! UGH!
Anyways, today was a pretty good day for me. Amy and I hung out in Amsterdam with Andrew; we got Chinese and went to Target where I discovered they didn't have the sweater I wanted anymore :/ I knew I should've bought it back in November! Sigh...then I went to buy Big Bang Theory season two on DVD but they stopped me because I could watch it for free online but really I like holding the show physically in my hands. It's all good though; I still have my $30 gift card from Christmas that I hopefully will use at some point soon :)
I love hanging out with both of them, even though they don't let me look at the baby aisle or CDs :P
*sigh* I'm just waiting to see what happens now. And for Andrew to call me in between World Of Warcraft raids or battles or whatever he's doing WoW-related :P
until next we meet...
♥*
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
Monday, January 4, 2010
Small edit to last entry...
Casey may have dumped me and made me cry, but we've talked it all over and we're still going to be close friends. Or at least we will try to, and I hope so because he's still a fun guy to be around (even though I was only around him twice :P). He also claims he didn't use me so I'm going to believe him.
That is all. Carry on with your lives as I will do mine.
until next we meet...
♥*
That is all. Carry on with your lives as I will do mine.
until next we meet...
♥*
"I've got no strife, I'm loving life, Could you say the same?.." ~ Smash Mouth <333
Smash Mouth had a song titled "Stoned" off their Astro Lounge album back in 2000-ish that I recently reunited with...and it feels so good :)
Anyways, today had its ups and downs. Ups? Casey and I hung out for a few, and in those moments I was the happiest I'd ever been in a while. Downs? He drove him, ate dinner, then dumped me via text message, saying we "moved too fast into everything" and that we should just be friends. This shocked me so much, I started to get sick. HE was the one who said "We will be together forever, my wife, my soul mate", the list goes on...this was so sudden for me. I felt, and still do feel, so used :( Never again will I fall for the blue eyed adorable guys.
I did, however, get Andrew back as my friend :D I'm so happy! He's honestly one of the greatest guy friends I've ever had; he actually understands me and wants to help me with whatever issues I'm dealing with in life, as I do the same for him :) I love you Andrew-kitty. Thank you for being here for me <3
No one is going to believe me with this next part but since this is my blog I can say what I want:
I'm taking a dating sabbatical. Yes I'm serious. I can't stand how I'm going from guy to guy right now, and how I'm overly emotional and get super attached to them right off the bat. I'm going to need help with this because right now I can't do much of this kind of thing on my own so who's with me? :)
until next we meet...
♥*
Anyways, today had its ups and downs. Ups? Casey and I hung out for a few, and in those moments I was the happiest I'd ever been in a while. Downs? He drove him, ate dinner, then dumped me via text message, saying we "moved too fast into everything" and that we should just be friends. This shocked me so much, I started to get sick. HE was the one who said "We will be together forever, my wife, my soul mate", the list goes on...this was so sudden for me. I felt, and still do feel, so used :( Never again will I fall for the blue eyed adorable guys.
I did, however, get Andrew back as my friend :D I'm so happy! He's honestly one of the greatest guy friends I've ever had; he actually understands me and wants to help me with whatever issues I'm dealing with in life, as I do the same for him :) I love you Andrew-kitty. Thank you for being here for me <3
No one is going to believe me with this next part but since this is my blog I can say what I want:
I'm taking a dating sabbatical. Yes I'm serious. I can't stand how I'm going from guy to guy right now, and how I'm overly emotional and get super attached to them right off the bat. I'm going to need help with this because right now I can't do much of this kind of thing on my own so who's with me? :)
until next we meet...
♥*
Sunday, January 3, 2010
Grrrr! Some torrents take FOREVER to download :( I found one with a bunch of songs from the earlier 2000's (aka the GOOD MUSIC YEARS!!!) and I swear I've been waiting almost a half hour for it to finish. Ah well, it led me here in my wait :P
Andrew and I are no longer speaking. He claims to be in love with me, which I'm finding hard to believe since he dumped me and now thinks he loves me? Whatever. He doesn't know what love is, and if he seriously thought I was going to leave Casey to go back to him, he's sorely mistaken.
Speaking of Casey, everything is amazing with him :) He makes me the happiest woman ever, and I honestly don't know what I'd do without him. Earlier tonight we were talking on AIM and he sent me this:
"You are my Wife, My Soul Mate, My Heart, and my Bestest friend, I love you Kristin Elizabeth Staples"
Now I know what you're thinking because I've heard it all before; "It's way too soon for you two to even think about marriage", but honestly if I'm not considering marrying him why am I dating him? Seriously, people, I date to find my husband, and I do believe Casey just may be him <3 I can't wait; he's coming to see me later today...when it's not 12:30 in the morning and he's been asleep since 11pm :P
Oh, hark...a text message from Cora. Okay, a Tweet from Cora asking for someone to talk to. I shall go respond! *grabs Sheldon*
until next we meet...
