& you're in my head...♥

Ack, it's about 1 in the morning here in wonderful Fort Plain, New York, and I'm a bit tired but can't sleep yet. I think it's all the caffiene I've drinken today :P Kyle warned me about it but did I listen? Nooooo, of course not haha! Anyways, not too much has gone on since Rocky's party. Kyle started his summer job on Tuesday and he's already worn-out. Rocky's gone for the summer; right now he's in Pennsylvania, next stop is Word Of Life Bible camp, then Freedonia State for music until September almost. Unlike Kyle, Rocky doesn't get worn-out. As for myself, I've got a full summer of Summer School in the morning until noon then CATS rehearsals from 2pm to about 5:30-6pm, and they're almost all dancing. I swear, if I don't get any lines within the next week, I will quit. This is getting to be way too much for me, especially since I hate dancing; brings me back to when I did the Pops Concert this past spring and we did High School Mus...

Yesterday I went to a party at Rocky's house. Well, it was a pool party and he didn't tell me until I got there, so I didn't actually have anything to swim in, which was fine; I don't normally swim anyways. But once everyone got there and they all started swimming, I said, "SCREW IT!" and I went in, fully clothed :P Oh, it was funnnn!!!! I love Rocky; he's my hXc Punk Rock Princess ;] I got some pictures from the party: So this one girl had never seen the short movie Charlie the Unicorn (if you haven't go search it on YouTube). Anyways, here's her reactions: Yeahh, I don't think she minded watching it :P I personally don't like that video; it's too stoner for me. Then they started swimming: ^_^ Rocky without a shirt on ;] I saw this alllll afternoon hehe! ^_^ Oh, he's pretty :) His hair is getting longer which makes me smile ALOT :) Once we got out of the pool: ^_^ The hXc Punk Rock Princess ♥ s The Emo Kid ;] ^_^ The Emo Kid wi...

Ughh, so I wasn't entirely comfortable with the whole Clayton situation, because I felt I betrayed Kyle a bit. I know he and I aren't dating, but I care more for him than anyone else at this point and it's like...I just feel so dirty now :( I talked to Kyle about everything tonight and he says he's going after Clayton now, because "no guy is allowed to touch you like that, except for me...unless you gave him permission, which I don't think you would" and also for the fact that Clayton says Kyle couldn't take him. Haha, Kyle's trained in the Martial Arts, which is more than I can say for Clayton. Don't get me wrong, Clayton's a great guy. He's funny and keeps me amused when I'm bored and Kyle's not around, but I love Kyle. There's nothing I wouldn't do for him...I think we all get that by now. Oh, it did make me laugh when I told him Clayton wanted me to call my boyfriend, and Kyle said, "Why would he want you to cal...

This is a long overdue entry, I know. My apologies, I've been slightly busy. If I wasn't returning things to school, I was at CATS rehearsals. If I wasn't there, I was on the phone with Kyle, who calls me now :) Anyways, Wednesday was a big day for Kyle and I. It was the day we truly realized that we were just friends above everything else. He basically got off by rubbing himself on my leg, which he says is the closest he's ever been to getting "any", and he asked me if we couldn't do that anymore. I agreed; it killed me, but I did. Then I realized, he's my best friend, that's all I really want from him. I mean, I'll miss the kisses and the messing around, but I can still hug him, right? Yesterday night Cindy stayed over and he called like 3 times, each time she told me my face lit up. It's love, I tell ya. This is for those who might not believe that I love that man. He's my heart, my soul, my brain, my everything :) And, above all, he...

Wow, I forgot how much I loved Straylight Run :) They make me happy :) Well, yesterday was a surreal experience for me. I had a horrible migraine and a really high fever, and all I wanted to do was make it go away. I tried sleeping, and it worked for about 3 hours, then I called Kyle. Heh, I swear, if this video game designer dream of his doesn't work out, he'd make a great doctor (unless that's just for me, because he cares so much :P). But anyways, he told me to try hot packs on my head and neck...and lo-and-behold, it worked! Although I still felt crappy when I woke up, it wasn't as bad as it would've been. Even now I'm still a bit shaky, but I'll live. Not like last night, where my head was splitting and I couldn't escape it. Again, more reasons I love Kyle :) Other than that, I had my first read-through of CATS yesterday afternoon, and it was torture. Not just because of the migraine and fever, but because Chris was there and IGNORED me. ...

