.::.It takes me all the way; I want you to stay.::.

Well dang, almost a decade later and I'm back in the blog that pretty much started it all! (Okay, that's stretching it, considering I started on LiveJournal as ever good emo kid does, but this blog had the most clout at one point)
WordPress was great, don't get me wrong, but this one always felt like home to me. Also, I'm using the Android app to update so I'm aware the links and such are not working; I will fix them at some point.

Until then, let's get started!

In the past 6-8 years, there have been many boyfriends, apartments, and so much drama I don't even know where to begin. I think we should just stick to the last couple years. It'll just be easier that way.
In 2014, I moved from NY to Tennessee with a guy who basically promised to marry me if I moved south with him. Obviously that didn't pan out because I'm back in NY. Have been since 2015. 2016, I moved back to my hometown of Amsterdam, NY, where I had a really nice apartment with Cindy and her now husband. Everything was great until December 2016 when I met the guy who would change the course of my life for a while. I met him online and he came out to visit me, and at first everything was good (as it always is), but after about a month everything turned south, and while I probably should've run then, me being me, I stuck around for another year. We got an apartment together, and it was a rollercoaster of so much crap. Out of respect for him, I won't get into too much detail but I can reassure everyone that we are both in better places and circumstances than we were even 6 months ago when we parted ways. We're still friends, and while the romantic love is completely gone, we will always still care about one another thanks to everything we went through together.
As I said, 6 months ago, this guy and I split, and I ended up back with my family in Fort Plain. While I was recovering from this trauma (which sounds dramatic but if you're my friend and you know the story, trust me I'm still dealing with the aftermath), an old friend from high school started hanging around with me every day, making sure I was good and not just sitting around crying. He showed me what it means to be cared for and what it's like to actually have someone who wants to be there for you. After a few weeks, he expressed that he had feelings for me, and while I was still coping with the last break-up I couldn't deny I was falling for him too. The night that made me fully realize my feelings for him went as follows: I got out of work 5 hours earlier than expected during an overnight shift and I hoped he was still in town, so I texted him asking if he could give me a ride home, and without hesitation he agreed. We had to drop one of his friends off first, then headed to my house, where we proceeded to talk in his car from 2am until 7am, about anything and everything. I remember telling him over and over that I couldn't fall for him, not yet, but also that I was and I didn't know what to do, and he promised to wait until I was 100% ready to be his. I remember how cute he looked in the glow of the streetlights while telling me stories of parties and stuff he had been through in the past few years; his smile made me melt. As the sun came up, clouds immediately covered it and it started to rain, so I headed inside to maybe get some sleep, but instead we continued texting the rest of the day. This was the day my heart chose him, but my mind was not ready to fully commit. A week or so passes, we're hanging out at his house, having a bonfire with our friends, including Tawny, who I told all my feelings about him to and she encouraged me to take the leap. I did...through a text message while he stood 5 feet away from us. He came over and officially asked me if I'd like to do lunch or a picnic with him, and I agreed. Within another 3-4 days, we were Facebook official (because you know if it's not on Facebook, it's not legit), and it's been a lovely 4 & 1/2 months together so far. We've been on adventures, probably the most exciting was going to Connecticut to see Thirty Seconds To Mars back in June, and have been through some not so exciting things, but whatever we go through we do so together, which is so new for me but I love it, and I love him.
The love I feel for him is different than I've ever felt for another guy before. I feel safe, like I can trust him with my entire life and I'm not just saying it to be cutesy. He's been in love with me since we were 16, so I know he's not going to intentionally hurt me and definitely won't cheat on me. And due to the fact that we were friends first for many many years, there are so secrets or surprises that will arise; we know one another like the back of our hands. Oh, and his daughter loves me too, and I happen to think she's adorable!
This is it, guys. He is my one and only. The Jughead to my Betty. The Roger to my Jessica Rabbit. My endgame, my future husband. No one else could ever capture my heart in the ways he has, and I'm not letting him go for anything.
Some people just say it for the cliche, but I really do get to spend my life with my best friend.

Now on to more personal Kristin things.

