"...come break me down bury me bury me I am finished with you..." ~ 30 Seconds to Mars<333

I officially had the day from hell until about ten minutes ago when I talked with Josh and he made me feel better =] He's amazing, and I'm so glad I met him through Facebook and MySpace XDD

It all started at Dress Rehearsal for CATS when I sat on this fake rocking horse thing and it snapped. You better believe that everyone was on my case after that, so I was deemed the klutz for the day there. Then by the middle of rehearsal I realized I'm like the only one there who's single, but I do like someone in the cast. The problem is he's only 15; and no it's not Chris (over him!). I was about 4 feet away from this guy and I just couldn't do anything. I felt frozen. Then I get home and was completely stressed out and blew up at my little brother because he threw a ball at my butt. I don't know why, he just did. And finally, I called Kyle, who I decided that we need space from each other because we're just not talking like we used to and it depresses me. He'll openly admit that he likes video games more than talking to me, so I don't know. I miss him so much though it's not funny at all. But this'll be good for us, I hope. Maybe after a week he'll be less stressed out...I hope at least.

But I think I'm really starting to fall for Josh, even though we haven't met in person. He gave me his cell number and told me I could text him but I'm too nervous to...I know, me nervous? Never, except when it comes to relationships and such. Mainly because I've been so hurt in the past (by many a guy, including but not limited to: Donny, Dan, Kyle). But I might text him...*sigh*

That was my day today.
Tomorrow will be better =]

until next we meet...
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"...don't give up on the dream don't give up on the wanting in everything that's true..." ~ Placebo<333

Today wasn't all that exciting but I'll still write about it, seeing as how I know a couple people will be reading it =] Thank you to them, by the way. You're the reason I'm even keeping this going.

So I finally woke up and got dressed, then called Kyle to apologize for everything that went on last night, and he said it was fine, we're still cool. He also told me to get more sleep, so after I'm done here it's bedtime for me =P He restarts Driver's Ed tomorrow but I won't see him since he's only going to be at the school from 8:30-10; my classes are from 8-10 and 10-12, so it sucks. He knows how bad this is affecting me and he wants to see me too. *sigh* I called him while I was cleaning tonight and he cheered me up a bit, although he made me feel bad since I haven't watch the show Ergo Proxy yet (hey, it's not my fault I don't have a DVD burner and have to wait to use Rocky's). But anyways, I'll watch them eventually this week, I promised him.
I talked to Josh (my online friend) most of the day today. We have alot in common, and we both seem to like each other. The only problem is he lives in Virginia and I'm in New York, so a relationship isn't feasible at this point and time ='[ But he told me that he might be coming up to NYC to visit a friend in college so he'd stop into my place (which is about 4 hours away from NYC, see how special I am? =]). I want to meet this guy so bad! I think I like him alot...is that a bad thing?

Other than that, my friend Rachel made me this adorable animated photo of Kyle and I:
She's cool ^_^ Thank you so much; I love it♥*

And with that, I shall leave you all to leave me comments...wait...never mind hahaha!!!

until next we meet...
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"...I don't want to be the one the battles always choose cuz inside I realize I'm the one confused..." ~ Linkin Park<333

I have to change my song. Right now, it's "Amazing" by Blue October, and I knew something was up when Kyle cried during it. It's messing with me.
Sometimes things do this to me and I don't know why. Like last night, I started dreaming about that Jon guy and it was odd. In it, he wanted to be with me, but in reality, I know in my heart I don't want to be with him, honestly. I'm happy with my friendship with Kyle and Anthony, and my new friendship with Josh online, and my reacquintainted friendship with Eyn. Another guy would just confuse me right now.

That's all I wanted to say. I just don't know what song I should put here. I'd put "Konstantine" by Something Corporate but I don't know; I don't think you'd all sit here and listen to it, ya know? It's 9:35 long.