I know it seems like all Kyle and I talk about is sex and what we'd like to do to each other and all we seem to do is make out and flirt, but that's not all we do and say to each other. He's my best friend, above all that. Like tonight, he called me to tell me that he's almost got a job and then proceeded to ask me how I was. Well, at that point I was gone; it was either Vodka or sex for me to cheer up, so he sat with me for over an hour telling me that he cares about me and tried to help me with what was going wrong. In all honesty, this is what it was like for us all last summer. I'd call him and he'd help me feel better, by either telling me he cares or by sitting me down and explaining to me how to fix it. He's an intelligent man, which is one of the reasons why I love him so much :) And this summer will be a bit different than last summer, because we're closer and more open with each other. Last summer, to get me to talk at all, he had to ask ...

So yesterday was it for Kyle and I :( In school at least. During July, I'll hopefully get to see him while he's at Driver's Ed, but that might be tricky with the CATS rehearsal schedule as messed up as it is...so *growls* I had two Regents exams yesterday: English and Math A. I think I did okay on the English, but probably not the Math :( Whatever though. Afterwards, Kyle had to finish his painting he's been working on, so we didn't get to hang out until about 3:15 pm, which was fine. He bought me another Vault, and then made me listen to Queen (hahaha, Fat Bottom Girls :P). We realized that people weren't going to leave us alone so we went to our breezeway, where we decided to make out and stuff. Well, as he has my shirt half-way up me, the one gym teacher walks in. Luckily for me, Kyle has great reflexes and he pulled my shirt down over me and snapped my bra onto my breast. That hurt a bit. But then after the guy walked by, Kyle looked upset so I a...

Ok, so I ran out of room for my subject, but that one song makes me feel so empowered, you wouldn't believe it. "ATTACK" by 30 Seconds To Mars Anyways, Monday was the last day of classes, and I thought it was the last day I'd be with Kyle but we're going to see each other on Thursday :) I cannot wait! I love him more than he'll ever know. And because of that, it hurts me to know that his ex feels the same. Yes, his only other exgirlfriend contacted me via Facebook and AIM and we talked about him. It seems like she's over him and happy with her fiance, but I don't know. I know he's over her, and that he only loves me but I don't know. I'm very...nervous, I think, when it comes to these things. Oh, and to make EVERYTHING SO MUCH BETTER , they're all going to the same college in the fall. Kyle's not too worried, but she wants to be friends with him again and from what he said last night that's not happening. He says tha...

Monday's the last day for Kyle and I to be together in school :( I'm so happy that he's graduating but I'm sad that I won't see him in the hallways anymore...or be able to sit afterschool and hang out with him. And, I know he'll miss me too...He's definitely my best friend. And I love him with every fiber of my being. So today I bought my yearbook and everyone wanted to sign it, especially Kyle: ^_^ This makes me smile, especially the microscopic handwriting (and the fact that he censored the word "p***ed" :P). So, we hung out today, but it was so hot he got like really tired. For some reason, it got incredibly humid all the sudden and it sucked. And when he gets tired, he get all moody and cranky, but I still hugged and cuddled him, which I think might've annoyed him. At one point, I stood up on the windowsill and made him come over to me, then held him, saying that this was the only time I'd ever be taller than him. He laughed. I told h...