Over the past few years, my depression had gotten worse and worse, and with this last relationship it hit its all time low. There were points where I wouldn't even leave the bed for anything, wasn't eating properly, and would have to force myself to work. The apartment was in shambles when we left it; it took Cindy, her husband, his cousin, and me about 3 hours to clean it up so I could officially be done with it, and even then my depression was getting worse. Being with Billy has been fantastic, because he understand what I'm going through better than most and actually cares enough to listen, and that helps so much. I did start going to therapy a couple weeks ago and have discussed antianxiety meds and possibly antidepressants. I just want to get through a day without crying or feeling pathetic, or getting super angry about things I have no control over. I'd love the flashbacks to go away, and to wake up happy and not wanting to give up on myself every day. Depression isn't just "Wahh I'm sad", it's deeper than that, and hopefully my therapist can help me get through my issues, because I know I'm no fun to be with or be around at this point.

I feel like I covered a great deal of my past 6-8 years, and I promise to come back soon!
Hopefully I'll be more consistent here than I was on WordPress 😝

until next we meet...
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I love how I go a couple months without updating here then come back with so many new stories! :D When we last left off I was getting over Casey, still stuck on Lvlien while planning to move closer to him for college, and Dollface & I were inseparable.

And now...the update!

I have the most amazing boyfriend ever! Seriously, this one is going to last. We have so much in common [both personality and interest wise], my family loves him, and I know I love him too! His name is Justin, and without him I'd be so lost. He's really there for me through everything, and I know he loves me for me. We met while I was hanging out at FMCC and he was taken but liked Tawny. Long story short, he dated Tawny for 3 weeks, they broke up, I waited a few, then ATTACKED! Okay, not ATTACKED! but I did ask him out and he said yes :D Friday we will have been together for one amazing month, which y'all know is a big feat for me these days. I'm just so glad he's happy with me and we make each other happy :D
No other guys matter to me anymore, but I might as well fill you in on the Casey and Lvlien fronts. Casey dated The Uggo and abandoned me until they broke up, to which I told him I was happily taken :3 Lvlien became too busy for me and no longer speaks to me. Oh well. Like I said, no one else matters except Justin to me :3

Dollface and I just talked for the first time in nearly two months this morning. We've just both been super busy. He's getting ready to move to college in Massachussetts and still working as well as doing Rubix competitions. I'm so proud of him!

Alright, I'll let you all know a secret:
I've been using Tumblr and Wordpress more so in the past couple months so if you want to keep up follow me on there.
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And as always I still Twitter: @KristaVolpe.

until next we meet...
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"'Cause I'm lonely & I'm blue, I need you, & your love too..." ~ Fontella Bass!

Call me a weirdo but I love older music. For real, anything from the 1950s, later 1960s, scattered 1980s, 1990s, and early to mid 2000s (and the occasional new song/artist) make me a happy panda :D Working at Rite Aid I hear a bunch of songs I've come to fall in love with...like "Rescue Me".

Alright, here it goes. I'm sorry, readers; I've lied to you on several occasions. I said "Casey and I are done, I'm done, No going back" but he started texting me again, saying he loved me and that he's always loved me, he wants to marry me, blah blah blah, so what do I do? Granted, I know dang well he's a lost cause, I still take him back and wanted to help him. Today he stops talking to me, deleted me from Facebook, and refused to answer his phone. This time, I'm SERIOUS! I'm done. I can't take this anymore. He's got multiple personalities or Bi-polar or something seriously mentally wrong with him that I'm not able to help solve (yet; Psychology is what I'm going to college for).
All I'll say to you is you've lost all your chances. It's been a nice 7 months of being your on-again/off-again girlfriend when the Uggo doesn't want you or when you're aroused, but I cannot emotionally handle this anymore. My friends hate you. My family definitely doesn't approve of you. I need someone better, someone more mature, and someone who actually wants to be with me for the long haul. So goodbye, Casey William La Foe; it was fun while it lasted. Maybe, in time, our paths will cross again and we can at least be friends, but for now you're gone.

