& you're in my head...♥

It finally happened. Yes, I, Kristin E. Staples, have accepted defeat with that boyyy. Seriously, after 8 years you'd think he would want to try dating me, not be scared to hurt me. He honestly doesn't realize that keeping me hanging like this has hurt me, and unless he reads this he won't know. Whatever, though. Apparently he's not the one, and if he is it's going to be MUCH longer before we're together. I get that he's been hurt in past relationships before, I really do...because so have I! Seriously, if I could remember how many guys told me that we were going to get married, be together forever, they'd never leave my side, that they can't imagine their lives without me, blah blah blah...well, let's just say I could write an excellent chick flick or novel. *sigh* I really really reallyyyy like this one though; giving up on him is probably one of the hardest things I've had to do in forever :/ To be completely honest, I'm only giving up...

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I figured I'd update this now since I'm expecting a phone call at 9 from NPM (kinda like NPH but his last name isn't "Harris". Get it?!) as I will call him in here :) NPM is one of my exes but we're still friends; he's #17. Like, he and I met, he didn't get along with Anthony, Cindy, and Amber, so we decided we weren't good together. Tonight, while texting, he said he regrets dumping me. Le sigh... I'm still determined to get that boyyy though. I've worked too hard and suffered too long at this to just walk about from what could possibly be the greatest romance of my entire life. Seriously, 8 years, people. And it's like he understands what I'm feeling and what I'm going through but will NOT give a straight answer as to whether he wants me or not. I know he wants me in bed, he's made that perfectly clear, but I want something a little more than that. Speaking of "romance", I have a friend (and yes she's a diffe...

I can't believe at first I hated Lady Gaga! She's a genius! "Monster" is my second favorite of her songs, first being "Paparazzi". Like, I get it that she's "mainstream" and "popular" but so what?! Not everything I like has to be independent and unknown....just most of it ;] So my BIIIIIIGGGGG news...kinda...okay, it'll confuse you as much as it confuses me.... That Boyyy and I had a really long AIM conversation Friday night into late Saturday morning about EVERYTHING; the fact that we've both liked each other forever, that we're both attracted to one another, and everything in between. The weird part? WE AREN'T DATING YET! I mean, seriously, after that long of a conversation and all the feelings being shared you'd think we would start something, but nope. He isn't ready. *sigh* What's a girl to do? I've waited for him to say he likes me for 8 years now (yes, I keep track of everything)...I'm lost a...

Ahhh, the song "Oil and Water" by Incubus. It fits so many situations in life. For starters, FM denied my Academic Probation so unless I can pay for my classes myself I cannot go. This sucks...a lot. Oh, and even before that, my family and I gave my cat Claire away to a new family :/ I miss her...she's so pretty....:( [First picture was went she was just a little over 2 months old and the other is from November.] But on a happier note... Yesterday I was at Stewart's with my sister and I started thinking about the Hopeless Romantic Hobo I met about a year ago with Cindy, and I wonder what ever became of him? Is he still hopelessly romantic? Did he get the girl of his dreams that he was traveling across country for? Did he even get to his destination?! So many unanswered questions...that will never get answered because I just know the guy's first name :/ I don't think I can Google "Hopeless Romantic Hobo" and get his information :P Maybe I should be a ...

I don't have much to blog about tonight considering I'm really tired and just want to be cuddled or hugged or something :/ Instead I'll give you guys a song to listen to: Good song, good song :) Alright, maybe I'll come back tomorrow with something of interest to talk about. until next we meet... ♥*

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This is so ridiculous! I was trying to text a certain someone who will remain nameless because once this entry is done we will ALL know who it is, and they were ignoring me. Okay, that's cool; maybe they're legitimately busy. Checked my AIM and they're online, so I drop an IM. Oh, no, they're not legitimately busy; they're gaming so they can't even text me back a one word "okay" or "ttyl"?! Seriously. And I already know what will happen next. They'll text me while I'm asleep and/or call me. Again, WHILE I'M SLEEPING. How, pray tell, am I supposed to be a part of this friendship if we never get to talk? Communication is key in any relationship, romantic or non. And no I won't play the game just to talk to you. For several reasons, one being it's not free. Two being I don't have the attention span for it. So honestly I'm slightly detaching myself from said person and seeing how well this goes :/ It's not somethin...