Two days left with my Kyle . Today was a good day for us, especially in the end :) We had our yearly Yearbook assembly, and this year's was especially emotional for me because come to find out Kyle drew the cover of it. It's awesome; words cannot describe it. He's an amazing artist above everything else. Then, they showed the Senior Slideshow and he had a photo like every other picture. And he was smiling. By the end, I was crying copiously; I will miss him, no doubt about it. Next, everytime he saw me in the hallways, he waved to me. Then again, I felt like crap so I had my hood on and I was noticeable, but I was ecstatic that he was finally taking notice. Then afterschool came and we looked through the Yearbook together. I signed his, and hopefully I can buy one tomorrow because he wants to sign mine. As I was signing it, he asked me if I had had Vault today, and I told him yes. He then asked how many I had had, and I said one, so he's like "only one?" and h...

Today marks three days left with Kyle . But he was such a sweetie today, he totally made it worthwhile :) I love him, and he loves me :D My day actually started at around 12:15 in the morning when I got a call on my cell phone, which rarely happens at all. It said Clayton's number so I answered it: *me: Hello? Voice 1: Hello, this is a public service. *me: ok... Voice 1: Would you like to buy a refrigderator? *me: no... Voice 1: Oh, ok, in the event that you would like to buy one, call this number and refer to me. T.O.M or you could talk to my associate, C.L.A.Y. He wants you, you know. He talks about you all the time...Here, Clay, why don't you tell her how you really feel about her? Clayton: Dude, hang up the phone now! -disconnected- So I shook my head, reconnected my phone to its charger, and fell back to sleep...until 1am when Clayton called me back: *me: Hello? Clayton: Kristin? *me: Yeah... Clayton: Hey, sorry about that call earlier. My friend got ahol...

You know, I'm pretty gangster myself ;D This was me in first period today. I was freezing, so I wore my friend's oversized hoodie until lunch when she asked for it back *pouty face* Oh, well...I'll bring my own tomorrow. Speaking of tomorrow, Kyle and I MUST talk tomorrow, because we haven't talked in person yet this week and it's our final week together :( I cannot believe he's graduating...tonight was the Senior Awards Ceremony, but I was at Allyson's so I didn't go. I called Kyle's house and his mom told me he wasn't home so I'll assume that's where he was, and wouldn't loved to see him accept any awards they gave him. I'll have to talk to him about it tomorrow :) Allyson's house was fun as usual. We watched a new Anime she found called Black Cat ; I'm in love with Tren♥. He reminds me of Kyle (then again, most of the Anime characters I like remind me of him...hmmmm...haha). Then we watched Strange Brew , and f...

Four days left with Stitch (and yes, he actually responds when I call him Stitch ). Actually, it might not be too bad after he leaves, considering the fact that he actually calls me now :) Yes, he picks up his phone and CALLS me when I tell him to :D:D:D Makes me ecstatic! ^-^ My absolute FAVORITE picture of us...well, him; I kinda got chopped out here :P I want to print it out on picture paper, frame it, and give it to him when he graduates, so he'll never forget me...although at this point it would be impossible for him because he loves me :) Ahhh, I just love saying that, because I now know it's completely true! ♥♥♥ Hehehe! Oh so I told you all about that younger guy I was with and that I want back...I have a picture of him... ^_^ He's in costume and stage makeup...but you get my drift... I miss him ...:( Alot.....:( Well, for now I don't know what else to say here...we all seem to be utilizing my Cbox rather nicely :P until next we meet... ♥*

Five days left until that final day with Kyle :( I don't know how I'll survive without him here, but as he said, we still have the phone. And maybe once he's at college, he'll get an Email address and we can talk there too. In case you didn't know, Kyle is my best friend. Speaking of which, we had a breakthrough on Friday night. I called him to tell him that the guy I was with dumped me (long story), but he wasn't home so I left a message. He actually called me back at about 9:15pm and we talked until 11:30pm, in which alot went on. First, we were how we normally are; he's the and I'm the flirt. Then he got a bit...well...ahem, I think you can figure it out and after he "relieved" himself, he said that he has a love for me and has for a long time. It's not like a sister or a significant other, but he does love me; "why else would I wait for you after school even when you're not there?". I love that man with an everloving pass...