♥*
Andrew and I are no longer speaking. He claims to be in love with me, which I'm finding hard to believe since he dumped me and now thinks he loves me? Whatever. He doesn't know what love is, and if he seriously thought I was going to leave Casey to go back to him, he's sorely mistaken.
Speaking of Casey, everything is amazing with him :) He makes me the happiest woman ever, and I honestly don't know what I'd do without him. Earlier tonight we were talking on AIM and he sent me this:
"You are my Wife, My Soul Mate, My Heart, and my Bestest friend, I love you Kristin Elizabeth Staples"
Now I know what you're thinking because I've heard it all before; "It's way too soon for you two to even think about marriage", but honestly if I'm not considering marrying him why am I dating him? Seriously, people, I date to find my husband, and I do believe Casey just may be him <3 I can't wait; he's coming to see me later today...when it's not 12:30 in the morning and he's been asleep since 11pm :P
Oh, hark...a text message from Cora. Okay, a Tweet from Cora asking for someone to talk to. I shall go respond! *grabs Sheldon*
until next we meet...
♥*
Friday, January 1, 2010
"Maybe it's not my weekend, But it's gonna be my year..." ~ All Time Low <3333
Happy 2010 everyone! Hope everyone else had a splendid New Year's Eve/Day...considering the fact that I had to flippin' WORK both days D: My job owns my soul sometimes.
Anyways, it's been a little over a week since my last entry and oh boy is there drama to report!
Casey and I are happily together; we went to see Avatar with Tawny, Cora, and Trevor last Sunday and it became official. Now, I've said this before but this time I REALLY MEAN IT, he is my male counterpart; we have very similar sense of humor and almost everything in common :) I love him more than I've ever loved anyone else (even Kyle, which is saying something right there :x).
Since Casey and I got together Andrew decided he wanted me back. Unfortunately, he's a little too late and realized this so now he and I aren't talking...even though he calls me in the middle of the night, texts me constantly, and repeatedly tells me not to talk to him. Whatever, he had me and left me for World of Warcraft. There would have to be major begging and changes before I even considered taking him back.
On a completely different note, my parents are making me get rid of my cat, Claire. She's a bit antisocial and moody, but she IS a beautiful black cat. If and when we find a home for her, I will miss her :( Maybe she'll be happier with less cats around, since we do have 4 altogether. Sigh, c'est la vie, eh?
Alright, Readers. 2010 is going to be my greatest year ever! I can just feel it. I'm happy, going back to school in a few weeks, dating a man who loves me more than anything else in the world (as I do him as well!), and am just staying generally optimistic :) Wish me luck! And good luck in your '010 journeys.
until next we meet...
♥*
Anyways, it's been a little over a week since my last entry and oh boy is there drama to report!
Casey and I are happily together; we went to see Avatar with Tawny, Cora, and Trevor last Sunday and it became official. Now, I've said this before but this time I REALLY MEAN IT, he is my male counterpart; we have very similar sense of humor and almost everything in common :) I love him more than I've ever loved anyone else (even Kyle, which is saying something right there :x).
Since Casey and I got together Andrew decided he wanted me back. Unfortunately, he's a little too late and realized this so now he and I aren't talking...even though he calls me in the middle of the night, texts me constantly, and repeatedly tells me not to talk to him. Whatever, he had me and left me for World of Warcraft. There would have to be major begging and changes before I even considered taking him back.
On a completely different note, my parents are making me get rid of my cat, Claire. She's a bit antisocial and moody, but she IS a beautiful black cat. If and when we find a home for her, I will miss her :( Maybe she'll be happier with less cats around, since we do have 4 altogether. Sigh, c'est la vie, eh?
Alright, Readers. 2010 is going to be my greatest year ever! I can just feel it. I'm happy, going back to school in a few weeks, dating a man who loves me more than anything else in the world (as I do him as well!), and am just staying generally optimistic :) Wish me luck! And good luck in your '010 journeys.
until next we meet...
♥*
Thursday, December 24, 2009
Wow, I'm so sorry I haven't updated recently...or in the past month, at that! I've either been super busy or super depressed over being dumped then taken back then dumped again. Whatever, c'est la vie.
Yes, Andrew and I are NOT together anymore. He decided to point out to me last Sunday that we have nothing in common, which is fine, whatever I don't care now. We'll remain friends, and honestly I think I'm better suited as his mentor more than his girlfriend.
Casey came back into my life about a week before Andrew dumped me, confessing that earlier he just didn't want a committed relationship and he never cheated on me; that was a lie so he could dump me smoothly. I was appalled but relieved that he didn't actually cheat on me. Let's face it; what girl would WANT their man to cheat on them especially if they've only been together for about 3 days total? That's a real slap in the face, in my opinion. Anyways, Casey and I are kinda close now, but we aren't becoming "official" until we've hung out and gotten to know each other away from Facebook and text messenging :) Smart move on our part, eh?