AND NOW FOR MY NEXT TRICK...
MVCC accepted me, which means I'll be moving out near Lvlien in September. This could be good or bad. Good, because we'll be getting to know each other more. Bad, because he called me "obsessive" and a "stalker" the other night :( Can't say that's the first time I've been called that but it hurts. I think he's over that though since he told me yesterday that he wants us to be friends right now, which I'm trying to be. It's hard when you live 2 hours apart *sigh*
Kinda like Dollface and I. I wish we could hang out more, but he's just over an hour away from me, doesn't have unlimited gas money, and I don't drive yet. Somehow, though, we make our friendship work :)

Speaking of Dollface, he was just in a Rubix competition yesterday and I believe he placed fourth :D Congratulations, I'm proud of you! ♥ Next he goes to Nationals!

OHOH! Last night, I hung out with Tawny, Anthony, my friend Josh from Georgia, and my ex Billy. Just hanging out with Anthony reminded me of old times...but not really :( I don't know, it just felt different to me, like he was distant. I guess that's what happens when you don't hang with someone for 3-5 months. We need to hang out one-on-one and rekindle the friendship, I think :3

Okay, now I'm going to lay down and maybe call Trevor or someone I haven't called in forever.
until next we meet...
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"Who would win in a fight - a big, strong guy or an invisible fat guy? " ~ Dr. Burton [Ed]

By request of Dollface I've returned here :P I've been updating my LiveJournal more often nowadays because I can do so right from my phone [ahem, Creators of Blogger, take notes! ;D].

WELLLLLLL...
Casey and I are officially not speaking and are over FOR GOOD! Seriously, I can't take his drama anymore, and he seems to have found a new girl to use anyways. Good for him, have a nice life. Lvlien are still talking on occasion; sometimes I feel like he's more interested than others but it's also because we haven't seen each other in person in a month almost. Once I go to college out there it'll all be okay :)
And yes, I do plan on going to college in the Utica/Rome area. Mohawk Valley Community College. If all goes well, I'll transfer to a Rite Aid out there and everything will be all hunky-dunky :P
Also, recently I've gotten back in touch with an old friend from 2008, Chris. He used to live in Florida but now he's in Virginia. We talked for a good 2 hours almost last night and I'm hoping he calls me again tonight :) For real, he makes me smile.

Dollface and I have gotten so much closer over the past couple weeks, and I love it! Here's what I wrote about him in my LiveJournal:

What I'd really like to tell you about is my favorite person in the entire world. All my life I've wanted one friend who I felt completely understood me without getting annoyed. Cindy came close but even I knew she got annoyed with me sometimes, and now we're both just super busy and never see each other. Cora was also on this list, but we never get to see each other and are so different with a lot of subjects best friends should agree on. No, my closest friend is a guy named Alex or, as I like to call him, Dollface. The story? Simple. He and I met through http://okcupid.com back in March when Casey & I weren't talking. At first I was super in like with Alex; serious that kid became my everything for about a week. Then one Friday night I was really stressed out so I told him about it and he came to Fort Plain! Meeting him was so much fun! I wouldn't have the events of that night any other way; the waiting at Rite Aid all day just for him to show up, the walk on the dark path to find Sherry, the cops yelling at us for parking in a closed park, the hour long drive just for McDonald's at 11pm to midnight, not sleeping, and the hug he gave me at the door of my job the next morning. Best night I had in a while. Nowadays he and I talk about everything and anything. Without him I'd be super lost and my life would suck. He knows more about me than anyone else ever will. He is my rock, my go-to guy, and I love him. Best friend ever

OHOHOHOH!! I cannot believe I left this out!
A few years back, there was this show on NBC called Ed that I fell completely in love with. Well, like all the shows I get into, it only lasted 4 seasons then disappeared :/ The other day I did a random search and found the COMPLETE SERIES to download. I'm now in the process of putting them all on DVD and watching them. I feel like I'm back in middle school again. It's so great! If you've never heard of Ed, I forgive you; not many have. Just Google it.

And with that, my friends, I depart to load the dishwasher and lay down because I started to feel dizzy :(
until next we meet...
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"No, she's dead. This is her son." ~ Kurt from GLEE!

