"...they say that good things take time but really great things happen in the blink of an eye..." ~ Hannah Montana<33

It's day two of three without Richard♥ at home, which I know we hardly see each other to begin with, but now it's difficult to get a hold of him not knowing what exactly he's doing when. He called me last night, which was nice. I miss him more than my words can express =[ Hopefully he'll call me later and I'll be happy again XD
I finally found a song that I think I may just have to completely dedicate to him [I should, seeing as how I already texted him the lyrics to it earlier =P]. It's "One in a Million" by Miley Cyrus aka Hannah Montana. It's the sweetest little love song I've ever heard XD Also, it's the first one in forever that's actually made me smile =] A lot.

So, other than the missing Richard an illegal amount, I filled out an application for Herkimer County Community College. The guidance counselor told me they'd accept me in about two weeks, so I'm excited, even if it's only like 20 minutes away from home =P I'm planning on living on campus; that way I can get from class to class easier.
During Psychology, we talked about stereotypes, and everyone called me an Emo kid =P I still am, even if Richard♥ keeps telling me that he took the Emo out of me XD Once an Emo, always an Emo ;]

Honestly, that was my day in a nutshell. Not much more I can dissect from it I don't think.

Did I mention that I miss Richard♥?
I wonder if he misses me this much too...*shrugs*


I might do some singing now...XD

until next we meet...
♥*

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"...for the first time now I came alive somehow..." ~ Skillet<333

It's Day one of three without Richard♥. He's on a band trip thing in Rochester, NY, until Sunday night, when I will hopefully get to Amsterdam to see him =D I miss him like crazy and I'm pretty sure he misses me just as much. It was cute, he texted me when he got there and maybe about 10 minutes before I was saying, "Oh, I hope he got there alright". It's telepathy, I'm positive =]

Other than missing my love, I've just been getting angry a lot over little things, really. It annoys me that I'm so short-fused at times, but it's just me. I don't mean to act out on it; I just hate hearing people yelling, but c'est la vie. I'm used to the screaming, yelling, and such...fun stuff, right?

Anyways, I had a conference with the one guidance counselor and my mother today, because apparently I'm failing and I'm ranked 76 out of 80. Ugh, whatever. I still have a semester left of school, so I can pull off Graduation if I get my butt in gear, in which I plan on it. The counselor and I are going to fill out college applications tomorrow during my study halls; he has one in mind that's in Vermont [not cool; that's where Kyle's from].
Then during Gym, a girl who I will just "affectionately" call Princess B!tch told me I couldn't play volleyball on her team, which was the only team with an open spot on it, so I ended up sitting out of Gym. That's not a good thing, seeing as how here at wonderful FPHS Gym is mandatory, so if I fail that, I can't Graduate. Ugh, whatever, again.

Other than all that fun stuff, Cindy's probably coming over on Saturday and she's going to finish watching Elfen Lied. Then, on Sunday, my heart will be all happy and melted again when I see my Richard♥ hopefully. I hope it doesn't snowstorm so that my father goes to work and I can ride out with him...*prays really hard*

And with that...I shall leave you...

Richard♥, you're the only one that manages to get me to smile. I hope--No, I know you'll never leave me, and I'll never leave you. Face it, you're stuck with me, honey ;D I love you with every fiber of my being, and so much more.

[he's been running through my dreams
& it's driving me crazy it seems
I'm gonna ask him to marry me]

until next we meet...
♥*
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And she can sing?! Wow!

Thought you'd enjoy hearing me sing...or not....