*sigh* I'm lonely...I hate this...I miss Kyle. Plain and simple. And rightfully so, since we haven't seen each other in almost a month now. This week, he starts Driver's Ed again, so I can keep my fingers crossed and hope for the best. As he says, "there's always the telephone", but you can't see into the other side, can you?

I'll be alright in the end...
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"...here I go scream my lungs out and try to get to you..." ~ Yellowcard

Haha, yeahh I know I need to update more but honestly nothing too much goes on in my life worth gushing about or blurting out. It's pretty sad and pathetic most days; I get up, go to summer school, come home, go to CATS rehearsal (thank God this is the last week of the play!), come back home, and either call Kyle or just chill the rest of the night, constantly checking my MySpace or chatting with people on AIM.

Speaking of AIM, Facebook, and MySpace, I met a guy on Facebook named Josh and I decided to IM him yesterday, and wow! He's a-freakin'-mazing! I think I'm falling for a guy I met online :o But yeahh we're chatting now as I'm typing this =]
He's pretty funny! Here's something so that you all can see how funny he is with me:

Josh (10:44:36 PM): I went to this thing in Ohio called 'ragnarok'

Josh (10:44:49 PM): and what it was was a bunch of kids fighting with foam swords

Josh (10:44:52 PM): period garb

Josh (10:44:54 PM): period food

Josh (10:45:09 PM): basicly, like a big reinaseince fair, with fighting as the main attraction

Josh (10:45:16 PM): and so, everytday, uoud fight

Josh (10:45:24 PM): and every night, youd get plastered

Josh (10:45:48 PM): which is good for us kids, seeing as wed jsut graduated, and were more than happy to aprtake in both events

Josh (10:46:02 PM): so, one night, i was drinking, and i ahdnt drunk much

Josh (10:46:18 PM): like, a lil bit of jager and vodka

Josh (10:46:29 PM): and i was wanderin around, and i ran into a buddy of mine

Josh (10:46:36 PM): i use the term buddy loosely here

Josh (10:46:45 PM): and he started feeding me sangria

Josh (10:46:54 PM): and after the hard liquer id already had...

Josh (10:46:58 PM): well, it was bad

Josh (10:47:18 PM): i woke up the next morning, still drunk

Josh (10:51:34 PM): do you guys paly gutiar hero up there?

IFyoUCKristin x9 (11:51:26 PM): YESSSS!!!!!!!!

IFyoUCKristin x9 (11:51:33 PM): I LOVE Guitar Hero!

Josh (10:51:55 PM): it is cocaine to my poor rocker heart

Josh (10:46:01 PM): i was actaully bein followed by some car when i left town...

Josh (10:46:05 PM): but i ditched em

Josh (10:46:13 PM): cause my minivan is teh roxxor

IFyoUCKristin x9 (11:46:07 PM): hahaha niice

IFyoUCKristin x9 (11:46:20 PM): although it was me following you

Josh (10:46:55 PM): well, if id a known that

Josh (10:47:04 PM): things woulda turned out a wee bit differently

IFyoUCKristin x9 (11:46:58 PM): hehe

IFyoUCKristin x9 (11:47:00 PM): oh really?

IFyoUCKristin x9 (11:47:20 PM): and what would you have done, eh?

Josh (10:47:56 PM): ooh

Josh (10:48:05 PM): many many things not suitible for publlic recitation

IFyoUCKristin x9 (11:48:06 PM): are these good illegal things or bad illegal things?

Josh (10:49:13 PM): very good... and very legal too

IFyoUCKristin x9 (11:49:24 PM): hehe ok then *imagination is running wild now*

Josh (10:49:54 PM): lol

Josh (10:49:58 PM): and probably running to all the right palces

IFyoUCKristin x9 (11:49:58 PM): hahaha niice

IFyoUCKristin x9 (11:51:20 PM): now I'm really curious as to what you'd want to do to me hehehe

Dorklord07 (10:51:59 PM): well, id start uot up high

Josh (10:52:05 PM): and then slowly

Josh (10:52:07 PM): very slowly

Josh (10:52:11 PM): make my way on down

IFyoUCKristin x9 (11:52:11 PM): ah ha lol

IFyoUCKristin x9 (11:52:19 PM): interesting lol...