And it's back to me being on my own again. Casey ran away, it seems. My text messages and phone calls go unnoticed, which is just proof that he and I aren't meant to be. Honestly, I could've told you all that much sooner but whatever. Lvlien and I are still talking so I'm remaining hopeful and trying to not get super attached yet, which we all know is difficult for me :/

I think this is just proof I need to concentrate on me, myself, and I for a while. I can like the guys, and heck I can even love them, but maybe a relationship isn't perfect for me right now. And my standards are going to go way up. I want someone like me; someone who wants love and all that, someone who can be random and giggle at stupid, corny things, someone who likes to cuddle more than have sex. Honestly, that sounds like Dollface but he and I are just friends, and we're happy that way.
I want someone who can sit on the phone with me for hours and not get bored. Someone who will watch my favorite movies and television shows with me, even though I've seen everything a million times before, just so they can understand me more. Someone who will go to concerts with me and protect me against the mosh pits. Someone nice, cuddly, and dependable (no, dude from He's Just Not That Into You, that doesn't mean I won't sleep with you eventually!). Someone who will help me support my ice cream and energy drink habits, and enjoy them! Seriously, like I said, I want the male version of myself. He's out there...hiding.

Also, Kyle has deleted his Facebook because I won't date him, or so it seems. Seriously, that was so high school and I'm sorry but I had to move on. Can't stay pining over one guy forever unless he's going to sweep you off your feet right then and there, eh? :)

Alright, I'm done ranting. Time to get the kitty ready for the vet. My Dewey decided to fight with neighborhood cats and get injured *sigh*
until next we meet...
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Random venting session at 12:30am

The old adage says "Old habits die hard". Well, in my life, it seems to be "Exboyfriends don't know when enough is enough". For instance, just when I start to get over one of them, 3 of them come out of the woodwork and begin attempting to woo me back. Seriously, some of them I've dated 2, 3, even 4 times; it's just a hopeless cause if we got back together. I can honestly tell you how it would end and when, and that's pretty bad.
For right now I'm living the "Whatever happens, happens" lifestyle, and I'm loving it. I get to be me and not have to answer to anyone over anything. Yes, I still look to Dollface, Cora, and now Lvlien for advice, but that's a given. I don't have all the answers to everything, and sometimes they seem to :)

"I've got no strife; I'm loving life. Could you say the same?" ~ Smash Mouth :)
until next we meet...
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"It's 3 AM, She won't put out, Let's go make-out with her friends, Make-out with her friends..." ~ Mindless Self Indulgence!

Since yesterday I've had a new-found love of the band Mindless Self Indulgence. I've always liked them but now I know they're happy and bouncy...even if the lyrics aren't. This song just happens to be my main ringtone for the day :D

Since my last post...
I went to see The Used at Northern Lights last Wednesday and it was amazing! Getting hit in the head with a shoe was totally worth meeting them afterwards :D
Yesterday, I met my friend from online in person, Lvlien. Seriously, he's a really great guy and I like him lots :D And to think he seems super shady but that's just because you have to meet him in person to understand. He came and picked me up, took me to his apartment, hung out with me for almost 10 hours, then brought me home. Most fun I've had in forever, and his friend's pretty cool too :) I can't wait to hang out with him again! <3

Casey has decided to come back into my life (surprise, surprise). Seriously, though, I'm confused about him; one minute he's all fine and dandy, and the next he seems confused too. Lvlien thinks he could be a bit bipolar. *sigh* Also, Kyle has decided he's in love with me too. I'm thinking this is a bit ridiculous. I know what I like and what I want out of life. I just need a guy who can accept that and still want me.

Okay, I'm freezing. It's starting to feel like winter again here :( Please, for the love of God, don't let it snow anymore! :'(
until next we meet...
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"And that's why Your eyes (I'm over it) Your smile (I'm over it) Realized (I'm over it, Over it, Over it)..." ~ Katharine McPhee!

Normally I wouldn't listen to or quote this kind of music, but for real it's so fitting for me right now.
Casey decided to come back into my life and say he still loves me and wants to give me another chance (big shocker there) so like a puppy I went back to him with the thought every girl has in this situation: "Maybe it'll be different and better this time". Different, yes; there seems to be another girl who gives him affections over Facebook, and in all honesty, I'm done. Seriously, I need someone who actually wants to be with me for good and isn't going to leave me every other week only to come back and do this whole thing all over again. It's ridiculous. And I'm sick of it. I do love him, don't get me wrong; he's one of the only guys I could really say "I love you" to and not regret it, but he doesn't seem to really love me. Like Dollface and I decided, maybe there's more than just me and the other girl he's "mackin'" on. For real, though, I need a decent guy. I'm done with these boys who only want one thing and/or who can't make up their minds.
This is why I'm in a relationship with myself on Facebook :) Only I can love me like I want to be loved, in every way, shape, and form. And that is that!