♥*

"It's all in how you mix the two..." ~ The Used<333

Ugh, today was...well...a day *shrugs* Aside from the fact that I was exhausted, I miss Richard♥ and spent most of the day in deep thought over a lot of things that I probably over-analyzed too much. This, in turn, raised my heart-rate at least 1000%, which is quite scary.
I know I have to distance myself from Kyle a little bit, because it's going to affect my relationship with Richard♥, but I talked to Kyle's friend Kevin's little brother who's in my grade, and he says that Kevin told Kyle to stop calling and he doesn't want to talk to him. This means that I am now his only true friend who hasn't betrayed him, at least I don't think I have. I've always been there for him, as he as for me too, but I know when it's too close for comfort. And lately, he's been my vacuum attachment and I really don't like it. I love Kyle, he's my best guy friend and has been my savior for the past 2 and a half years. But during those years, I waited and waited and waited to get him as my boyfriend and he just didn't want to be. He likes all the benefits of me trying to get him to date me, but hates commitment. So now I've moved on; actually, I did back in the summer, to be honest. I've found someone who honestly loves me for me, not for what I'd do with him or my body. Kyle's very threatened by Richard♥. I just hope he knows he's not going to lose me, just the benefits and stuff like that.
This has affected me all day, but it's my own fault if I think about it. Honestly, I didn't mean for it to get like this with Kyle. I thought that eventually he'd just give up on his stubbornness and date me. But when that didn't happen, I gave up, and he knew that. Then he started to act a bit interested, so I'd dump whoever I was with and continue to be with Kyle as his best friend with benefits. This continued until I started my relationship with Richard♥, because I love him with everything in me. He's my soul-mate, my lover, the other half of me that makes me complete. Kyle just needs to realize that he's not losing my friendship, just the make-out sessions and such.
I now feel a bit used. And quite rightfully so, I'd say. But whatever.

My day was basically all kinda eh because of that. I do have some pictures, though, because taking pictures makes me a little happier:

^ My friend, Aimee, decided she was going to get in my picture here after Gym today =P

^ Oh no! She wants to steal my brain :o No idea why, since there's nothing in there except happy thoughts of being with Richard♥ =]

^ "We can live like Jack and Sally if we want" [sadly, this isn't my sweater =( Wish it was...I LOVE Jack and Sally XD]

^ Dr. Evil wears a purple Jack Skellington scarf =P

So, in conclusion, if my love Richard♥ happens to read this, I want him to know that I love him so very much and we're going to get through this, no matter what it takes.

until next we meet...
♥*

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"...leaning now into the breeze, remembering Sunday, he falls to his knees..." ~ All Time Low<333

Well, who would've thought that only after about 5 days, Richard♥ and I would be as close as we are =] I mean, we have the same thoughts, we finish each other's sentences, we talk alike; it's like we're the same person. Then again, isn't that how it's supposed to be with your soul-mate? Yes, I consider him to be my soul-mate, and he considers me his =D
We hung out all afternoon yesterday in Amsterdam =] So of course we got pictures [actually Cindy got pictures; you'll get it once you see them]:

^ Why, yes, he is adorable =] [and he didn't want his picture taken =P]

^ Look...what's that? Is Kristin actually...smiling?! Oh my goodness, she can smile =D

^ I think this has to be one of my favorite pictures of us =] I love having him hold my hand♥

^ Just like in the movies...I know that's what you're thinking =]

^ Our heart is better than the Kristin/Jeremie heart; fersure =D

I'm ecstatic right now...well, for the most part. The one person that's taking this harder than anyone is Kyle, and I mean he has no reason to worry. He won't lose me, I'll always be his friend. But it's like he's trying to control me, and I don't like it at all. I love the guy to death; I mean, he's been there for me through some of the toughest things I've gone through in the past two almost three years, but he's acting really weird now that Richard♥ and I are together and as close as we are. But don't worry, I know that we'll all get through this =]

Well, I think that's that for now. I miss my Richard♥, and I hope he knows no matter how far apart we are, we're always looking at the same stars in the same sky =D
I love you so very much<3


until next we meet...
♥*
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"...I'd throw you down in the backseat as if you committed a terrible crime..." ~ Brand New<33

First off, HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYBODY! Or as I was calling it earlier, Happy Fatty McFatty Day XD Hope everyone has a super uber day today =]

So as if we couldn't tell yesterday I was a bit down and out about the whole boyfriend situation. But now I have an announcement: I AM OFFICIALLY TAKEN! His name is Richard♥ and I've liked him since I met him when I was in 7th grade and he was in 6th. He has since had other girlfriends, but always seemed to like me too, so last night we decided to try out the long distance thing and maybe-just maybe-I can get out to Amsterdam and see him soon =D
Yes, this makes me ecstatic XD
Not only do I have a boyfriend, but Adam has agreed to go to my Senior Prom with me =D Now it's all color coordination and everything now *screams* But we've got until May so I think we're good =]

Other than this, I've got to call Kyle♥ later and we're going to "trip out on tryptophan" together =P We're cool like that XD
Oh, and if anyone can help me with a cool LiveJournal layout, it's much appreciated =] My LiveJournal is here.

