I really don't feel like writing an actual entry so here's my current song:

And now the old flames will pass away
I saw your light once, did you see mine?
But not all things will pass away

You turned your light off, so I turned mine
Away from your sadness
Away from the nothing that you feel for me

Is this how you wanna go down right before my eyes?
You are the saddest sight I know
You're so quiet and you never make a sound
But here inside my mind you are the loudest one I know

And you were right, right from the start
It took everything you had but you finally broke my

Quote hey, listen 'cause I'll only say this once
I finally found the words that mean enough to me
Goodbye my soul, unquote

[Evans Blue :: Quote]

Okay, so it's not the happiest song or the whole song but it's what sticks out to me the most tonight. I hung out with my friends earlier; they're dating and watching them cuddle and everything killed me. I miss it...a lot. Can't sugar-coat it.
But whatever, maybe I'm just not the girl for anyone right now. Yes, I do like Kory an awful lot, but does he even like me like that?! I mean, he says we would cuddle and whatnot if we were in the same room but is he trying to just be my cuddly friend?! Ugh...

until next we meet...
♥*

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"Well I may have your heart, He has your body..." ~ Bayside <3! [Don't Call Me Peanut]

And so goes another one out of my life most likely. Yep, I lost another friend in the last 48 hours; Spencer. All I can say is I'm sorry, but Cora was just telling you what I was thinking but not telling you; I wasn't going to go over to Bob's, get wasted, and potentially sleep with you. No. That's NOT how I work, and you of all people should know this by now. But whatever. Like my IM said to him earlier, he knows how to get at me. *sigh* So about how that even came about... My family went away to The Great Escape Lodge this weekend, leaving me back here in East Bumblebuttons because I had to work :/ It's all good; I had my own fun. I worked, hung out at the Bowley's house with Joanna and Melissa, hung out with Cora at Rite Aid, then even hung with Amy for a little while and talked about old times :) It definitely was super fun for me. Now how does Spencer work into this? Well, he had told me earlier in the week that he was going to go help Zach housesit for Bob...

"If it's not perfect I'll perfect it til my heart explodes..." ~ Hinder <333

Now that ^^ is an old song...at least to people my age haha! It was super popular in 2005, and then Hinder started to suck. I never gave it any thought until I heard it with Tawny today, and I was like "WHOA! This song actually makes sense to me now!" The chorus goes: Go home, get stoned We can end up making love instead of misery Go home, get stoned Because the sex is so much better when you're mad at me After dating (and having sex with) a stoner, I understand this now. Wow, am I enlightened! Hahaha! I hung out at FMCC today, mostly with Spencer as I said was going to happen :P Actually before that, I hung out with Cindy; I MISS HER LIKE CRAZY! Then I was with Spencer for almost 3 hours, until Aaron came and stole'd him away D: :P I went into the "Dungeon", found Lauren and Adam, FINALLY talked to Justin, and then saw Mike and his new girlfriend, which is a girl I've known for a couple years now named Alea. Then Tawny and I left campus, went to McDonal...

&& sometimes we just know when to come back :)

WOW! Almost a full two years since I last used this blog! And don't get me wrong- I've been blogging on and off but I missed this one for some reason. Oh where to begin? Richard dumped me in March 2008 on the same day I quit high school. For a month, I didn't do anything until I start GED courses and got my GED in June 2008. In July, I ran away from home to live with the man I was dating, Grant, but he dumped me within a week. When I got back home I got my first job at Rite Aid, where I still work :D I dated several other boys until I met James, who was the one to take my virginity...then leave me. Whatever though. I'm getting over him (slowly, but it's happening). Since then, I've been crazy and rebelious; got a tattoo, pierced and gauged my ears, and pierced my lip :) I now live with my friend, Amy, and couldn't be happier. Well, I mean, I'd like either a new boyfriend or to have James back but whatever! This is me nowadays. I think I look better than ...

& you're in my head...♥

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