*sigh* So much angst and drama.

until next we meet...
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"Does he let you tell him all your favorite parts when you've seen it a million times?..." ~ A Rocket to the Moon!

I'm up at FMCC for the day, while Tawny is in and out of class. I also have a slight cold and sound like a pubescent little boy due to lack of voice but I'm going to make the best of my day :) That's all we can do, right?

Yesterday I rewatched GLEE season one to gear up for season two, which I saw the first episode of as well :P I'm going to make copies of that season too when all the episodes are out. And I'm seriously considering auditioning; like Dollface and I said, the worst they can say is "You suck." Once I don't sound like a pubescent boy I'll post a video for it :) *crosses fingers*
I've also been talking to one of my exes, Dan, and things seem to be looking up, although we do have a lot to catch up on. He and I haven't spoken in almost 3 years I believe...yes, A LOT has changed.

Alright...I spot an Andrew-Kitty :D
until next we meet...
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"Some will win, Some will lose, Some were born to sing the blues..." ~ GLEE!

I KNOW MY SUBJECT SONG IS ORIGINALLY BY JOURNEY! I just happen to be liking the Glee Cast version better nowadays. That show has been my obsession for the past couple weeks or so, and if I'm correct they're still holding auditions on MySpace. I'd love to audition but I know I'm not good at singing or dancing, so I'll live vicariously through my friend Matt and make him audition because he's AMAZING at both :D For now I shall just settle for being a GLEEk and watch the new episode later.

Alrighty. So.
Casey and I are talking again, or at least we're trying to. It's a trying process I think; too much history between us. My ex, Billy, asked me out today and I told him I'm not looking for a relationship of any kind right now, which is true; I'm sick of being hurt and thrown to the curb after 2 weeks. So now this new guy, Garrett, is texting with me and getting annoyed that I'm just not looking to immediately jump into a relationship with him, but like I said...don't want to get hurt. Now I have trust issues. Grr.
Other than that, I think James is off my phone plan now. I was going to kick him off yesterday but he convinced me that he was leaving it today to go on his father's phone plan so I hope that's what happened. It's not that I hated having him on; it's complicated.

GLEE STARTS BACK UP AGAIN TONIGHT! :D I just have to wait for Hulu to have it online later so I can watch it :)

until next we meet...
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"Sex in stereo, Don't turn the radio down" ~ All Time Low!

It's been a while since I've listened to All Time Low but Dollface just texted me asking what a good ATL song is, which is like asking me to recite the Declaration Of Independence :P I love All Time Low, especially "Remembering Sunday". I remember the first time I heard that song; it was at a Pops Concert while I was still in High School and a kid named Josiah played it on guitar with an introduction that said "This is for my girlfriend, because her hair smells like cinnamon". Ahhh, memories.

Today was pretty good. I got up, got dressed, and took a bunch of pictures to which I will show you a couple of them:

I've always wanted a picture with Dollface. He sent me a text message. There you go.

I think I'm improving in looks :) The one where my head is tilted has to be my favorite :D
Then at 4:15 I had an orthodontist appointment. The doctor tightened every wire in my mouth so I'm a little sore right now :/ Then when I got home my littlest brother threw a DVD at my face so my entire head hurt. At 6pm I went to SHIN3_Live where I saw my friends Matt, Emily, Chris, and Stephanie, and I also ran the projector with the song lyrics so everyone could sing along. Catchphrase of the night was "There's an app for that!" thanks to Emily. When I got home at 8 I ate dinner and did dishes, in which I broke a ceramic container :(