I think I will just leave you with my most recent Photoshop project I did of a photo of John:

^-^ Lyrics are "From Yesterday" by 30 Seconds To Mars, his MySpace song.

until next we meet...
♥*

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"...but please and listen cuz I'm breaking my heart tonight so you can see what's inside..." ~ The Rocket Summer<333

Why, yes, I've found a new amazing energy drink =P It's called Fuze, made by the Coca-Cola company, and it costs the same as Vitamin Water so I figured I'd try it, and wouldn't you know? I liked it (^_^) I'm an energy drink fanatic, in case you didn't know.

Anyways, that new guy I was slightly interested in, John, decided he was going to freak out over everything and we now don't talk much. I think the most we'll say to each other is "hey, how are you?" He thought I fell for him too quickly, which in actuality I didn't love him; I was only crushing. But whatever, his loss.
Jeremie started talking to me again, but we haven't said two words to each other in almost a week so whatever.
I decided that the only guy worth my love is Kyle and I think it's going to stay that way for a long time. He's the only one that's been there for me through everything and, yes, he's pushed me away, but then he's realized that he actually needs me in his life and now he's my best friend that I miss more and more each day. We've been Emailing back and forth, on and off, since Saturday, but it's not the same as being with each other, you know? He sent me a picture of himself that he took Saturday and I went completely fan-girl; it's now my desktop wallpaper XD

Other than all this, I'm out of school until next Monday, thanks to Thanksgiving =] I borrowed the book, Twilight, from my school's library in hopes of figuring out what all the hype about it is. I mean, I've looked at pictures of Edward Cullen and yes, he's attractive but so is Reese from Malcolm in the Middle and I was one of the few who went all fan-groupie over him.

But yes, this is being x-posted here and into my LiveJournal, because I realized that I missed the people over there =]

until next we meet...
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"Dearest love, I hope this message finds you..." ~ Alesana<333

Figured since I haven't updated at all in November, I'd let you all get into the life of Kristin. It's been an interesting ride, let me tell you.

So on October 26, Jeremie and I officially met and I thought it went rather well. He seemed like a sweet guy who liked me, but looks can be deceiving.

^ Yes, that's him and his cell phone =P Doesn't he look cute?

^ We were cute...oh, it gets worse...=[

^ Our heart that took 10 minutes to figure out how to make...he's a bit slow sometimes...more...

^ Cute again...and to make everything better, right now "Hide and Seek" by Imogen Heap just came on =[....ughh, and finally...

^ The picture that gets me most of all...='[...

In case you didn't get it, after he met me, he left me, took me back, and traded me in on Friday for someone else. Someone, who while we were hanging out, he told me was a creep and that he'd never do anything with, but whatever. I was heartbroken, but I'm over it now.
I, too, found someone better XD His name is John and he's an Anime fanatic like Kyle♥, and he's adorable [I plan on doing a Photoshop picture of him and I'll put it in here]. We're just getting to know each other at the moment, and he says he doesn't want a relationship but I think once he meets me he'll like me. He liked talking on the phone with me, which I've heard is extraordinary because he hates the phone. He's adorable, and he knows XD

Kyle♥ and I are doing alright. We're just friends, officially, although I love him more than life itself. He came to the school last Tuesday and I was at a funeral so I didn't get to see him, which made me mad until he called me later that night and explained everything; he basically only went to see a couple of the teachers and maybe me. I just miss him more than I could ever explain. I miss his voice not on the phone, I miss his hugs that he hates giving, I miss the playful fighting we used to do, I miss clutching onto his arm in the lobby of the school. I MISS MY STITCH!!!! He's all I write about when I can free-write in English, he's in my dreams, I sleep with a Stitch that I treat as if it's him. I miss him more than words can describe. And he knows, and he misses me too...I can't wait until the holidays because we'll exchange gifts and such and we'll be with one another again XD *does a happy dance*

But other than that, I was in a talent competition last Friday, and even though I didn't win anything I still had fun doing it =] I can't wait to perform again soon XD I love singing and owning the stage; it's amazing <3

Well, I don't know when I'll be back again, but I hope you all enjoy reading my life and I promise I'll be soon =]

until next we meet...
♥*

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