& you're in my head...♥

The subject for this entry is a quote Kyle♥ said to me last night as he looked through the Right Stuf catalog for a Christmas present for me. Right Stuf is the company that put out Gravitation , my favorite Anime. And Eiri Yuki is one character =] That's why it made me giggle, but then I had to remember that Kyle♥ had never seen Gravitation , so I forgave him ;] Other than that, our trip to New Jersey was alright. I just don't like the beach that much, and I got covered in sand. It sucked like that...but whatever. Then my little brother's birthday part was fantabulous. I had so much fun on the playground at that park; I might have my Graduation party there. Anyways... Jon♥ and I are doing good. We're still together and I'm ecstatic. I was supposed to go see him yesterday but it just didn't work out for us =[ But hopefully next weekend I can see him and hug him and make him mine (as if he isn't already). Kyle♥ cares so much about me, it makes me ecst...

Ahhh, love is bliss. And if anyone else tells you differently, they're not in love like me. I've got two guys in my life, and I wouldn't change either of them for the world. I've got Kyle, my bestest guy friend who cheers me up when I'm down, flirts with me, and makes me feel all happy and fangirl. Then I've got Jon, my boyfriend who basically worships the ground I walk on, loves me unconditionally, and will never ever leave me. Most girls only have one man, I have two wonderful ones and I wouldn't want either of them any other way. Last night was a roller coaster, a good one. I started out really lonely, and Cindy went out with people so I didn't have anyone to talk to. Then Kyle called at about 8:45pm, in which we decided that he should call back after 9 so it's free for me, and he did! We talked until maybe 10:45pm, about random things, like what we were like when we were 14 and what we would've thought of each other, and what the stars ...

My past few days have been delightfully hectic, to say the least. But I wouldn't have my life, my friends, or my family any other way =] Sunday I went to Cindy's place in Amsterdam, which was cool. As soon as we got there, her mother, she, and I all went to Hannaford, but on our way there as we passed by McDonald's we saw Jon, outside lighting up his cigar next to his friend Carlos. We laughed about this the whole night, almost...until I got depressed because he never called me back. Oh, big FYI - Jon and I are dating now ...again... But this time I know it will last because now I'm being completely open and honest with him, and I know he loves me, too =] Anyways, back to Cindy's, as we were waiting for him to call me back, we watched the movie Candy (Heath Ledger w00tz!) and it depressed us. If you've never seen it, or heard of it, it's about a girl named Candy who lives with Heath Ledger and gets addicted to all the stuff he is, as well as becomes a h...

So I'm a little less confused tonight, but then again if I wasn't confused I wouldn't be Kristin, would I? Haha, sad but oh, so true! I talked to Kyle for a long time today, and we basically said that we're best friends =] I've missed him so much, that just hearing his voice made me smile earlier. Tonight was his last night of working at KFC for the summer, but that does not mean that he'll be home more; he's the kind of guy that just absolutely has to be moving and going places to survive. But, yes, he reassured me that whatever comes our way, he'll always be here for me. And, he made me go to Price Chopper and talk to the boss about my job so... I went to Price Chopper and now I'm a cashier! I start orientation in a couple of weeks, and then they'll give me some regular hours, hopefully. Hey, it's money, right? I also talked to Jon...for a couple minutes. He's still at his friend's place, so we haven't talked all that muc...

So I might actually be completely unhinged in this entry because I'm really confused right now. Jon and I are sorta together, but not officially. I just can't be in a relationship right now, since I still love Kyle...who's always working now, it seems. And when he's not, he's shopping and spending money only to come home and complain to me about it (hey, at least he's talking to me, right?). Anyways, the more I talk to Jon, the more I fall for him, and it scares me to death. The only other guy I've loved like this is Kyle, and I'm still falling for him too. It's not fair to either of them to have to deal with this, I know, but it's what's going on in my heart. Jon's the sweetest guy I've ever met. Kyle owns my heart and knows all my secrets. Both have their reasons for liking me as they do, but only Jon says he loves me back; Kyle's still a little confused, I think. I just don't know what to do here...somebody help me wit...

So...yet again, an overdue update. With CATS finally over, I think it's safe to say my life is a bit more relaxed. Josh and I had a fall-out and haven't talked in three days. He used me over the internet until he could get a girlfriend, which was stupid of him because he's moving on the 16th anyways and she's not going with him. But whatever. That other guy I told you about, the one who's Donny's best friend, Jon, and I are getting close and it makes me happy =] Speaking of getting close, Kyle and I are talking again =D He called me last Sunday when I wasn't home, and I called him back. He's my best friend and I love him more than I ever have now. He's amazing, words can't describe what I feel for him...*sigh* But I miss him right now because he's at work =[ Only a couple weeks left for him, and then he gets to go to college, like the smart person he is hahaha! CATS was amazing. Not exactly as amazing-feeling as E-RI-E was for me, b...