Earlier today my sister and I uncovered my old journal I wrote in for about two years during classes and such when we lived in Amsterdam. In it is a bunch of stuff about Elijah (my first boyfriend), Donny, Zach, Dan, and random people before I got into blogging online :D It's so funny to read it now because in some aspects I'm exactly the same and in others I'm completely different. Like, back then, every other entry I was like "Oh no, Elijah's going to leave me?! :(" which would then be followed up with a "Yay, we're still together! :D:D:D" entry maybe 30 minutes after. Nowadays, I tell you all about the break up a week later :P I'm still as clingy and whatnot, but back then it was to the extreme! :o Also, I'm going to start saying "Jell-O" and "Cherry lollipops"; don't understand? You'll catch on ;D

Alright...I'm going to go back to check what Tawny said back to me on Facebook :P
until next we meet...
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A Quickie [part 2938298]

I don't even think Dollface reads this anymore, considering the fact that he's always super busy and I hardly update :/ But yeah...anyone else even read this?!

ANYWAYS...
I've begun exercising with the Wii Fit recently and am loving it! Although my abs burn and ache like crazy I know this is just the beginning of great things to come (like actually looking attractive in a swimsuit :o) and a healthier lifestyle.
No dating or boys for me for a while. I'm done with the drama and just want to concentrate on me. Isn't that just wonderful?

My Formspring is lacking questions. You all should change this by asking me something in the text box located to your right :D

until next we meet...
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"I'd scream this song, Right in your face if you were here..." ~ Story of the Year!

I was going through old blog entries and stumbled upon this list that I seemed to have forgotten in my stream of heartbreaks and whatnot:

I FINALLY know exactly what I want in a guy...

• Firstly, he should want to be with me
• Be there to hold me through the nightmare and wipe away the tears that I shed from all the damage I've been put through
• Someone who will sing me to sleep, either on the phone or in person
• Someone who will push me around in the back of a shopping cart
• Someone who fully accepts me; dreams, wishes, scars, everything
• He can't walk away from me when I need him
• Laugh at my humorous things (I can be funny)
• Don't put me down, ever
• Don't lie to me; it disappoints me more than knowing the cold truth
• Spend hours on the phone with me, just because it helps him feel close to me, and I can hear his voice; maybe even fall asleep on the phone with me
• Someone who will make me feel safe...even when I'm not in their arms
• We should have things in common, but I'm very open-minded and willing to try new things
• MUST be open-minded; if he's not, he won't be able to put up with me
• His looks are secondary, but he should be attractive in my eyes
• He should tell me I'm beautiful, because he truly thinks I am
• Finally, I just want a guy who will simply stand still with me...as if we're the only two people left in existence...or so we should feel...

Casey didn't fit this. Andrew didn't fit this. James didn't fit this. Heck, even Spencer didn't fit this. But eventually this is what I want.
So now I must tell myself to stop falling for everyone that bats their eyes at me and calls me pretty. Seriously, I need to find this someday and I won't be able to do that by going weak at the knees for every guy.

Other than that, I'm sick of being screwed over. Like, seriously, one day this guy's telling me he's done with his ex, she's psycho, no more...and then they're back together, happily. I'm done with it. I can't have anymore drama; it's exhausting. Oh yeah...just read a comment he left her on her Facebook. I'm done. They're just one of those couples that will always be a couple regardless of whether they're actually dating or not.

I'll come back later with an update of the past week, maybe.

And with that, I depart.
until next we meet...
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"Though some say I will heal over time, it doesn't; Seem too likely..." ~ Celldweller!

Almost a week goes by and so much happens in my life. Seriously I wish I could hit a pause button or something and rewind to the beginning of last week and tell myself not to make the stupid mistakes.
Why am I going off about mistakes? Simple; things that happened last week could've been avoided with more thought on my part.

Allow me to explain...