Blah. I hate having a cold :/ It just seems to make everything that's unbearable even more unbearable. Like today, for instance, I had to go up to FMCC for what I thought was a scheduling appointment, but NOOOOO! Instead it was a pointless "Let's Just CHECK If You're Academic Probation Is Finalized" appointment that could've been taken care of over the phone. Of course it's not finalized, and of course I need to get the documents re-faxed in by tomorrow :( Oh, and then when the adviser asked me why I failed the last semester I was at FM and I answered with the honest answer of "I just didn't go to my classes" she replies, "Oh, the committee is going to frown upon that...but you'll still get in, don't worry". Um, really? WHY would you even bring up that they will frown upon it if there's not a chance of my application being accepted? Seriously, these people make no sense to me :/ If their semester hadn't already st...

Seriosly I'm updating via Wii. That's how desperate to update I am :P So today I thought for a long time and came to the conclusion that I don't need a boyfriend I get along with and who accepts me. He also has to be able to put up with my quirkiness. Like, for example, I do quite enjoy dancing around my kitchen with my headphones blasting. If he can put up with that and/or possibly join in, that would be true love right there! Honestly, I need someone who FULLY accepts me and that loves me for everything I am :] Anddd...now I leave to go play Super Mario Bros. 3 with my brother XD until next we meet... ♥

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You know what? I’m done being single. I’m not good at it. Look, obviously you can’t tell a woman you just met that you love her. I’ll tell you something though. Say if a woman -- not you -- just some hypothetical woman, were to bear with me through all this, I think I’d make a damn good husband, cause that’s the stuff I’d be good at, stuff like making her laugh, being a good father, and walking her 5 hypothetical dogs and being a good kisser… Ted Mosby [ How I Met Your Mother ; Season 1, Episode 1] I bet you're wondering why I began this post off with that huge quote from Ted Mosby. Well, I just rewatched that episode of How I Met Your Mother, and it made me realize I am the female embodiment of Ted Mosby. I have been known to drop the "L-bomb" within hours or a mere couple days of meeting a guy, and, to be honest, if you take the statement above and make it into the female version, I think you'll notice it fits me, Kristin (except for the 5 dogs...make it 5 cats! XD...

I just wish I felt more together...and that you would love me back :/

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This is the only song I've been listening to all day: "Suits The Musical" from last night's How I Met Your Mother episode. Seriously, it made me so happy, and the fact that I absolutely love Neil Patrick Harris just makes it all better Cora and I might record me singing it at some point, but I have to do it up right. Really, I want it to be as legendary as the original; I'll need to dress up and dance with a huge crowd and everything :) Ohhh I'm excited already!!! Who's in this with me?! Anyways... I've become addicted to Formspring.me. I really think it's super fun and would LOVE it if people would ask me more questions. The box to do so is in the right-hand sidebar of this site *points -->* I'll answer anything, which you'll notice if you look at my profile on there :P So last night, Andrew and I had a small fight about the fact that he never really talks to me anymore, which is true because he's always playing WoW. I mean, we talk...

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I broke down and joined Formspring, which may or may not be fail on my part. Honestly I don't think anyone will ask me anything but it's worth a shot. Ask me anything; in case you didn't notice, I'm an open book :) http://www.formspring.me/KristaVolpeDoll ^^ Join meh, foo'z! until next we meet...

I should be sleeping right now because, in the words of Ted Moseby, "Nothing good happens after 2am; when 2am hits, you just go to bed", but I'm talking to that boyyy on AIM and am just not sleepy. Okay, maybe I am...a little....:P My current Facebook stati says the following: I've always been told that once you hit the bottom you have to climb your way back up to the top. Well, my friends (and not-so-much my friends), that is exactly what I will be doing. Forget you who broke my heart & made me cry! Forget you who once loved me & so quickly gave me away! Forget you who backstabbed me! I'm moving on. And that is exactly what I'm going to do! Earlier I had tried asking Andrew back out, but he claims to be "content being single" so maybe I should honestly try that as well. I don't need a man to complete me, and I sure don't need anymore heartache and tears from failed relationships. I know who I'd like, but right now I'm conc...

