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"No, she's dead. This is her son." ~ Kurt from GLEE!

And it's back to me being on my own again. Casey ran away, it seems. My text messages and phone calls go unnoticed, which is just proof that he and I aren't meant to be. Honestly, I could've told you all that much sooner but whatever. Lvlien and I are still talking so I'm remaining hopeful and trying to not get super attached yet, which we all know is difficult for me :/

I think this is just proof I need to concentrate on me, myself, and I for a while. I can like the guys, and heck I can even love them, but maybe a relationship isn't perfect for me right now. And my standards are going to go way up. I want someone like me; someone who wants love and all that, someone who can be random and giggle at stupid, corny things, someone who likes to cuddle more than have sex. Honestly, that sounds like Dollface but he and I are just friends, and we're happy that way.
I want someone who can sit on the phone with me for hours and not get bored. Someone who will watch my favorite movies and television shows with me, even though I've seen everything a million times before, just so they can understand me more. Someone who will go to concerts with me and protect me against the mosh pits. Someone nice, cuddly, and dependable (no, dude from He's Just Not That Into You, that doesn't mean I won't sleep with you eventually!). Someone who will help me support my ice cream and energy drink habits, and enjoy them! Seriously, like I said, I want the male version of myself. He's out there...hiding.

Also, Kyle has deleted his Facebook because I won't date him, or so it seems. Seriously, that was so high school and I'm sorry but I had to move on. Can't stay pining over one guy forever unless he's going to sweep you off your feet right then and there, eh? :)

Alright, I'm done ranting. Time to get the kitty ready for the vet. My Dewey decided to fight with neighborhood cats and get injured *sigh*
until next we meet...
♥*

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