Last Tuesday Casey asked me back out and like a puppy I said yes. Dollface and Cora both warned me not to but Kristin never listens, eh? Anyways thinks were going great for the first 2 days; he'd call me each night and we'd actually talk about stuff :D Then came Friday where he didn't talk to me most of the day. Thank God for Dollface or else I probably would've gone insane. He sat there and listened to me freak out over "Where is my boyfriend? Why wouldn't he just text me saying he can't talk right now?!" Saturday started out as probably one of the worst days ever. Work sucked, and for some reason everyone that came in reminded me of Casey, who still hadn't responded to me at all! AT&T shut my phone off at this point, so I used the work phone to call my parents, Dollface, and Casey. Dollface called me back and calmed me down but then when I finally got Casey he screamed at me, saying I'm psychotic and he can't handle it, blah blah blah. Well by the end of the night he dumped me...while I was at the movies with Tawny, via text message. Whatever. Yeah, Tawny and I went to see The Bounty Hunter and it was sooooooo good! :D After the movies and our dinner of McDonald's we stopped at the bowling alley and saw Chris who was drunk and stumbling haha. Good times :D

Anyways, on the Casey subject, I need to get over him. Like, seriously, he never really loved me apparently and all he really wanted was one thing. Whatevers. On to the next one.
Right now I'm just having fun with friends and stuff. We'll see where this leads.

OHOH, my subject for this blog are lyrics from Celldweller, this amazing band Dollface got me into :D GO LOOK THEM UP...NOW! :o
Another thing: Anyone remember Justin Berfield, the actor who played Reese in Malcolm in the Middle? Last night he was having a live Tweet session on Twitter and actually answered my question!
justinberfield: RT @KristaVolpe: @justinberfield Is there a way to watch #SonsOfTucson online for free, streaming? HULU.COM AFTER AIRING
^^YESSSSS!!!!! Life is complete! ;D

until next we meet...
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A quickie for lulz

So I wanted to reactivate my RUMR phone from Sprint and to do so I went online. Here's the results.

5:34:35 PM		Pamela	Hello, I will be more than happy to assist you today. May I ask is 518-844-1013 the number that you are chatting in about ?
5:34:38 PM		Me	Kristin Staples
5:34:43 PM		Me	Yes
5:34:50 PM		Pamela	Thanks
5:34:55 PM		Pamela	For account security and verification, may I please have the 6-10 digit PIN number on your account?
5:35:10 PM		Me	I don't have a PIN
5:35:30 PM		Pamela	That's ok , How about First pet's name?
5:35:42 PM		Me	Pringles
5:36:00 PM		Me	At least I think that's the answer
5:36:50 PM		Pamela	That is incorrect, I have just sent the information to show reject @gmail
5:37:39 PM		Me	realityshowreject@gmail.com
5:37:45 PM		Me	I never got it
5:38:15 PM		Pamela	refresh the Internet page & check the mail gain.
5:38:50 PM		Me	It's still not there
5:40:05 PM		Pamela	I certainly do apologize, without the account authenticated I will not be able to activate the phone, However You may sign into your my sprint account to check the PIN.
5:40:51 PM		Pamela	Could it be another PET'S name?
5:40:59 PM		Me	Claire
5:41:06 PM		Me	could that be it?
5:41:21 PM		Pamela	That's it
5:41:32 PM		Pamela	Please allow me just a moment to review the account.
5:41:44 PM		Me	Okay
5:42:30 PM		Me	Is there a way for us to reactivate this account?
5:42:37 PM		Pamela	May I please have the ESN/DEC number from your new phone? It can be found inside your phone under the battery.
5:43:04 PM		Me	268435457600112384
5:44:18 PM		Pamela	This account has been canceled since 08-10-2009, may I ask , the phone that you would like to activate, is that for this account?
5:44:44 PM		Me	Yes. Unless it'd be easier to put it on a new account?
5:46:20 PM		Pamela	I certainly do apologize, the account is canceled & the phone cannot be activated , however you certainly may contact the Financial Services Department to discuss the balance & activation.
5:46:43 PM		Me	Okay. Thank you for your help.
5:47:00 PM		Pamela	You are most certainly very welcome!

Yeah....lame. I'll be back later.
until next we meet...
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"You may be 20,000 miles away but I can see ya and baby baby you can see me..." ~ *NSYNC!

Dollface updated this last night with some of his own opinions, which I think is amazing! Seriously if he agrees I'll make him a partner here and he can contribute every so often or as much as his heart desires.
Currently he and I are going to be working on a screenplay which will be located here so take a look if you're interested.