IFyoUCKristin x9 (11:53:35 PM): and do you think I'd let you do these things to me?

IFyoUCKristin x9 (11:53:36 PM): hehe

Josh (10:54:14 PM): lol

Josh (10:54:28 PM): well, if you didnt, id be in trouble

Josh (10:54:32 PM): we call taht rape down here

IFyoUCKristin x9 (11:54:29 PM): lol yeahh but I'd let you...

IFyoUCKristin x9 (11:54:39 PM): I'm not that easy though just so you know

Josh (10:55:20 PM): lol

Josh (10:55:26 PM): only in hypothetical situations

IFyoUCKristin x9 (11:55:26 PM): of course lol

In other news, I reunited with an old friend named Jon, or as I was introduced to him by the infamous Donny (who I despise at the moment) Moose. He's gotten cuter since the last time I saw him, but I don't think anything will happen between us because (a) he's one of Donny's best friends and that would just be a bit weird for me and (b) I love Kyle more than anything else, and I wouldn't want to hurt him, ever. Ever.

Kyle and I are okay. We had a little fight earlier when Cindy and Anthony were around (I'll get to them in a minute), but we're okay now. We just haven't talked too much this week because I was sick again and he was working. I hope we can see each other sometime next week, really, I do. I miss him soooooo much right now, it's not funny. I want to hug and kiss him again =[ I love him more than anything. And despite what I may think, no, he's not trying to push me away; I'm just really on edge right now for some reason. I think I just need sleep haha! Sleep? What's that? =P

So today was probably my most interesting day this past week. It was my sister's birthday party (her birthday was Thursday), and my aunt and uncle came, which was cool because I hadn't seen them in like forever. Then Cindy and Anthony came and we hung out until about 11pm. OMGosh, so awesome, except that darn cop kept stalking us even when we weren't doing anything.
We went to Price Chopper and while we were there, I saw my friend Eyn. I talked with him for a bit and he wants me to call him sometime. I might, I don't know though. This was the first time in almost 3 years that we had seen each other and I don't know. It's all different now, I guess. But the same at the same time. It's weird.

But yes, this has been my life so far this past week. As I promise, I'll try to update more often =]

until next we meet...
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"...We'll speak of what a waste I am..." ~ underØATH<333

My past two weeks or so have been amazing (and very busy, which is why I haven't updated ^_^).
I figured since I just had one of the best nights of my life, I'd tell you all the happenings of Kristin E. Staples =]

So, that weekend of my last update was the weekend of Kyle's Graduation Party, and I really liked it. It was very relaxed and his family is so nice!

My hot outfit ^_^ Like?
Awwww, my sad Emo Kyle; his laptop died =[ After that there was no more techno music or JAVA help ;P...
Of course I needed to take a picture by the dead laptop too ^_^
Kyle && Kristin...Best Friends With Love♥
That's MINE! You touch him, you will feel the wrath of a midget named Kristin (or Candy Pants, as he called me =P).
But in thinking about it, his party was cool. I was the only one there for his Graduation from his friends (I think everyone else was working), but it was really nice to have him all to myself outside of school ^_^ But yeahhh...that was Sunday July 8, 2007 =] Oh, sidenote, BIG thank you to Cindy for lending me her camera for this party :) The hands picture would've sucked taken on mine...I LOVE YOUUUU!!!!!