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I have set up Email posting for my blog. Why, you may ask? Well, I can Email from my phone so now I'll be able to update even more than before. Comments and feedback are always de-lovely :) until next we meet... ♥*

In this post I may go into a pity party, but just bear with me, okay? Seriously, I've had more heartache in the past month than I think I've ever endured before, which is saying a lot if you haven't read the Kyle saga of 2007 in my Blog Archive. Right now, I'm torn between two guys; one I've dated before and one who I've always wanted to date but for some reason we never did. Guy #1 is one of my closest friends, we know practically everything about each other, we have fun together, and I know there are feelings there, but we have dated before so this makes things complicated. Guy #2 is always the one to pick me up when I fall, to be there understanding my side of the breakup stories after my breakups, and who can always get me to talk about any situation. I think Guy #2's issue is he's not completely over his exgirlfriend, which is a big one but I'd still like a shot. Both guys are attractive and talented in their own ways, and I love them both. I ha...

Casey may have dumped me and made me cry, but we've talked it all over and we're still going to be close friends. Or at least we will try to, and I hope so because he's still a fun guy to be around (even though I was only around him twice :P). He also claims he didn't use me so I'm going to believe him. That is all. Carry on with your lives as I will do mine. until next we meet... ♥*

Smash Mouth had a song titled "Stoned" off their Astro Lounge album back in 2000-ish that I recently reunited with...and it feels so good :) Anyways, today had its ups and downs. Ups? Casey and I hung out for a few, and in those moments I was the happiest I'd ever been in a while. Downs? He drove him, ate dinner, then dumped me via text message, saying we "moved too fast into everything" and that we should just be friends. This shocked me so much, I started to get sick. HE was the one who said "We will be together forever, my wife, my soul mate", the list goes on...this was so sudden for me. I felt, and still do feel, so used :( Never again will I fall for the blue eyed adorable guys. I did, however, get Andrew back as my friend :D I'm so happy! He's honestly one of the greatest guy friends I've ever had; he actually understands me and wants to help me with whatever issues I'm dealing with in life, as I do the same for him :) I love you...

Grrrr! Some torrents take FOREVER to download :( I found one with a bunch of songs from the earlier 2000's (aka the GOOD MUSIC YEARS!!!) and I swear I've been waiting almost a half hour for it to finish. Ah well, it led me here in my wait :P Andrew and I are no longer speaking. He claims to be in love with me, which I'm finding hard to believe since he dumped me and now thinks he loves me? Whatever. He doesn't know what love is, and if he seriously thought I was going to leave Casey to go back to him, he's sorely mistaken. Speaking of Casey, everything is amazing with him :) He makes me the happiest woman ever, and I honestly don't know what I'd do without him. Earlier tonight we were talking on AIM and he sent me this: "You are my Wife, My Soul Mate, My Heart, and my Bestest friend, I love you Kristin Elizabeth Staples" Now I know what you're thinking because I've heard it all before; "It's way too soon for you two to even think ...

Happy 2010 everyone! Hope everyone else had a splendid New Year's Eve/Day...considering the fact that I had to flippin' WORK both days D: My job owns my soul sometimes. Anyways, it's been a little over a week since my last entry and oh boy is there drama to report! Casey and I are happily together; we went to see Avatar with Tawny, Cora, and Trevor last Sunday and it became official. Now, I've said this before but this time I REALLY MEAN IT, he is my male counterpart; we have very similar sense of humor and almost everything in common :) I love him more than I've ever loved anyone else (even Kyle, which is saying something right there :x). Since Casey and I got together Andrew decided he wanted me back. Unfortunately, he's a little too late and realized this so now he and I aren't talking...even though he calls me in the middle of the night, texts me constantly, and repeatedly tells me not to talk to him. Whatever, he had me and left me for World of Warcraft...