& you're in my head...♥

w00tz! This is my hundredth post in here! XDXD Let's keep me blogging for many many more years to come, shall we? And no Elijah my blog does NOT suck! :P So today was definitely an emotional rollercoaster for me. I attempted getting back together with James, and it failed; he doesn't want committment and I do. I then attempted getting him to make me hate him, and he got close; he basically told me that dealing with me is like "running in circles with a retard" so I cried, screamed "I HATE YOU" at him through the phone, and hung up. He and I just need time then we'll be friends. Remember Kyle, everyone? If you don't or weren't around back then, refer to May 2007 - sometime in 2008 I think. Kyle was my "high school sweetheart" in a way; we dated on and off a few times and then lost contact until last week. Now he won't stop texting me :P He's attempting to get me to date him again, and I may but I'm skeptical. What if...

I took a better picture this morning so you all can either "AWWWW" or laugh at my hair: And yes I AM 20! I know I look like I'm 12 here but bear with me. I also FINALLY got around to uploading my Bo Burnham videos from his show but I don't think I'll post them all here at once; maybe one a day for five days :D Day One :: My Whole Family... Excuse the fact that I'm so far back; we had seats in the second to last row because I didn't know I was going until 2 days before and purchased our tickets that Friday at 5pm :P I'm cool, I know. Still amazing sound quality, eh? Oh, I may come back later. I don't know yet. until next we meet... ♥*

Color Oops is probably good for those of us who DO NOT BLEACH THEIR HAIR as much as I have. You see I went from having super dark hair to this: Now I understand that I'm a natural blond but come on! Haha! On the bright side, James says I can now pull off being the slutty pumpkin for Halloween (it's a How I Met Your Mother thing; my favorite episode :]]) That's it for tonight, since I need to be up early to work for Vicki tomorrow morning. I'm going to rewatch The Guild and crash! until next we meet... ♥*

After careful consideration and a lot of thought (which I'm thinking are almost the same thing), I've decided that I'm going to be different. In a good way. Like...a better person who loves life, herself, and her true friends :) I know I've been taking advantage of most of my friends, and I'm truly sorry about that; it just hit me :/ so from now on I'm going to be calmer, less clingy, and more fun! :D And don't just sit there, laughing, saying, "OMG Kristin?! More fun?! She could never be!". Think again, doubting Thomas! It's going to happen and it's going to be...LEGENDARY! BUT ENOUGH OF THAT! :D This past week has been pretty good, for the most part. That boyyy and I are still talking, and we're still friends :) James tried asking me back out, and I rejected him; I REALLY don't want him back, and I REALLY have moved on! But I have to say the highlight of my ENTIRE week was the Bo Burnham show I went to with Adam last night ...

People say you learn something new everyday, what did you learn today? Maybe there really isn't a perfect one out there for each of us. Did you have a good day yesterday? For the most part, until the night. Have you done anything embarrassing lately? I don't get embarrassed. Proven fact. What is something you disliked about your day? Coming to the realization that he doesn't want me. How has the past week been for you? My past week was epic win. Does anyone disgust you? A couple people. Who was the first person you talked to today? Kory. Has anyone ever told you they're in love with you? Not recently. Have you ever taken someone back after they hurt you? Several times. I never learn. Do you have a lot on your mind at the moment? Oh, wouldn't you like to know? Do you think any of your exes will eventually want to be with you again? That's a silly question considering that my most recent one does want me back. Are you wearing any make up right now? Eye liner. Has ...

Ugh, I feel so blah tonight :( I don't even know why, to be honest; like, I have no reason to be. But part of me is screaming "WHAT ARE YOU DOING?! JUST STOP WHILE YOU'RE AHEAD!" and the other part is all "Everything will work out in the end; stay at it!" and then there's a teeny, tiny little voice saying "Don't listen to anyone". I hate this feeling. It makes me just want to give up and accept defeat. If I went back to him, it would just end badly like it did the first time. If I keep waiting around for him to make up his mind, I could be waiting forever. See my paradox? Someone have any advice for me! I leave you with my song of the night ["No One Looks As Good As You In That" - Evans Blue] until next we meet... ♥*

* NEVER follow any code (ie - The Bro Code, The Girl Code, etc); always just do what makes you happy. * When attempting to catch someone's attention, make sure they cannot read your blog :x Trust me, it's not all it's cracked up to be. * Don't talk to a person about themselves. Example - Kristin wouldn't talk to Kory about Kory; Kory wouldn't talk to Kristin about Kristin. [these are just examples and since I'm talking to him at the moment, he's the first name that popped in my head, sorry] * Nothing good happens after 2am; when 2am hits you just go to bed. There you have it! :P