Tomorrow's Christmas, which is the traditional day of receiving gifts and such. I only asked for one specific item this year (Super Smash Bros. Brawl for the Wii) so...*crosses fingers*
And now Andrew's being emo and concerning me by saying things like "You shouldn't care about me; I'm not your problem", which in reality I care A LOT for him and about him and will do anything in my power to help him through all his trials. Face it, Kitty; you're stuck with this Panda <3 :) He's definitely NOT a burden and I think I really can help him; he reminds me of me when I was younger so I'm hoping my experience stories can at least provide a smidgen of guidence into his life.
Oh, and I've decided I'm going to live by the words to All Time Low's song "Weightless" next year:
...Maybe it's not my weekend, but it's gonna be my year
And I'm so sick of watching while the minutes pass as I go no where
And this is my reaction to everything I fear
'Cause I've been going crazy
I don't wanna waste another minute here...
^^ Seriously, isn't that just empowering? Or is it just me? :P
What do you think your song of 2010 will be? :)
until next we meet...
♥*
Yes, Andrew and I are NOT together anymore. He decided to point out to me last Sunday that we have nothing in common, which is fine, whatever I don't care now. We'll remain friends, and honestly I think I'm better suited as his mentor more than his girlfriend.
Casey came back into my life about a week before Andrew dumped me, confessing that earlier he just didn't want a committed relationship and he never cheated on me; that was a lie so he could dump me smoothly. I was appalled but relieved that he didn't actually cheat on me. Let's face it; what girl would WANT their man to cheat on them especially if they've only been together for about 3 days total? That's a real slap in the face, in my opinion. Anyways, Casey and I are kinda close now, but we aren't becoming "official" until we've hung out and gotten to know each other away from Facebook and text messenging :) Smart move on our part, eh?
Tomorrow's Christmas, which is the traditional day of receiving gifts and such. I only asked for one specific item this year (Super Smash Bros. Brawl for the Wii) so...*crosses fingers*
And now Andrew's being emo and concerning me by saying things like "You shouldn't care about me; I'm not your problem", which in reality I care A LOT for him and about him and will do anything in my power to help him through all his trials. Face it, Kitty; you're stuck with this Panda <3 :) He's definitely NOT a burden and I think I really can help him; he reminds me of me when I was younger so I'm hoping my experience stories can at least provide a smidgen of guidence into his life.
Oh, and I've decided I'm going to live by the words to All Time Low's song "Weightless" next year:
...Maybe it's not my weekend, but it's gonna be my year
And I'm so sick of watching while the minutes pass as I go no where
And this is my reaction to everything I fear
'Cause I've been going crazy
I don't wanna waste another minute here...
^^ Seriously, isn't that just empowering? Or is it just me? :P
What do you think your song of 2010 will be? :)
until next we meet...
♥*
Monday, December 7, 2009
Oops...my bad.
This won't be a long one, because...well, it's 2 in the morning and I don't want to bring you guys down with all my drama I've been trying to clear up.
I just felt the need to express something I've recently discovered:
I lost my virginity in July to James, and it took me almost 4 months to officially say "I'm ready to find real love". Yes, I was still getting over him until Andrew and I started talking. Now, my discovery...Not just girls get super attached to the owner of their V-card; I have several guy friends who have been trying desperately to get over their exes and just can't seem to. At first, I knew it was a big deal to lose it, don't get me wrong, but I just thought it was a bigger deal for a girl. I was proven wrong, and that's perfectly fine. I just have more sympathy for the male species now; they hurt just as much as women do when they get dumped by that special person. To all the guys I've unintentionally said "SUCK IT UP!" to in these situations, I'm so very truly sorry, I'm heartless sometimes :(
I think that's all I need to say here right now. Ugh, I need some sleep and OMG IT'S SNOWING!
until next we meet...
♥*
I just felt the need to express something I've recently discovered:
I lost my virginity in July to James, and it took me almost 4 months to officially say "I'm ready to find real love". Yes, I was still getting over him until Andrew and I started talking. Now, my discovery...Not just girls get super attached to the owner of their V-card; I have several guy friends who have been trying desperately to get over their exes and just can't seem to. At first, I knew it was a big deal to lose it, don't get me wrong, but I just thought it was a bigger deal for a girl. I was proven wrong, and that's perfectly fine. I just have more sympathy for the male species now; they hurt just as much as women do when they get dumped by that special person. To all the guys I've unintentionally said "SUCK IT UP!" to in these situations, I'm so very truly sorry, I'm heartless sometimes :(
I think that's all I need to say here right now. Ugh, I need some sleep and OMG IT'S SNOWING!
until next we meet...
♥*
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