So Cindy and I have been spending TONS of time together and it's so great! I've missed her so much since I've moved out here two years ago ^_^
After a 3 hour conversation from about 12:30am to 3am with one of my exes, I called Kyle when I woke up and as he's going on about something I dozed off. Cindy thought I looked cute hehe!
Awwww, we're so pretty!
Funeral Home doors make excellent mirrors =D Me, Cindy, and my little sister ^_^


While she was here this past weekend, we went to see The Devil and Daniel Webster, a play that a few of my friends were in and it was pretty good =]
This is Adam. Hottie? Yes, I know...sadly, so does he =P
And this is Jon. He and I met last year and we're cool together. I call him Teh Hottness for a reason ~_^

Tonight, however, was as amazing as Kyle's Party. Cindy came over with my friend who I hadn't seen in over a year named Anthony. He's awesome! I missed him alot ^_^ So tonight we finally hung out and oh my gosh! I'll never forget walking around, sitting on my school steps, pizza with my "healthy" drink of Green Tea, fizzy candies, water fights in the fountain, getting yelled at by the cops for being on the pavillion in the park, the "coffins" where we tried to take pictures of all of us, getting yelled at by the same cop again for sitting on the edge of the road, INVADER ZIM!, the stolen Father's Day cards in the back of Anthony's car, and many many more to come! CANNOT wait until next week when we do it all over again, but remember we had pizza this week so it's Chinese next week hehe!
Before they came and kick me out of the pavilion...
I have a BIG cannon don't I? ;]
For some reason, Anthony wanted me to look like the kid on the "SLOW Children At Play" sign.
Awwwww!!!! I love this picture ^_^ I asked if I could jump on his back and well...he agreed hahah!
I love us =] Even if I look retarded in this photo...
I only posted this to show you the prettyful necklace Cindy bought for me ^_^ Along with this, she bought me glow-in-the-dark stars for when my room is completed and I'm going to make myself a planetarium =] Won't that rock?!
Emo Anthony...although he seems to be smiling =P DESTROYED the emoness!!!
AWWWWW!!!! I LOVE THEM!!!!!
Anddddd....I love us!!! hehehe!
From this angle, it's supposed to look like a lake...does it? I don't know, but it's actually a puddle =P
Yay for teeter-totters :P Except....
it kicked us off =[ But we're alright, no injuries yet :P
By the end of the night, after some Invader Zim and some stolen greeting cards, we were all exhausted but happy. I love them so much! ^_^
This was the most fun I had had in what seemed like months. I think since Kyle's party. As I said, I CANNOT WAIT UNTIL NEXT WEEK when they come again =D

Aside from all this, I've got CATS coming up on August 3. Not too nervous, because I DON'T GET TO DO ANYTHING except sit on the "trash". It's insulting, but whatever. It'll all work out in the end...and I'm in too far to quit now. Kyle keeps asking if I regret auditioning but in all honesty, it's sort of like a double-sided thing here for me; on one, I'm happy I'm in it, on the other, I hate the fact that I'm a human prop. But what can I do, right?

With that, I shall depart for a wee bit. It's almost midnight here and I've got summer school in the morning (oh joy!)

until next we meet...
♥*

"...my secret is fatally goregous; I'd die for you..." ~ The Spill Canvas<333

First of all, I want you all to take a look at this. It's amazing...breath-taking, even. I want a guy to play this for me on a piano *sighs dreamily at the thought*

Anyways, my cold's almost gone :) Yay, no more stuffy noses and coughing :D:D:D:D
Cindy's coming over tonight so I'll have pictures tomorrow hopefully :P

Other than that, life is good. But I do miss Kyle, alot, like an illegal amount right now :( He's working tonight so I won't be able to call him *sniffle*

ughhh....don't know what else to write at the moment....:\

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"...seasons are changing and waves are crashing and stars are falling all for us..." ~ The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus<33

Just here to tell you all that I'm sick. I have a summer cold, as Kyle so geniusly called it.
How does one develop a cold during summer? I mean, seriously, am I that weird?!
*sigh* Kyle told me it's because of the temperature fluctuation.
I have Weak Immune System Deficiency, and ADHD.

