::WARNING:: This is just me actually speaking my mind and shedding tears in the process -

I'm so sick of everyone treating me like I'm an idiot. Even my sister says I'm stupid, and she's nine. I'm sorry that it takes me a few minutes to process something that usually takes someone seconds to grasp a concept of. I don't mean to be slower than most people, I just am, and it makes me sad because then, in turn, I feel like I'm stupid.
It's like tonight at dinner. My father asked me what I was going to college for and I said photography, and he's like "Digital, I'm assuming?". Honestly, I was telling the truth when I said it didn't say digital or otherwise, and he got annoyed with me, and started saying something to the extent of "Well, let's say you worked for a phone company; you wouldn't just say 'I work for the phone company', you'd say 'I work for Such-and-Such phone company'. Photography is a broad subject...blah blah blah". I'm sick of being treated like this!
The only person that doesn't treat me like this now is Richard♥. Even some of my closest friends do, because they know I won't pick up on it for a while.

So I'm sorry I'm slow. I'm so sorry...

I'm going to cry in a corner now =[

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"Well I may have your heart, He has your body..." ~ Bayside <3! [Don't Call Me Peanut]

And so goes another one out of my life most likely. Yep, I lost another friend in the last 48 hours; Spencer. All I can say is I'm sorry, but Cora was just telling you what I was thinking but not telling you; I wasn't going to go over to Bob's, get wasted, and potentially sleep with you. No. That's NOT how I work, and you of all people should know this by now. But whatever. Like my IM said to him earlier, he knows how to get at me. *sigh* So about how that even came about... My family went away to The Great Escape Lodge this weekend, leaving me back here in East Bumblebuttons because I had to work :/ It's all good; I had my own fun. I worked, hung out at the Bowley's house with Joanna and Melissa, hung out with Cora at Rite Aid, then even hung with Amy for a little while and talked about old times :) It definitely was super fun for me. Now how does Spencer work into this? Well, he had told me earlier in the week that he was going to go help Zach housesit for Bob...

"If it's not perfect I'll perfect it til my heart explodes..." ~ Hinder <333

Now that ^^ is an old song...at least to people my age haha! It was super popular in 2005, and then Hinder started to suck. I never gave it any thought until I heard it with Tawny today, and I was like "WHOA! This song actually makes sense to me now!" The chorus goes: Go home, get stoned We can end up making love instead of misery Go home, get stoned Because the sex is so much better when you're mad at me After dating (and having sex with) a stoner, I understand this now. Wow, am I enlightened! Hahaha! I hung out at FMCC today, mostly with Spencer as I said was going to happen :P Actually before that, I hung out with Cindy; I MISS HER LIKE CRAZY! Then I was with Spencer for almost 3 hours, until Aaron came and stole'd him away D: :P I went into the "Dungeon", found Lauren and Adam, FINALLY talked to Justin, and then saw Mike and his new girlfriend, which is a girl I've known for a couple years now named Alea. Then Tawny and I left campus, went to McDonal...

&& sometimes we just know when to come back :)

WOW! Almost a full two years since I last used this blog! And don't get me wrong- I've been blogging on and off but I missed this one for some reason. Oh where to begin? Richard dumped me in March 2008 on the same day I quit high school. For a month, I didn't do anything until I start GED courses and got my GED in June 2008. In July, I ran away from home to live with the man I was dating, Grant, but he dumped me within a week. When I got back home I got my first job at Rite Aid, where I still work :D I dated several other boys until I met James, who was the one to take my virginity...then leave me. Whatever though. I'm getting over him (slowly, but it's happening). Since then, I've been crazy and rebelious; got a tattoo, pierced and gauged my ears, and pierced my lip :) I now live with my friend, Amy, and couldn't be happier. Well, I mean, I'd like either a new boyfriend or to have James back but whatever! This is me nowadays. I think I look better than ...

& you're in my head...♥

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