Okay, now to my life...or lack thereof.
Friday night, Sherry, Cora, and I all stayed at Sherry's apartment and I think they literally talked all night. I now know Sherry's entire life story, give or take a few details. And even before this, I had Chris come over and he brought a friend. They left within five minutes without even saying goodbye :( I think I suck at life. But anyways, I'm glad Sherry and Cora get along nicely and I hope we can do more interesting things at the next gathering. Oh, and I'm going to need more than 40 minutes of sleep while doing so, just an FYI.
Lately I've been having weird dreams, like ones where I'm dating Cora's exboyfriend and another where I'm making out with my biological father only to find out he's gay!? Seriously, can anyone make sense of these or am I losing it?

I'm sorry this is super short. I just don't have much to write about tonight and I have to go do dishes.
until next we meet...
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I'll think of you in my dreams. You'll never know just what you mean to me..... ~ IVY

"You know what else grinds my gears? ...You America!" ~ Peter Griffin
But seriously, you know what grinds my gears? The fucking "one-up guy" (a female/male who always has to one-up everything anyone says or does). Its like, what the fuck!, calm down. If I say, oh I had to write a 5 page paper, they wrote a 6 page paper, in Latin. If I say I haven't slept in 2 days, they say they haven't slept in 3. If I say I made some lemonade this morning, the one-upper says well I grew, watered, and harvested some orangelos then made myself some orangelo juice... Who the fuck does that? Really, do you always have to dick and ball skootch all over everything I fucking say? Why don't all you mother fuckers go home and fuck the white bitch some more?
{[violent scream]}

Till next time, fuck thyself.

Dollface <3

Musicals, Happiness, and Other Random Thoughts :D

Sherry posted this on her Facebook and I think I'm in love:

Seriously, I want my life to be a musical much like this one. I'd love it if I had my merry choir of friends and many costume changes and random outbursts of dance! It'd be legendary...who's with me?!

Last night with Sherry was fun :) Ice cream at 11pm, random phone conversations, internet...<3
The topic of the night was "If two girls were willing to have a threesome with you but you had to wait at least two weeks to do so, could you?". Most guys said they'd wait, only maybe 7 said they couldn't. Men, where is your willpower?! It's not everyday you get offered a threesome (or maybe it is, I don't know all of you).

ANYWAYS...

I have come to realize that 2010 is going to be my year :) It started out crap; Casey used me, certain people are no longer my friends, college rejected me, etc. But now I know it's only March but seriously this is the happiest I've been in years. I finally know who my real friends are and who I can trust :D And I'm so grateful to have met Alex/Dollface because without him I'd probably still be blah and emo about everything; he's one of the few people who can make me laugh and calm me down when I want to just break everything in sight out of anger. And who would've thought anything good could come from a dating site? Haha! I'm also glad Sherry and I have gotten close again; I've missed having a friend in town I can hang out with and talk to. And of course I still have my Cora who I love and trust with everything, and that boyyy who occasionally pops in and out for an update/laugh :D I'm loving life!

That is all for tonight. I feel like going to sleep or something.
until next we meet...
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"Boys boys boys, With Hairspray and denim, Boys Boys Boys, We love them!..." ~ Lady Gaga!

Eventful day for me :) I know that's a lame way to start but whatever. I had my first of three driving lessons today and the instructor told me I actually did quite well for a first time driver :D I'm excited because once I get my license I can actually go places and see people more!
And I'm just mentioning this now: I MISS MY DOLLFACE-MONSTER! :3 Seriously, I know I talk to him constantly throughout the day but I really liked spending time with him in person and cannot wait to do that again. Soon.

And I totally had something I was going to go off on but I can't remember what it was now, mainly because I'm kinda distracted by Lady Gaga and the fact that I'm going to spend the night at Sherry's tonight.
OH! I've been using my Tumblr more recently and I'm loving it; click here to see what I mean :)

AHHHH I remember now! So my lesson was in Schenectady and when my dad dropped me off he basically left me to my own devices and I had no clue where I was! I sent out a frantic text message to Dollface who called me and showed me around via Google Earth, which I love because it's very The Lake House in my opinion :) He's my Keanu Reeves. But still I definitely don't belong in Schenectady at all; they don't even dress like me :o I hope I never get lost there, ever; I'll die!

Okay, I need to go do dishes and grab a couple things to take to Sherry's tonight :D
until next we meet...
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