That's all...I'll be back when I'm better :)

until next we meet...
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"...Oh it's what you do to me..." ~ Plain White T's<333

I don't really like "Hey There Delilah" by Plain White T's but it seems to be everyone's favorite song lately so it's stuck in my head *ugh!*

Anyways, my weekend was cool, I guess.
Friday, the family and I went to Cooperstown to visit the Baseball Hall of Fame. I didn't learn too much about the sport, but I did have fun taking pictures of my Stitch doll in various areas of the building (yes, I'm a dork and brought my Stitch to the Baseball Hall of Fame...my parents didn't mind). Then we went to the Farmer's Museum and I bought two lollipops, which I ended up giving away...
Oh, and I endured all this with only about 4 hours of sleep; if we remember, my parents were away the night before and I was babysitting on Rockstar, which in turn gave me a hangover :/ It was baddddd! Kyle already scolded me about so I'm a good girl now O;) sorta...hahaha!
Anyways...later that night, my family decided to go to the Drive-ins to see Fantastic Four 2, but I stayed home. I was too tired at that point. Kyle called to tell me he finally got his laptop. The thing that excited him the most was the fact that he can watch DVDs on it :P I love him, he's like a little kid on Christmas when he gets something new like that :) Adorable ♥ Well, we ended up talking until about midnight because my parents were both tired and they started fighting and taking their anger out on me; Kyle had to calm me down and stop me from crying...he's good at that though and he seems to be able to handle it better than anyone else.
The next day (Saturday) I didn't do too much. Kyle and I texted back and forth all day, which kept me happy :) He's so sweet to me; I told him if he could figure out how to reply to my message I'd give him a cookie, so he replied with "What kind of cookie?". Apparently he understands his new phone ;] He even figured out how to send me voice messages, which I saved of course; they're adorable (then again, I always think Kyle's adorable XD). We even texted while I checked out the new grocery store we just got down the road from me. It was fun~! But then later, my parents were fighting again and Kyle, yet again, had to calm me down and make me smile. I get emotional alot.
Sunday, my parents were still on edge but it was a little better. Kyle went to a Graduation party from 2pm to 6pm and when he got home he texted me. I called him and we talked for about a half hour and then I had to go, and he was so busy that I couldn't call him back :( He even said "Talk to you eventually" which made me worry that he never wanted to talk to me again...but I was just tired and when that happens I tend to over-analyze everything. If anyone here has seen Elfen Lied, I had a Nana moment; there's a scene where Nana's crying, telling herself that she's a good girl. Instead of me saying "I'm a good girl" I was saying "I'm fine, there's nothing wrong with me, I'm not the problem, he doesn't hate me". This was at midnight, by the way haha! I WAS really tired...
So today's been alright, I'd say. I woke up and there was a crow trying to peck into my ceiling (I have an attic bedroom, for those of us who didn't know) so I went downstairs and told my mom. My dad woke up and yelled at me to go scare it away. I was scared of it, but by the time I got back into my room, it was gone, and I was upset; getting yelled at first thing in the morning doesn't make me happy. Then, I woke up officially around 8:30am and texted Kyle saying that if he didn't hear from me again, he's invited to my funeral. About 10am, he wrote back saying he was going to the mall and that he'd bring me back something. I told him not to worry about it but he insisted (*shrugs* He IS a persistant one...and he knows me very well, I trust I'll love whatever he picks out for me :]). We texted until he got there and I haven't heard from him since. I'm not worried, why should I be? He's at a mall haha! I'd love to be at a mall spending money...but I'm broke :( I desperately need a job mannnn!

Oh, and I'm supposed to be at CATS rehearsal right now, but I didn't have a ride there. And in all honesty, I don't feel like going; I don't have any solos and they tend to just shove me into the back of the stage where you can't see me...it's humiliating after you tell me I had a beautifully unique audition and that I can sing and dance. But whatever. CATS has no plot anyways so it sucks big balls.
But I love acting, so I'll stick with it I think...I'll hopefully get to rehearsal tomorrow...hopefully, as I said.

Well, that was my entire weekend. I lead a semi-interesting life, don't I?
Not really, but I like to make it sound like I do :P Isn't that what blogs are for? Haha!
And with that, I shall depart until...whenever...

until next we meet...
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